Love Scandal.

This is how I'm going to start off... With a heart burn.

Robert Ah Sue = Beautiful Human Being.

Robert Ah Sue has been the only guy in my church that I'd totally go for, not only is he my type but he's SUPER gorgeous and he's just... UMPF. I always thought if I were to marry a Mormon, it'd be Indigo (and that still stands) BUT, ever since I met Rob, he'd be one of the Mormon's I'd totally marry in a heartbeat.

He's 23, graduated from Southern Utah University with a degree of kinesiology this year and moved back to Riverside with his family and he works at a UFC gym in Corona, CA. (a town near by).

The story that I know about him is how he lost his father. Every year in Riverside, we have a Tinman triathlon. His father does it every year and he completes the whole running-biking-swimming portions of the triathlon. A year or two ago, his father had a sudden heart attack during the swimming portion of the triathlon and didn't make it. Now, every year, all the sons do the triathlon together in memory of their father. And just two months ago, one of the brothers, Greg, left for his mission to Australia! Haha.

Sadly, he's totally out of my league. He's just too beautiful for me. I mean, we talk and he greets me in the hallways during church and such but... I actually don't have a chance with him.

But on the off chance if we did get together and we had children, they'd be smart AND beautiful. :D

NOW, FOR SOME EYE-CANDY!

(Far right; The eldest brother)

(MMMMMMMMMMMMMM...)


(Far right; during his football years in college)

(Far left during his football years)

(Oooooh yeeeeaaaaahhhhh...)

OHAI, GORGEOUS.

Dilon. Another DEP'r on my squad. Ran with me and motivated me. Gorgeous. He said, "I'm not going to leave you behind!"

UNF <3

PS: Thank you for running with me without your shirt on. I love you.

Sincerely,
Otter

P.S.

Hijacking Otter's blog post to make an official statement upon seeing this fooooine hottie.

Awkward Turtle

Marine + Mormon = Him

So, ever since the Fireside when we conjoined with other YSA's and apparently, there was a YSA that came that's two hours away and I met a lot of new people. Especially one.

29-Palms is a Marine Corps base. Some Marines came to our YSA's and they are not only Marines, but Mormons! Sounds perfect. And I met one. And we kind of clicked but he was super shy...

But we managed to exchange phone numbers. He actually texted me.

Since then, we've been talking non-stop. As much as I like him, I don't think I can do a relationship because I'm stuck with Blue Fox still. I try not to but... Still.

But Karl, the Marine Mormon, is falling head over heels for me. And as much as I like him... I can't lead him on but he's been taking my stuff a little too far and is expecting stuff. He's a great guy but he's expecting it to be romantic and stuff. :( and the fact that I leave for bootcamp in 46 days, it's going to be real hard for me and him and "us", if ever.

This is why I thought about not dating a member of the church. They get waaaaaay too ahead of themselves?

Now, he's kind of "worried".

What to do,
Otter

BIG BANG: I LOVE YOU ALL!

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMGOMG! OHMYLAWD! <3 I'm so happy that they made their comeback after so much and they almost broke up too! I would have been one heartbroken little girl in this world! But thank you for staying strong and coming back. I love you.

Big Bang is one of the most famous boy groups in South Korea. And these guys have been through everything with me. There's always one song that will match whatever emotion you feel... I've been a big fan since I was freaking 15 years old! Sigh. Makes me feel old but I cannot wait to see them in concert and get to meet them in person! (yes, I will see them in person. Watch me.)

G-Dragon: Not really liking his hair. I'm not a fan of the little horse worth of a tail as a hairstyle.
Daesung: Although he went full on blonde, he's seriously fighting for the number one spot in my heart.
Taeyang: I obsess over Taeyang. (fangirl scream) Even though him and his style hasn't changed, he's still gorgeous.
TOP: He has been coloring his hair more often than he should be. I don't know if the blue color suits him. But I do miss his Popsicle dance moves.
Seungri: I still don't like him.

I approve,
Otter

GOOD GOD

 I've got rhinos stampeding in my stomach as I get ready to go to Greenhills for a little Christmas shopping for tomorrows exchanging of gifts with my school family.

