Young The Giant - Guns Out

"I want to make it right, just tell me that you feel the call."

My Birthday Outfit.

I had an amazing birthday dinner. 10 out of 30 people showed up but they were the 10 people I felt the closest to within my church and I'm happy that I got to celebrate it with them. We went to the Cheesecake Factory and had a blast. Even though Joe ordered a birthday cake, the people that worked there didn't pay attention so when he wanted it to come, they said "What cake?" and then all Hell broke lose from there but he waited until we were outside of the place. I got a cheesecake from them because they made a mistake but I wanted everyone to enjoy it as well. While I got my cake, everyone sang to me. I looked at each and every one of them and I felt super emotional... Watching them sing, smile and laugh made me realize how much I love them, care about them and enjoy their company. They are the reason why I come to church and Institute.

(I look all grimy... Ew.)

Thank you Joe, Glenn, Scott, Mark, Milo, Allen (<3), Jed, Andi and Emily T. for coming to my little get-together birthday party and spending this night with me. I love you guys very, very much.

Happy,
Otter

OMFG, UPDATES. FINALLY.

So here's some updates that I wasn't able to post up in time because there's just so much going on:

Meet Charlie. Emily found a stray cat while being at the other house that they plan to move into and she brought it home and her boyfriend said we could have her. So we did!

But not even a day later, he says we can't. :(



She fell asleep on my lap <3



She is the cutest little kitten I've ever had!



She's sleeping so well on my lap and look at Astro with his cone. :(

I'm The New Visiting Home Teacher!

Yesterday, while at church, I got a calling from the church and the president of the Relief Society came up to me and gave me my calling and said that I'm going to be a new member of the Visiting Home Teaching. And it's exciting because I have a companion, her name is Sharon. She's awesome. She's a little weird and awkward but that's how I like my peoples. LOL.

So I'm excited for that because it's something that I'm good at, you know? Basically what we do is we go to the houses of the fellow females of the church. We have a list of them and we go once or twice a month to see them, check up on them and we can check up on them more often than we want, we can call them and whatnot. We go to their houses, check up on them, see how they're doing, if they need help with anything whether it's emotional, spiritual or just need some help with errands. It's almost like building a bigger bond of a "sisterhood" within the church and the boys do it too... It's a great opportunity to meet others and help each other. And if ever you come to our church, you're going to feel the warm love that we all have for each other and the strong friendships we have. Some people will get weirded out because we're all so close but that's because we have this Visiting Home Teaching program.

Also, I went to a California YSA Fireside Conference. Basically it's an event where we all gather together and discuss upcoming events for charity, YSA events, dances and stuff like that. And our goal is to help the community but also let the less-active members of the church, come back and remember the good times that the church has. And non-members of the church are very much welcomed! And I would bring you, Turtle because we all bring snacks and drinks. Some people bake brownies and cookies and I know you love that stuff. Lol.

So, I'm going to be apart of all the events but sadly, I won't make it to the August California YSA gathering. And it's a gathering where thousands of YSA's get together, hang out, have a good time under the sun and just live in the love of God and spread it to each other. LOL. I just made it sound like we're such hippies... We probably are. That's why everyone thinks we're weird.

Hippie,
Otter

I Love You, Victor Kim.

Oh, Victor Kim. Another reason why I love you so. <3

Smitten,
Otter

"Yooooooooooo" Blue Fox.

HOLY EFF, BLUE FOX JUST TEXTED ME!

Going back to what I was originally going to say: Here's the thing, it's obvious I still think about Blue Fox. So I think about him when I'm doing something, I think about him when I see something (that would relate to Blue Fox) and I would think about him when I just sit on the floor, doing nothing. I think about him all the time. It's crazy and sometimes, I think to myself if it's bad or if it's a sign.

Him and I do small talk and he still asks me when I'm free to visit that ACN thing-y he's doing. Since I've been busier than I was before, I can't just get up and ask German to drive me there. I need to find a job first of all but I do it just to talk to him... In any form of talking.

BIG BANG: I LOVE YOU ALL!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! OHMYLAWD! <3 I'm so happy that they made their comeback after so much and they almost broke up too! I would have been one heartbroken little girl in this world! But thank you for staying strong and coming back. I love you.

Big Bang is one of the most famous boy groups in South Korea. And these guys have been through everything with me. There's always one song that will match whatever emotion you feel... I've been a big fan since I was freaking 15 years old! Sigh. Makes me feel old but I cannot wait to see them in concert and get to meet them in person! (yes, I will see them in person. Watch me.)

G-Dragon: Not really liking his hair. I'm not a fan of the little horse worth of a tail as a hairstyle.
Daesung: Although he went full on blonde, he's seriously fighting for the number one spot in my heart.
Taeyang: I obsess over Taeyang. (fangirl scream) Even though him and his style hasn't changed, he's still gorgeous.
TOP: He has been coloring his hair more often than he should be. I don't know if the blue color suits him. But I do miss his Popsicle dance moves.
Seungri: I still don't like him.

