I. Just. CAN'T.
I mean, there is just SOMETHING about Hottie that just makes me want to... HNNNNNGH.
He isn't the most good-looking person I know, but the longer you look at him, there's this charisma that just pulls you right in. He has this certain charm that he's not aware of. Which makes him even more charming.
Seriously. I must hold myself back and stop with all this nonsense of texting him. I started this daily gratitude update with him. At the end of the day, we text each other the 3 things we're grateful for, no matter how big or small. This kind of daily exchange is a great way to pay attention to the little things in life and it's also a good way to get to know him better.
I call him Hottie. He calls me Beautiful. *gushgushgush*
What I've learned so far about him is that he was suppose to enter the seminary (thank GOD that didn't push through), he's a deeply spiritual person, he loves his parents to death, he's applying for a scholarship in school, and he wants to take up film and be a director in the future.
I have no trouble believing him. He's a bad-ass visual artist, he helps out TONS in theater productions in school, he's got stamina I wish I had, and he just loves to help out people to bring their visions to life. Plus, he's a Josh Groban fan. *cartwheels*
And there's this other day that I asked him what he was grateful for and one of them was:
"....I'm grateful for you for making me think about the simple joys in life. :)"
Please be mine,
Awkward Turtle
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Musical Turtle
Haven't posted much like I planned to but for a good reason... I was recording my first EVAR original song! After I recorded cover songs at our family friend's recording studio, he decided that my sister and I are good enough to have our own album of ORIGINALS. Like, omg. Next thing I knew, he contacted one of his composer friends who sent us a few samples.
So this looong weekend (no classes from Saturday til Tuesday here in the Philippines), we were at the recording studio, revising lyrics and the melody, and finally- recording! I'm still deciding if I should post it online but my material is still pretty raw.
Right now, I just want to drown somewhere because I have to compose lyrics for my second original song. Hnnnngh. Say what you want, but songwriting's a bitch, especially when inspiration just seems so elusive these days.
A milestone toward a dream,
Awkward Turtle
So this looong weekend (no classes from Saturday til Tuesday here in the Philippines), we were at the recording studio, revising lyrics and the melody, and finally- recording! I'm still deciding if I should post it online but my material is still pretty raw.
Right now, I just want to drown somewhere because I have to compose lyrics for my second original song. Hnnnngh. Say what you want, but songwriting's a bitch, especially when inspiration just seems so elusive these days.
A milestone toward a dream,
Awkward Turtle
How Does This Make Otter Feel?
Blue Fox moved into his new dorm-apartment with his roommates and setting up the tv and all of that. I'm excited for him and that he'll be starting school soon but he told me that he's not too excited because for one, he won't have much time for me and two, his apartment has little signal so when we do talk, we might get cut often. I'm a little upset that I won't be able to talk to him often but I know that he has to do what he has to do and make some sacrifices to committ to what he promised from the beginning... Sigh. A little sad.
Last night, we were talking about the things that we wanted to do together and planned all these things... Apparently, he's thinking of getting his own off-campus apartment with roommates in the spring and - EMBRACE YOURSELF TURTLE - he asked if I'd like to be a roommate! I know that I can't stay in Washington forever and being with my aunt and cousin wouldn't be healthy for me anyways. I told mother that I was thinking of moving out once I have enough money for an apartment and I asked mother if I could move from the west coast to the east, and she approved because I was told enough to do what I want so... I got that settled, I just need enough money to move my ass out of here. And it's nice to know that his cousins (females) and friends will be there.
IT'S DECIDED.
If this Air Force thing doesn't work out and they never call me, I'm heading out there and going back to school. I just need to work at the moment to get the money but Blue Fox keeps telling me that he wants me there now and that I don't have to pay for a whole year because he can support me. (LAUGHS) As sweet as that is, I'll work and pay too.
Otter: Don't do that. I'll feel guilty for using your money.
Blue Fox: I know but you should feel more guilty for not being here with me.