 GOD, please don't let me be so derpy in front of him. Or clutzy. Or boring. Or too hyper.

Sincerely,
Awkward Turtle

WHAT IS AIR.

Yesterday, I was with Spam and Aslan at the art campus'library. I was waiting for Hottie coz he was returning the guitar amplifier to me.
 
  When he finally arrived (OMG MUST KEEP CALM) he stuck around for awhile to talk to us. I mentioned to him how I got my ticket at the booth during their Fuente Ovejuna play and how the lady had no idea what I was talking about. He said he was sure he mentioned it. Then he said that he looked for me after the play and when he couldn't find me, he concluded that I had immediately left. (Cue Spam who turns away trying to hide her kilig)


   Well I did leave immediately because, you know, a girl's also busy. And stuff. Hohohoho. Actually, I did want to stick around after the play ended and congratulate Hottie on another great job but I figured- it's totally awkward if I approach him among his production crew and I don't know a soul there. Besides, why should I look for him?? All the same, I still blush and figuratively roll everytime I recall it: HE LOOKED FOR ME!! lsakdjafhklafhdkjfhsdjkghfdsjkl

Okaaaaay, guitar amp totally worth the trouble ZOMG.

Awkward Turtle

Surprise Panda Hug

Two days ago, I took the train with Spam, JB, Spencer and his sister Smurfette, Panda and his best friend whom we shall call Scooter. It took forever to actually get on a train because it was rush hour when we got on the platform and nearly all the trains were full like sardines. I think we waited at the platform for almost like an hour.

  Spencer is just so random because in his bag he's carrying a loaf of raisin wheat bread and a jar of peanut butter, so Smurfette, Scooter and I munched on some bread, even if it wasn't allowed.

  Panda kept hugging his cousin Smurfette, messing up her hair and pinching her cheeks and nose til she curses and she starts poking him in the stomach, trying to get back at him. It's just so sweet and adorable the way Panda shows so much affection for his cousin. He's quite protective about her as well, going all, "WHO'S BODY ARE WE BURYING?" everytime one of us brings up a guy's name to her. And he watches over Spam and JB when they happen to be drinking where he's hanging out.

Anyway, us girls were just minding our own business. I just grinned at Smurfette coz she asked me what my height was since I was still taller than her even if she's wearing heels. I still call her Pokemon because she's just so sweet, thoughtful and adorable for a college freshman.

Someone suddenly hugged me from behind. Like, these two long arms just wrapped around my shoulders. I froze because they definitely don't belong to a girl. And I just KNEW who it was immediately. Spam, JB and one of our other friends who happened to be there, Tima- all of their eyes were wide in utter shock from what was transpiring before them but they totally suppressed their reactions to freak out and instead they all just pursed their lips tightly while throwing meaningful glances at me and each other, trying not to smile.

And my mind was screaming, "CALM YO TITS."

Panda chuckled, "oops! Wrong Pokemon." And promptly moved to Smurfette and also gave her a back hug. I was like, "hey!! I'm not THAT short!"

"Nah, just kidding. I knew you'd be offended." He chuckled, pushing the bridge of my glasses up my nose with one hand.

WHY DID I EVER FELL OUT OF CRUSH FOR YOU?

Loving back hugs,
Awkward Turtle

Serendipity/Destiny

 Yesterday, I was bored off my ass so I decided to look up my friends' numerology charts. As I was comparing my chart with Hottie's, he texted me out of the blue. He said he found my sketchpad at the school's art department library.

GOOD GOD. I didn't even realize it was missing 'til he told me!

Then I remembered that I was at that library with Aslan, and I was making notes with my sketchpad, and I must've left it in my hurry to catch the train with Spam. So I was thrilled to my toes that it was Hottie who spotted it, of all people! He said he found it on one of the book carts. Which is weird coz most people usually put stuff at the Lost & Found department. He even added, "it's funny coz I told myself it looked familiar." So he asked me if it was alright he'll keep my sketchpad so he could give it to me next time we meet up.

