I'm Always In Trouble.

I'm always getting in trouble for the stupiest things. -_-

"Brother Zoned"

So at church, I'm apart of a trio: Joe, Glenn and I.

We're mostly together most of the time and when we are, it's awesome. We watch movies together, we eat together and we're always together so it's almost like we're inseparable.

But lately, I've been sensing Glenn is thinking different and I should have trusted my gut because just a couple nights ago, when he was dropping me home, he was going to ask me something... I knew in my gut what it was going to be.

What's Really Going On?

Blue Fox: Yoooooooooooo
Otter: Morning! Your number is still the same.*
Blue Fox: Yup yup, what are you up do? Same old same old?
Otter: Kinda. I'm a lot busier than before... How about you?
Blue Fox: Working hard. Do you have a job?
Otter: That's good to know you're still working hard. Umm... Kinda. I do temporary work but it isn't something that I'd call a job.
Blue Fox: I am working for a big company. And I'm doing it fulltime. Retiring my parents in five months. I have a team in California in Chula Vista. I can put you on my team.
Otter: Why are you retiring your parents?
Blue Fox: They work too hard. No retirement plan. Bad environment.
Otter: Bad environment? How? They work and they have a business.
Blue Fox: If you had the chance to work with something big, wouldn't you try and help your friends? That's why I'm trying to help you out. My parents can't work forever. I don't want them to work. Everyone that is struggling, needs to see my company.
Otter: I understand. And I'm glad you see it that way~ But aren't your parents okay with working? It keeps them busy~ And you can always have them on a retirement plan while they work.
Blue Fox: No they hate working
Otter: What do they plan on doing?
Blue Fox: Call me. I don't like texting.

Indeed I did call. And we spoke for a good 8 minutes and 24 seconds.

"Yooooooooooo" Blue Fox.

HOLY EFF, BLUE FOX JUST TEXTED ME!

Going back to what I was originally going to say: Here's the thing, it's obvious I still think about Blue Fox. So I think about him when I'm doing something, I think about him when I see something (that would relate to Blue Fox) and I would think about him when I just sit on the floor, doing nothing. I think about him all the time. It's crazy and sometimes, I think to myself if it's bad or if it's a sign.

Him and I do small talk and he still asks me when I'm free to visit that ACN thing-y he's doing. Since I've been busier than I was before, I can't just get up and ask German to drive me there. I need to find a job first of all but I do it just to talk to him... In any form of talking.

Everyone's Sick!

Everyone's sick. (except me) Emily and her boyfriend both have the flu, but Emily is experiencing the worst symptoms and it's kind of scaring me... Lol. And Astro and Quazi are also starting to have diarrhea again. -_-

The only body pain that I'm feeling is from the PT. That one really kicked me. HAHA! But other than that, I'm not sick. I rarely do get sick so I'm good but I worry that I might because everyone else is sick and I don't have medical insurance and money to even pay for any of it. So, I must stay away!

GAH! My thighs and calves hurt~ I feel like I have to waddle around the house or waddle wherever I go now.

Insecure Drama.

I've had my share of insecure boys as well. And I believe that there are two types. The Agressives and the  Mellows.

The Date Aftermath.

So my date with Licorice was pretty good, I actually had a great time.
The end.

Not-Much-Of-An-Update.

"But I can't read you mind
Not this time...
I just wanna know what you're going through
I don't feel wrong about asking you
But I can't read your mind
Not this time...

There are times when you don't wanna say
That there are problems in your head that you can't explain... I have been that way.
Baby there's a hunger, a kiss or two
But not forever do
If only I'd reach you..."

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I know that I haven't been updating as much as I use to... I'm sorry. I just wish I could squeeze my thoughts onto here like a sponge but I feel like the thoughts in my head are spewing out faster than my fingers can type and it can't keep up. There's a lot on my mind and I can't seem to type it all because I end up losing motivation to do so. Sigh.

However, don't fret... I'll get to it. Actually, I think I'll be able to have the motivation later in the morning (it's currently 2:53AM) so I'll sleep - hopefully I don't cry tonight - and in the morning, I'll do a little updating.

Thank you, Turtle for making me cry with the "One and Only" song. Sigh.

I had a feeling that Hottie liked you but that's good that he didn't start anything with you since he's really busy and stuff. I'm glad but at the same time, I know how much you would want to start something with him already... But don't worry, there will be a chance for you and Hottie to get together and make some cute artistic babies. I can't wait!