I approve,
Otter

Ryan and Otter: 1995+

Ryan. He's a guy that I've known since kindergarden and he is one of the most important people in my life... We've been through so much together and separately and there's no doubt that we'll continue to be that way...

We were suppose to date and be in a relationship, however things weren't going right and he ended up seeing someone and I ended up dating someone else. He's been with her for almost four~five years and in 2008, he got her pregnant and they have a child together; a baby girl.

He's been in and out of jail (don't worry, nothing too serious. It's just Montana's stupid and sensitive rules), pre-release and all that. So one day, his mother called me and told me what's up and passed on messages that Ryan wanted to tell me.

A day later, Ryan calls me from prison. Honestly, that sounds so weird but I was glad that he called and I was so happy to hear his voice again but we could only speak for 10 minutes at a time or we will get cut.

He called me one night and we spoke and he told me a secret he hasn't told anyone.

Ryan: You know my daughter's name right?
Me: Yeah, it was Myiah RyAnna?
Ryan: Mhmmm~ And you know the 'RyAnna' part?
Me: Yes...
Ryan: Well, I wrote this in one of the letters I made you that got sent back but I just wanted to tell you that her name is actually your name and my name put together...
Me: Whaaaaaaaat~
Ryan: Haha, yeah. I named her after you and I.
Me: Did you tell anyone else?!
Ryan: Nope. I didn't tell her mother and not even my own mother knows... Yet.
Me: I knew it! When I first saw it, I was thinking that it looked so much like my name... Awwww, ohmygod. That's amazing. Why did you do it?
Ryan: Why?! I can't believe you're asking me that question right now... I named her after you and I because you're the most important person to me. You're my best friend and more! And only you know me better than anyone else and you've been through all this bullshit that I've done and gotten myself into and you're still there to pick me up through everything. I love you, Otter.

I think it's pretty cute and slightly romantic that someone as important as Ryan named his child after a childhood crush, love and best friend.

- Otter

I'll Wait In Time.

I'll make you fall in love with me the same exact way I captured your heart in the beginning. ♡

... You'll come back. You said you'll come find me. I'll be waiting.

Sincerely,
Gumiho (Otter)

I'm Forever Yours, Let Me Help You.

"Just know in my arms, you're embraced by love." ♡

Finally, the boyfriend called me. Final-effing-ly~ It may not be what I wanted but it's something, at least. But I'm going to be strong and patient.

Blue Fox and Otter Argued.

Turtle, you just said exactly what Blue Fox just said. (referring to Chatterbox comment)

So, Blue Fox was telling me to buy a ticket, ditch the interview and go there now so last night, we spoke on the phone. And he was upset that I didn't buy the ticket... To be honest, I didn't think he'd ever be THAT upset over me not buying the ticket but apparently, I was wrong.

LOL, Blue Fox...

(Blue Fox calls)
Blue Fox: Hi~
Otter: He~y... What are you doing?
Blue Fox: What else would I be doing right now?
Otter: Laying down.
Blue Fox: Yes~! You're so smart. Not as smart as me though~ (laughs)
Otter: (laughs)
Blue Fox: Mmmm, okay. Goodnight.
Otter: Oh? Okay. Goodnight.
Blue Fox: Mmm~ (hangs up)
(Otter textes Blue Fox)
Otter: Goodnight!
Blue Fox: Aren't you going to call back?
Otter: What? Was I suppose to call back?
Blue Fox: Yes. =_=
(Otter calls Blue Fox)
Blue Fox: Hello?
Otter: How was I suppose to know that I had to call you back?
Blue Fox: You were suppose to call me back~
Otter: But you said 'goodnight'
Blue Fox: Yeah but you have to keep me awake.
Otter: What? No. Go to sleep~
Blue Fox: No.
Otter: I'm going to let you sleep now.
Blue Fox: (laughs) What? No!
Otter: Goodnight~ I'll call tomorrow.
Blue Fox: (laughs) No~ Don't hang up!
(Otter hangs up)
(Blue Fox calls Otter back)
Blue Fox: I'm sad now.
Otter: Why?
Blue Fox: Because the girl that I really, really, really like just hung up on me...

Future Blue Otter-Foxes.