Of course he can! You know what else he could keep?? My heart!!

Swimming in lily pad 9,
Awkward Turtle

Artists, Geeks, and Disney

So last Saturday, after class, Aslan and I met up. Apparently, he was suppose to have class but the teacher didn't show up. So we both went to MOA to go to the 32nd international book fair and then catch up with his brother, and friends somewhere there.

 The book fair was a bit disappointing but Aslan's friends and his brother were AWESOME. They're all weird, intellectual, funny, random, geeky and artistic and they're into New Age stuff. One of them can read palms and another can regress to her past lives. They're my type of crowd and Aslan was pleased that I got along with them reeeeally well. According to him, they just love me. Well, I love them!

Speaking of love....

Sigh. Anyway, nothing really new with my artist, Hottie. We still text and he's still... gorgeous. *cartwheels* Everyday we still update each other with 3 things we're grateful for. There was one time that I went to the other building to find art books for my next artwork. After finding the book, I went out to the empty hallway and- holy cow- there was Hottie on his way to the library.

For some reason we were both so surprised to see each other. We talked only for a minute coz I had to go home. When I was out of sight, I had a BIIIIIIIIIIIIG SMILE on my face and I just wanted to skip home on cloud 9. Seriously, I felt sparks. Well, could be me. But I don't care!! When I asked for his gratitude update, the first one was, "I'm grateful that we bumped to each other earlier."

YIIIIEEEEEE!!!

alksjdhan fvhduriv hguimlsdjkfhafff!!

Good GOD.

Floating on pond 9,
Awkward Turtle

Gushy Gushy Turtle

 The other day, I was telling my friends that I wanna text Hottie to know where he is but I don't wanna keep bugging him.

So my friend Nikki texted him, asking where he was. He didn't reply.

Spam decided to text him. Hottie replied but his text said, "sino to?" ("who's this?")

So I decided to give it a shot and text the guy myself. He replied that he was just getting ready and about to leave for school.
 Sam snapped at me as I blushed over his text, "tell him we're not friends anymore!"

Rolling on the floor,
Awkward Turtle

I'm 21 and fiiiine.

  So I was hanging out with my schoolmate yesterday. Let's call him Aslan. We were on our way back to the main campus of the school when we came upon the topic of me and my sister's singing.

A: So how old is your sister?

Me: She just turned 19.

A: Oh. I imagined your sister would be younger than you.

(pause)

Me: Um... she is younger than me.

A: Wait, how old are you??

Me: I'm 21!

A: 21????

(pause)

A: I thought you were 18! or 19 at least!



Getting younger by the minute,
Awkward Turtle

Smitten Much

 You know, Otter, there hasn't been much going on in this blog lately except for Blue Fox and Hottie! But I don't care!! We are sooooooo SMITTEN. My only fear is that Hottie might run into this blog and he'll be able to identify who I'm talking about.

Anyway, I saw Hottie just a few hours ago coz I was stuck with the lyrics I was writing. So I met up with Hottie in hopes that his creative energy would rub off on me somehow.
*siiiigh*

He. Is. Just. Something else.

I wasn't able to figure out a good concept for my second original song that I'm gonna record. But I did have him listen to the first one I've recorded. While I was going through my lyrics, I stared at him listening to my song. He had his eyes closed, his face slightly tensed in concentration. "You ok?" I said. "Yeah," he smiled, as his eyes opened, "I'm just thinking what to do as a music video for this."

Holy cow, my heart!


I. Just. Can't!

Going delirious in a heartbeat,
Awkward Turtle

Be Still, My ♥

 I. Just. CAN'T.

  I mean, there is just SOMETHING about Hottie that just makes me want to... HNNNNNGH.

He isn't the most good-looking person I know, but the longer you look at him, there's this charisma that just pulls you right in. He has this certain charm that he's not aware of. Which makes him even more charming.

Seriously. I must hold myself back and stop with all this nonsense of texting him. I started this daily gratitude update with him. At the end of the day, we text each other the 3 things we're grateful for, no matter how big or small. This kind of daily exchange is a great way to pay attention to the little things in life and it's also a good way to get to know him better.