Swimming in serious water,
Otter
Last night, we were talking about the things that we wanted to do together and planned all these things... Apparently, he's thinking of getting his own off-campus apartment with roommates in the spring and - EMBRACE YOURSELF TURTLE - he asked if I'd like to be a roommate! I know that I can't stay in Washington forever and being with my aunt and cousin wouldn't be healthy for me anyways. I told mother that I was thinking of moving out once I have enough money for an apartment and I asked mother if I could move from the west coast to the east, and she approved because I was told enough to do what I want so... I got that settled, I just need enough money to move my ass out of here. And it's nice to know that his cousins (females) and friends will be there.
IT'S DECIDED.
If this Air Force thing doesn't work out and they never call me, I'm heading out there and going back to school. I just need to work at the moment to get the money but Blue Fox keeps telling me that he wants me there now and that I don't have to pay for a whole year because he can support me. (LAUGHS) As sweet as that is, I'll work and pay too.
Otter: Don't do that. I'll feel guilty for using your money.
Blue Fox: I know but you should feel more guilty for not being here with me.
Swimming in serious water,
Otter
... To Be Continued
August 29th: I was getting ready for my interview and I was so nervous while I was getting changed. Was I missing something? Is my outfit too plan? Is it too much? Is this blouse alright? Do these heels fit my outfit?
After putting all my clothes together, I actually looked pretty cute. (laughs) but I was still nervous that I couldn't eat my breakfast so I texted Blue Fox about it and he told me that when I get nervous, I just had to think about him doing the Native Indian bonfire dance song~ And that made me feel better but I don't think that I would be able to take the interview seriously because I would be laughing too much.
I was 30 minutes early for my interview and was able to take the interview ten minutes early but right when I was about to walk to the door, Blue Fox texted me, "Be confident! You got this!" and that boost up my energy A LOT! It really helped... I knew that I was confident to do well on the job but I just wanted the job so much that I got nervous. Thank you, Blue Fox.
The guy that was suppose to interview me was Eric Johnson but he was out sick so a guy named Peter who was one of the head managers of the company I'm going for and after a 20-minute interview, I was given to Vanessa who is the HR and she had to give me a 15-minute interview... Then, she called up a guy named Diego who is in charge of the position that I'm applying for and he showed me the things that they do and it seemed so chaotic, I was almost overwhelmed and he said, "But don't be overwhelmed because once you start working in this area, it gets easy... It's just fast paced." and I was totally fine with that. He also told me that when and if I do work, it's best to wear flats because you'll have to be climbing a lot on the job and since I was wearing heels for my interview, he commented on me saying, "But it's good to see that you're wearing heels because you have an interview and you look absolutely great."
I was told that I would be given a call regarding if I got the job or not but since they gave me a tour of the job that I'm going for... It makes me think that I got it? Because when you go to get interviewed, they don't show you the job. I don't know, maybe that's how they do it. But I told Blue Fox about it and he thinks the same... And he also said, "Now... I'm excited." (LAUGHS)
Later that night, we spoke on the phone for a little bit but he was sleepy so I decided to let him sleep since he has his last day of work before he moves in to his apartment for school.
Sigh, I miss him.
Now all I have to do is wait for them to call me.
Waiting patiently,
Otter
After putting all my clothes together, I actually looked pretty cute. (laughs) but I was still nervous that I couldn't eat my breakfast so I texted Blue Fox about it and he told me that when I get nervous, I just had to think about him doing the Native Indian bonfire dance song~ And that made me feel better but I don't think that I would be able to take the interview seriously because I would be laughing too much.
I was 30 minutes early for my interview and was able to take the interview ten minutes early but right when I was about to walk to the door, Blue Fox texted me, "Be confident! You got this!" and that boost up my energy A LOT! It really helped... I knew that I was confident to do well on the job but I just wanted the job so much that I got nervous. Thank you, Blue Fox.
The guy that was suppose to interview me was Eric Johnson but he was out sick so a guy named Peter who was one of the head managers of the company I'm going for and after a 20-minute interview, I was given to Vanessa who is the HR and she had to give me a 15-minute interview... Then, she called up a guy named Diego who is in charge of the position that I'm applying for and he showed me the things that they do and it seemed so chaotic, I was almost overwhelmed and he said, "But don't be overwhelmed because once you start working in this area, it gets easy... It's just fast paced." and I was totally fine with that. He also told me that when and if I do work, it's best to wear flats because you'll have to be climbing a lot on the job and since I was wearing heels for my interview, he commented on me saying, "But it's good to see that you're wearing heels because you have an interview and you look absolutely great."