Sincerely,
Otter

I Can't Stay, Apparently.

Here's the hard part that I didn't want to talk about now...

Remember when I said that I had a feeling that I was making things awkward in the house? Well, I'm correct. The reason why all the boys in the house were in the other room for such a long time was because they were talking to Aaron about how much longer I'm going to have to stay because they thought I was only here for the weekend. He didn't tell his roommates that I was staying for a while, thinking that it's going to be okay because one roommate tends to have his girlfriend over from time to time as well so he planned it on his own without telling his roommates ahead of time: His mistake.

He didn't talk to me about it until last night when I came home at about 5pm, after getting maps and bus routes to find a job slightly outside Towson University. I come home, find the roommates and friends in the living room playing video games. I walk into the bedroom to change and he goes, "We need to talk." and I'm like, "Sure" thinking that I already know what's going to happen or what we're going to talk about and he goes, "You can't stay here anymore..." and we talked about it and he told me that his roommates are staying to feel uncomfortable that I'm here for so long and that I'm being of a slight distraction with him and his school work and Army ROTC. Since I'm around, he only wants to be with me and whatnot but he has to sleep and do so many other things, so he isn't doing as good in training in the morning and has to work extra hard and he missed a quiz in his psychology class and he has a ton of work to do.

When Will Otter Get A Chance?

So, when my aunt left to go to work and my little cousin went to summer school... I'm left home alone yet again. Still no job call, I can't really go out, and things like that. I'm slightly bored and I'm thankful to have this sucky laptop.

As I try to find a job, I'm also trying to keep in contact with my recruiter. I update him often and things like that but he doesn't reply to my emails, he doesn't answer my call, he doesn't call me back when I leave a voice mail... So, I'm being left to dry basically and it's flicking my nerves a bit.

And just about an hour ago, I was talking to my friend, Julia, and she was one of the new recruites with me when we were going to Guam for our last stages of being recruited... We were talking and she told me that when she was on vacation to Florida, she got a call from Sarge on July 19th THAT SHE BOOKED A JOB AND IS LEAVING FOR BOOT CAMP ON NOVEMBER 29TH. A vacation AND a BMT date. It can't get any better...

She asked if I heard anything from Sarge and I told her "not yet" and she was actually surprised that I didn't get a call either... For me, I'm not surprised.

I'm not going to lie... It was a little disheartening. Our friend Ray left for BMT the week we were in Guam, Lauden (he's a citizen of Guam) just left for BMT shy of two weeks ago. A girl we met in Guam too is leaving sometime August. And now, Julia has a date. I'm happy for her, she's the first member of her family EVER to join the military and I know that her life in the Air Force will forever change her for the better.

William got disqualified, and Teddy... Decided to join the army instead. SAD. I wish we'd all be in the AF Family together.

Now, my other friend Maurice is leaving for BMT in about a month from now... I update him on what's going on with me and he's referred me to his recruiter in Bremerton, so if my recruiter can't do anything for me... I'll just go to Maurice's recruiter. We were talking the other day about if Maurice were to get in, by the time he gets out, I should have a job HOPEFULLY. Sigh. I gave him my address so he can write me when he leaves and tell me about his days... He's been getting mail from his friends in the Army BCT and he's excited for USAF BMT. I'm pretty sure he's ready and I know he'll fly through the whole thing. We just have to study our reporting statements well because if we mess up, we'll get scolded by the T.I.'s and according to his friend, we might write it 600 times. LOL. But like what his friend said, "I'd rather do 600 push up's than write 600 times." sigh. But, I hope that before Maurice gets out, I have a ship date and by the time I get out of that... We can share our whooping stories. :)

All my other friends are already in the USAF for about a year or two. When sadly, that was when I was trying to get in as well. So, I feel a little discouraged that I've been trying so hard for these past few years to just get in.... But can't. And watching all my friends join in while I'm being pushed back all the time is upsetting because, I've wanted this since I was thirteen and I'm sooooooooooo close to getting in but something is always in the way. I can't book a civilian job and can't book an USAF job. Today, my day isn't as good as I wish it'd be...

But still... Congratulations to Julia! She's almost an official Airman/Airwoman.

Feeling a little left out,
Otter