I call him Hottie. He calls me Beautiful. *gushgushgush*

What I've learned so far about him is that he was suppose to enter the seminary (thank GOD that didn't push through), he's a deeply spiritual person, he loves his parents to death, he's applying for a scholarship in school, and he wants to take up film and be a director in the future.

I have no trouble believing him. He's a bad-ass visual artist, he helps out TONS in theater productions in school, he's got stamina I wish I had, and he just loves to help out people to bring their visions to life. Plus, he's a Josh Groban fan. *cartwheels*

And there's this other day that I asked him what he was grateful for and one of them was:
"....I'm grateful for you for making me think about the simple joys in life. :)"


Please be mine,
Awkward Turtle

Pandaaaaa

  Yesterday, I saw Panda by accident. I was looking for my friends outside the campus. They said they were at a little carinderia near in the area somewhere at our favorite karaoke place. So I stood by the karaoke place, looking for a place that serves chicken guts and barbecue when I saw Panda walking toward my direction!

 My friends weren't kidding when they said he's gone from hot to HOTTER. Like, GOD, please tell me he likes weird girls who wear black rain boots with pink heart prints on them. I said hi and he asked me how I am. OHMYGAHD WHY IS HE SO TALL??

 I told my brother about him and he was like,
B: How tall is he?
Me: Taller than our brother (who's a 6 flat)
B: That's a shitload of tall.

Anyway, Panda asked me where I'm going. I told him that I was looking for my friends who say that they were around the vicinity. He had a friend with him who was pretty cute but my eyes were just for PANDAAAA. Panda was on his way to the nearby bar and asked if I wanna look for my friends there. I was thrilled all the way to my toes!

 So we walked for a few minutes when my friend texted where exactly they are. So Panda kissed me on the cheek again. (*_*) I just wanted to grab the guy and take him home!! I love the feeling that he has to bend down to make beso and I gotta tiptoe to meet him halfway. HNNNNNGGH.

So when we went our seperate ways, I was like:

And my friends saw the whole thing. :D


Wants to take Panda home,
Awkward Turtle

Who's Good-looking?

When women ask, "am I fat?", guys ask, "am I good-looking?"

This is some sort of psychological warfare between genders.

Like my ex, who asked if I thought he was handsome. Handsome? No. But did it matter? Of course not. My bestfriend relayed to me that her boyfriend asked if she thought he was good-looking. My best friend ended up howling in laughter, which pretty much answers the question itself. (Well, he's not ugly.)

Looks may get the initial attraction, but the reason why the girl stays is because of what's beyond your looks.

Planning to get a haircut,
Awkward Turtle

Pucca Strikes Again

I think it's Pucca's life path to totally piss me off. Last Sunday, my groupmates and I all agreed to meet up in the resto across our school. On my way there that day, Pucca texted me that he'll be waiting at Mall of Asia.

WTF DUDE.

I said meet at Point A, then he decides to go at Point D?? I swear my blood pressure shot up and I had to hold myself back from thrashing the nearest passerby. WHY does he have to complicate things?? WHY?

It was a good thing Teddy was there to soothe my nerves when we drove to MOA to find him. On top of that, we couldn't contact Pucca because his phone was dead, though he did mention he'll be waiting at TBoy.

He waited for a couple of hours for us, because I had to wait for Teddy. And MOA is HUGE. It only added to my fury because I hate going to big-ass malls.

So when we finally met up with him, he was pissed. I was pissed. So Teddy was sort of a mediator. Pucca had no right to be pissed!




Anyway, in recent news, I went to school even though it was raining like murder. Only to be informed minutes later after I arrived in school that classes have been suspended.

Walking in rain boots,
Awkward Turtle

Homicide Mode

 Sooo last Monday, History class was a riot, as usual. Pucca and Teddy we're going at it with Who Has The Most Random Answers. As a result, everytime I speak up, I seem to be the only person the professor likes to listen to.