I was told that I would be given a call regarding if I got the job or not but since they gave me a tour of the job that I'm going for... It makes me think that I got it? Because when you go to get interviewed, they don't show you the job. I don't know, maybe that's how they do it. But I told Blue Fox about it and he thinks the same... And he also said, "Now... I'm excited." (LAUGHS)
Later that night, we spoke on the phone for a little bit but he was sleepy so I decided to let him sleep since he has his last day of work before he moves in to his apartment for school.
Sigh, I miss him.
Now all I have to do is wait for them to call me.
Waiting patiently,
Otter
Tuesday, August 30, 2011
Cute Moments with Otter and Blue Fox
I think Blue Fox and I are getting... Serious. I mean, this whole time, I know we liked each other A LOT but I guess last night was just one of those moments where I feel like we've leveled up in... Whatever this is. We share things that we normally don't share with other people, we're open with each other and we already made a list of what we want to do with each other and surprisingly, what he wants to do ends up being what I've always wanted to do... It gets more and more scary when we figure out how we have so much in common.
For the last few days now - and you're going to laugh Turtle - whenever we're on the phone together at night, we both brush our teeth together while on the phone! YES, ON THE PHONE. So I can hear him brushing his teeth and he's laughing and I'm brushing my teeth and laughing and... It's just one of the cutest moments that I enjoy a lot and it make me really happy for some reason.
Blue Fox: Go shower but don't brush your teeth yet. I want us to do that together...
At about 12am, he told me that I had to sleep early because I have an interview in the morning and as much as I didn't want to be let go, I know I had to go. But he told me, "Just take a deep breath and smile... And you'll get the job." siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh, whenever he gives me words of encouragement... I feel this sense of energy that uplifts my spirit.
Otter: Siiiiigh. I'm doing this just for future reasons and to make this guy that I really like reeeally happy because he's nomu nomu nomu nomu special to me. And I hope this makes him feel better since I can't be there to take care of him... Yet.
Blue Fox: If I had cancer, it would have been cured. That's how great I feel.
... To be continued.
For the last few days now - and you're going to laugh Turtle - whenever we're on the phone together at night, we both brush our teeth together while on the phone! YES, ON THE PHONE. So I can hear him brushing his teeth and he's laughing and I'm brushing my teeth and laughing and... It's just one of the cutest moments that I enjoy a lot and it make me really happy for some reason.
Blue Fox: Go shower but don't brush your teeth yet. I want us to do that together...
At about 12am, he told me that I had to sleep early because I have an interview in the morning and as much as I didn't want to be let go, I know I had to go. But he told me, "Just take a deep breath and smile... And you'll get the job." siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh, whenever he gives me words of encouragement... I feel this sense of energy that uplifts my spirit.
Otter: Siiiiigh. I'm doing this just for future reasons and to make this guy that I really like reeeally happy because he's nomu nomu nomu nomu special to me. And I hope this makes him feel better since I can't be there to take care of him... Yet.
Blue Fox: If I had cancer, it would have been cured. That's how great I feel.
... To be continued.
Saturday, August 27, 2011
Possessed Together.
LOL, well Turtle, you see... Since he calls me... I don't pay a cent! LOL. He's the one that calls me in the morning the minute I wake up to greet me, and calls me when work is slow or when he's making deliveries and then calls me when he gets home. Crazy, right? But he told me that he's never missed anyone so much in his life. It's a bit insane, actually.
