I Need To Save You.

Blue Fox. I need to save you.

I miss you, I really do and I wish I was there to help you. I love you and I think this isn't the right way. You are a smart guy, you're motivational and you have the talent to inspire but sometimes, you take your talents and do crappy stuff with it. You are better than that and sooooo much smarter than that. I know what you love, I know what you like and I know you are better than that so please, grow the fuck up. And I'm only saying this because I love you. I love you to death. You know I'm always here for you. Always and forever. I still want to be with you btw, but this has to stop.

Twitching, Farting and Drooling

Last night, I was a little worried why Blue Fox wasn't coming to bed, usually he would be asleep by 10pm or something and be sleeping in the bedroom but last night, he and his roommates were in the other room, talking and I had no idea what they were talking about and they were there for hours! So I went to bed at about 10:30pm since they all left me in the living room by myself but I only slept until 11:30pm. Blue Fox came into the bedroom for a couple seconds to find me "sleeping" and then left, and then I think when he went out they were talking about me, how long am I staying, what am I going to do and things like that and I heard Blue Fox say something like he'll have me try and find a job or he'll help me find a job, either one so... That's when the awkwardness heightened for me. I just stayed under the covers for hours... It's 1am and Blue Fox isn't coming to bed and I'm actually worried because he's not even replying to my text messages about if he's coming to bed or not.