(Blue Fox and I are talking about adoption)
Blue Fox: Have you ever thought of having babies with me?
Otter: Hmmmm. No.
Blue Fox: Really? Are you sure? Are you lying?
Otter: (laughs) Yeah. I am. I thought it about it once. No. Twice.
Blue Fox: Ooooh. (laughs)
Otter: Have you thought about having babies with me?!
Blue Fox: UMMMMMM... Let's change the subject now. How was your day?
Otter: Noooooo, you can't change the subject. Have you thought about having babies with me?
Blue Fox: My day was great. How was yours? Okay?
Otter: Blue Fox...
Blue Fox: I don't want to say. Because if I told you how many times I thought about it, you're going to think about it and it'll be bad...
Otter: Tell me!
Blue Fox: (sigh~) 14.
Otter: 14?!?!? Are you serious?
Blue Fox: Mhmm. 14.
Otter: Wow...
Blue Fox: How does that make you feel?
Otter: (long pause)
Blue Fox: ... Hello?
Otter: Let's have babies... NOW.
Blue Fox: (laughs out loud)
Blue Fox: What if I couldn't have babies? Like, there's something wrong with my body? Would you still be with me?
Otter: Of course~!
Blue Fox: But I know there's nothing wrong with my body. (laughs)
Otter: (laughs)
Blue Fox: I'm not sure if I could be with you if you couldn't give me babies because I want kids.
Otter: Whaaaat?!
Blue Fox: Just kidding. That's where we adopt. Or, find a way to make it work or something. But I know there's nothing wrong with your body so... It's fine, I'm not worried about you not giving me babies. (giggles)

You won't be able to resist,
Otter

Blue Fox and My Lovely Trap

Blue Fox's roommates are causing chaos because they want to invite a lot of people to watch the super bowl with them? Lol. And knowing Blue Fox, he doesn't watch sports on tv so he didn't want to go but, they wanted him to come along and some people said that they won't go if he doesn't... And his roommates were talking about drinks (even though they know Blue Fox doesn't drink) and they started cursing and you could hear Blue Fox say, "Hey hey hey~ Watch the language. I'm on the phone with a girl." Awwwwwwww! And then I told him to tell his roommate that I want to come, he told his roommate and he said, "Great! The more, the better" and then Blue Fox talks about them going to the liquor store and buying White Russian and Vodka. I told Blue Fox, "Alright. I'll be there in 30 minutes." and he said, in front of his roommates, "Okay. See you in 30."

Working Out and In Love

So I'm back to working out more but... I wish I shouldn't have told Blue Fox. LOL. Now he's all in it. He was telling me, "Do 50 for both sit-ups and push ups. For sit ups, you should do 15-15-10-10 and rest in between but with sit-ups, you have to do it all at once."

You're. Killing. Me.

Not quite sure how Blue Fox can do 300 sit-ups in one sitting. And he still think it's not enough. Sigh. Makes me feel... Like I either want to jump him for being so yummy or makes me feel slightly weak and that I need to get stronger but more on the I-wanna-jump-your-yummy-self mood.

(about to end a phone call with Blue Fox)
Blue Fox: Mmm, goodnight.
Otter: Goodnight.
Blue Fox: Saranghaeyo~ (In Korean: I love you)
Otter: (gasp, giggly)
Blue Fox: (giggles) Goodnight
Otter: Goodnight
(hangs up but we text)
Otter: I can't believe you said it again... I'm giggly now.
Blue Fox: LOL.
Otter: :)
Blue Fox: I didn't mean to say it.
Otter: Then... Why did you say it?
Blue Fox: Because my heart couldn't keep it in.

Dies,
Otter

PS: Friday at 2:30pm, I have another interview! Yes! Let's hope "Uwajimaya" picks me. I effing need a job.

Feeling So Much Better...

A few minutes ago, I was on the phone with Blue Fox but I heard his mother in the background talking in Korean asking who he was talking to and he said, "My friend" but his mother was telling him to hang up the phone. I understood everything so I wasn't hurt or anything...

Blue Fox's mother was basically saying that she was upset thinking that he was talking to a girl because he promised her that he wasn't going to get a girlfriend until after he graduates. His mother worries that he'd be calling me a lot and not do his work and studies... So for tonight, we can't call each other. (laughs)

One Saddened Otter

So last night, I spoke with Blue Fox... I didn't get the chance to tell him everything that I felt, it was just too hard to bring up but for some reason, our conversation last night... Almost answered it for me.

OMG, I SO LOVE YOU.

(This morning; Blue Fox is in class almost about to be dismissed and textes me)

Blue Fox: Prepare yourself. I'm calling you in 10 minutes.

Flutters in the morning,
Otter

Handcuffed Together Forever

Otter: I want to hold your hand right now... Actually, no. If I held your hand, you'd let go. Soooo, I'll have us handcuffed together.
Blue Fox: (laughs) What if I have to use the restroom?
Otter: I'll cover my eyes with my other hand.
Blue Fox: (laughs) What if I have to take a shower?
Otter: Hmmmm. There's two options. One, you'll have to shower with one hand. But if you have to go number 2, I'll have to release you.
Blue Fox: I guess I'm never going to go number 2.
Otter: (laughs) I can't have that... You have to!
Blue Fox: I'll carry a poop bag.
Otter: (LAUGHS) I suppose we'll be handcuffed together fuhevah!
Blue Fox: Oh yeeeeeeahhhhhh