Earlier in the night, my nine-year-old cousin got the courage to talk to Blue Fox on the phone but I had it on speakphone but I didn't tell Blue Fox that and I heard my cousin asked him, "Do you like Otter?" and he was like, "Do I like Otter? Hmm, what do you think?" and she said, "Yes!" and he said, "So does that also mean that I get your permission to like her?". She asked him how much he liked me and he said a lot, more than 120% and then when I spoke to him on the phone, she kept on bullying me so he asked me if he could talk to my cousin again and I put him on speakerphone and he said to her, "Can you try and be nicer to Otter?" and my cousin was like, "Why?" and he said, "Because it hurts my heart. I don't like to see her or hear her hurt. It's like when someone is being mean to your mother or someone that you really love get hurt by someone else, it's a terribe feeing and that's what I feel with Otter when you bully her. So, can you please be nicer to her?" and my cousin said that she will... Although, if you knew her well enough, you know she wouldn't give a rats ass about those things but to hear Blue Fox say that... I was blown away.
And apparently, my cousin told Blue Fox that he should ask me if I liked him so when I was on the phone with him, he asked me, "Do you like me?" and I was laughing nervously, blushing and I didn't know what to say... I would have shouted, "I love you like mad!" but I... Honestly admitted that I liked him. Quite a bit. Actually, a lot. And he told me that he's glad because he feels the same way. One step forward? Success.
If and when I get this job landed and make some serious cash, I'll be moving states. Yes, again. I'll leave Seattle and move into the town that Aaron (and my other friends) are. Yesterday, he was helping me find a place and suggested that I can live with him and his (female) cousin. So, we'll see how it works out. I already got my mother's permission... She just said that I need to be financially stable first and I can do and go wherever. So, we'll see! Plus, Blue Fox said that he's willing to wait for me and so am I.
ANYWAYS, as possess as I am, let's talk about you Turtle. This Hottie sounds artistic and I know how much you love them artistic guys! And the things he does and how he has a notebook of drawings and whatnot... Totally you. You're drawings are so good and if he's better? I can't imagine. Forget Panda, bring in this Hottie into the spotlight. It seems like you two have more in common... Performing, drawing-scribbling-doodling, etc etc. YOU TWO NEED TO BE TOGETHER!!! :D
Possessed Together,
Otter
Earlier in the night, my nine-year-old cousin got the courage to talk to Blue Fox on the phone but I had it on speakphone but I didn't tell Blue Fox that and I heard my cousin asked him, "Do you like Otter?" and he was like, "Do I like Otter? Hmm, what do you think?" and she said, "Yes!" and he said, "So does that also mean that I get your permission to like her?". She asked him how much he liked me and he said a lot, more than 120% and then when I spoke to him on the phone, she kept on bullying me so he asked me if he could talk to my cousin again and I put him on speakerphone and he said to her, "Can you try and be nicer to Otter?" and my cousin was like, "Why?" and he said, "Because it hurts my heart. I don't like to see her or hear her hurt. It's like when someone is being mean to your mother or someone that you really love get hurt by someone else, it's a terribe feeing and that's what I feel with Otter when you bully her. So, can you please be nicer to her?" and my cousin said that she will... Although, if you knew her well enough, you know she wouldn't give a rats ass about those things but to hear Blue Fox say that... I was blown away.
And apparently, my cousin told Blue Fox that he should ask me if I liked him so when I was on the phone with him, he asked me, "Do you like me?" and I was laughing nervously, blushing and I didn't know what to say... I would have shouted, "I love you like mad!" but I... Honestly admitted that I liked him. Quite a bit. Actually, a lot. And he told me that he's glad because he feels the same way. One step forward? Success.
If and when I get this job landed and make some serious cash, I'll be moving states. Yes, again. I'll leave Seattle and move into the town that Aaron (and my other friends) are. Yesterday, he was helping me find a place and suggested that I can live with him and his (female) cousin. So, we'll see how it works out. I already got my mother's permission... She just said that I need to be financially stable first and I can do and go wherever. So, we'll see! Plus, Blue Fox said that he's willing to wait for me and so am I.
ANYWAYS, as possess as I am, let's talk about you Turtle. This Hottie sounds artistic and I know how much you love them artistic guys! And the things he does and how he has a notebook of drawings and whatnot... Totally you. You're drawings are so good and if he's better? I can't imagine. Forget Panda, bring in this Hottie into the spotlight. It seems like you two have more in common... Performing, drawing-scribbling-doodling, etc etc. YOU TWO NEED TO BE TOGETHER!!! :D
Possessed Together,
Otter
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