A Dollar-Worth of Thoughts And Two Dozen Powdered Donettes.

For the last two weeks, it has been really hard for me lately. I'm trying to figure out how to make things work in my life, I'm now talking to Ryan again and of course, I can't stop thinking about Blue Fox.

Two days ago, I was probably at my craziest.

Twitching, Farting and Drooling

Last night, I was a little worried why Blue Fox wasn't coming to bed, usually he would be asleep by 10pm or something and be sleeping in the bedroom but last night, he and his roommates were in the other room, talking and I had no idea what they were talking about and they were there for hours! So I went to bed at about 10:30pm since they all left me in the living room by myself but I only slept until 11:30pm. Blue Fox came into the bedroom for a couple seconds to find me "sleeping" and then left, and then I think when he went out they were talking about me, how long am I staying, what am I going to do and things like that and I heard Blue Fox say something like he'll have me try and find a job or he'll help me find a job, either one so... That's when the awkwardness heightened for me. I just stayed under the covers for hours... It's 1am and Blue Fox isn't coming to bed and I'm actually worried because he's not even replying to my text messages about if he's coming to bed or not.