Video Games, Boys and Whatnots.

No calls for jobs. No calls for the Air Force. I'm running out of money. Sigh.

But since my best friend's boyfriend has been back into our apartment, it's weird. Even though this is a studio apartment, we all three sleep on the same bed. Can someone say awkward? Lol. But sadly, it upsets my best friend that he's doing the same thing he does before he got kicked out. VIDEO GAMES. He can't even get the motivation to find a job for himself. The Japanese restaurant probably is going to call him because they probably found someone better.

It upsets me too because he allows two girls to do stuff for him like he's a dang child. A dang 24-year-old child who grows his own weed and is a damn pothead. Sigh.

Licorice won't be seeing me this weekend because he's going to a drifting (car) event and going to a Hot Import Night event. JEALOUS. Sigh. But hopefully, Sunday he has his car ready and fixed so we can go on more dates.

Surprisingly enough, Jell-O is trying to get with me. And by "get with me" as in, us being together.

Oh, Blue Fox. You dumbass. Contact me already, jerk. Sigh.

It Rings In My Ears All The Time.

Kitty: You and Blue Fox. I knew it. I so knew it~ I knew you two would be perfect with each other, I just knew it. It was just in a matter of time... I deserve a pat on the back~ Mmm, Mrs. Blue Fox. That has a really nice ring to it, don't you think?

Sometimes, when you leave for your classes and all the roommates are gone, I slip into your Army ACU's and think about all the things that you wanted us to do in our lives, thinking about all the things you said about us having babies, how much you love and care for me, how you love that I'm now in your life, you being there for me 'always and forever' and how you'll always be by my side. I remember all the promises that I've made and you know that I'd always keep it. You know that I'll always be here for you no matter what...

People had really high hopes and knew that we were perfect for each other... Well, Blue Fox and I already knew that but it was nice to know that people thought so too.

As much as I have Licorice around, I still want Blue Fox. Licorice and I talk almost every day, especially before we sleep but before I fall asleep, I'm thinking about Blue Fox. I wake up to the thought of him and I sleep with the thought of him... As sad as some people say it is, I'm still waiting. I know a lot of people don't want me to and want me to move on even with doubts, I'm still waiting. I'm keeping myself busy by finding a job, being around Emily and Astro and having company such as Licorice but in my heart, I'm still waiting.

"Don't call or text until I do..." is the only thing that's keeping me going. Unless he's a complete fob, he won't know what this means but since he's obviously not, it'll happen... Eventually. Sigh, I don't know.

Emily: I really do have a lot of faith in you and Blue Fox, I really do!

Sigh. I'm still waiting...

Toilets Are Not My Hobby.

Me: Sorry, our toilet's a little noisy...
Licorice: Yeah, a bit. It's a little annoying.
Me: We tried to have someone fix it yesterday but they didn't come.
Licorice: Let me check it.
(Tries to take a look...)
Licorice: Yeeeeah, I don't know.
Me: HAHA, it's alright.
Licorice: (lays down)
Me: You know, I think our toilet's like a self-flushing toilet.
Licorice: Haha, what? Why?
Me: Because yesterday, I took one square of toilet paper and threw it in the toilet. Two minutes later, it's gone. And you can see the running water push the toilet paper to the back and it's like flushing without really flushing!
Licorice: (laughs out loud)
Me: Don't laugh! It's not like I do this as a hobby! I was just checking the toilet!
Licorice: (laughs out loud)
Me: What's so funny?!
Licorice: Just the way you said it... (laughs)

Licorice, IHOP and Gray Areas.

Yesterday was 11/11/11, I thought it was cute. But since it's been almost six weeks since Blue Fox and I spoke, I decided to text him an inside joke... Knowing that we haven't talked this long, I knew I couldn't expect anything but there was a little bit of hope that he would send me something.

The Date Aftermath.

So my date with Licorice was pretty good, I actually had a great time.
The end.

Otter Has A Date With...

Just when I wanted to run today, it rains. Then it stops, then I decided to go out and buy pizza, buffalo wings, some alcohol and just chill at home freezing my ass off... And then what happens? It rains again. So, I suck it up like a boss and walk in the rain with no umbrella and no coat. Um, BADASS? Yeah.

I wore my Navy PT uniform. (Thanks, dad) and walked in the rain and it was like, 48°F! Just breathing made fog come out of my mouth. But I sucked it up and did it...

I walked, bought pizza and buffalo wings at Papa Johns, some soda, some liquor and a few sticks of Slim Jims. Mmmm, perfect. And then I walk back home...

And then, I get a text from Licorice - Orange's high school friend - and he textes me about wanting to have dinner with me on Saturday night... Well, more like 4~4:30pm...

I asked what we'd be doing and where we're going so I can dress accordingly but of course, it's a secret because he's planning it. This is one of the reasons why I hate surprises.

I don't know what to wear!

So yes, heartbroken little Otter is going on a date with a nice boy named Licorice. But in my heart, there's nothing more than I want than to go on a date with Blue Fox... Since Blue Fox has never brought a girl out on a date before, I want to be the first. And hello, I'm still-kinda the girlfriend... Sigh.

I know that it's not fair for Licorice but... I love Blue Fox. Always and forever. I'm doing this just as a small dinner date, to get to know him, make a new friend and see what happens but I'm sure that I'll be thinking about Blue Fox the whole night there.

Update! Nevermind, I now know where it is... It's at a casual-elegant restaurant in Long Beach called "Tantalum"... Sounds like tantrum. (HAHA)

((( http://www.tantalumrestaurant.com/ )))

Now... I'm freaking out even more. I NEED TO FIND SOMETHING TO WEAR!

Sigh. What am I going to wear?!?! I haven't been to an casual-elegant restaurant in a long time! Hmmmm...

This is making me feel even more sad... Because there are guys out there who are wanting me, waiting for me, want to bring me on dates, want to be my boyfriend and there are two guys that plan on wanting to make me their wifey... HUGE SIGH. Even though I have all these guys around me, I only look at Blue Fox; I only think of him, see him, love him. Sometimes I wish he knew how lucky he was... I know that he said that he was happy that I was with him and would be by his side and I know deep down he knows how lucky he is but he jokes that I should be the happier one because he's "perfect"... Well, sorry to break it to you Blue Fox but I'm perfect too. I just wish you knew how even more perfect we would be together IF ONLY we got through this rough patch...

Licorice is bringing me to a nice casual-elegant restaurant. See what kind of competition that Blue Fox has? But yet, somehow he wins me over with Asian mandarin salads for lunch and makes me some weird sausage-egg-jelly/jam sandwich with soggy-ish bread.

I just wish he knew...

STILL WONDERING WHAT TO WEAR,
Otter