Anywaaaaay, I was on homicide mode that day because of PUCCA. Jeezus Christ. Here are three reasons why:

* As usual, I was laughing at him because the teacher asked "Where was this historical figure exiled blah blah blah" and he answered. "Hawaii!" The answer was Guam. I was laughing so hard, that I was already bent over my desk. And then I felt his hand on my hair. (He is my seatmate. Ugh. ) On my head. OMG IT FELT SO WEIRD. I sat upright and pretended to look over my book and notes for the professor's discussion.

I could be paranoid, but.... asdjfh hfuvnifhshfjahgfalh!!! I mean, you just don't let a random person touch the crown of your head (unless the person has to work on your hair). For me, the head is quite an intimate area. I like it when my mom decides to give me a little head massage, or when a guy I used to go out with would stroke my head or ruffly my hair playfully. I mean, think about it! If someone you're just acquainted with reaches out to touch your hair or your head, it's just AWKWARD.

* I have this little habit of biting the end of my pen and just letting it stay there in my mouth if I'm nervous or if both of my hands are full. All of a sudden, Pucca knocked the pen off my mouth. And laughed.
First of all--- OUCH.
SECOND---- WTF???
I was so mad, I grabbed my notebook and started beating him up senseless. The teacher had to approach us and asked if I want to report Pucca to the Discipline Office. ARGH. I want to report him to the nearest police station! I told my professor it wasn't necessary.
  THEN Teddy- who was seated in front of me, said Pucca shouldn't be reported because he and I have a future together. SAY WHAT. The professor was obviously supressing a smile when she went back to the whiteboard.

*When we were all dismissed, Teddy went up to Pucca, extending a hand. "Dude, I want to be the best man at your wedding." Pucca and I gave him a weird look. I started to make my way to the door.
"What wedding?" Pucca asked. Teddy replied, "Oh, coz you know... you have a future."
I can feel Teddy, Pucca and Kitty looking at me.
"The only future he's having is the one in his grave!" I shot back.

Pimp ME out!

  So I was just watching a DVD of the 10th season of CSI when Pucca texted. He says that he's gonna introduce me to a good friend of his, a 24-year-old dude- THROUGH FACEBOOK.


I'd like to think that Pucca is being sensitive to my single status and that he was considerate enough to ask my permission but... ARGH!!!!


 I'm allergic to cooties.

OMG what?

 Sooo... Pucca and I got to talk yesterday.

He asked me if I could be his co-emcee- more technically, his partner- at his cousin's wedding on October. In Tagaytay.

I'm like "wooooww."

I said yes for some specific reasons:
- It's at Tagaytay for God's sakes!! TAGAYTAY!
- Weddings, more often than not, have awesome food and cute waiters.
- They can give me free accommodations plus they're willing to pay for my talent fee
- I'm not a big believer of marriage, but weddings give me a reason to dress up, look pretty and PIG OUT.

He asked me how much my talent fee is. I told him I'm thinking of giving them a discount or maybe just pay me in kind. Pucca's all, " 'wag lang kiss!"
Um... I beat him up with my notebook.

After I said yes and we parted ways, that's when my head started spinning. I mean- REALLY? Did I just agree to be a co-emcee at an event where I barely know anyone except for Pucca? And a WEDDING at that, full of Pucca's family members and relatives??

I confided to my friend Wapwap that I feel like I've been tricked to being Pucca's plus-one at the wedding and disguising it as a co-emcee thing to save face. Wapwap's all, "He promised you cake, and you know what they say about cakes."

"Uhh, what do they say about cakes?"

"The cake is a lie! The cake is a liiiiiiieee!!!"

In other words... yeah, he wanted me as his plus-one I guess. Doesn't make sense though. People who emcee at weddings are usually the couple's family members and relatives. Pucca and I aren't close! I mean, we only see each other twice a week for History class and we're just groupmates for the last weekend's project endeavor.His laugh still brings down the house though. TROLOLOL.

Right now, I'm avoiding wondering why he asked ME to join him at his cousin's wedding or it would be a headache of sorts. So when I tell my friends about it they're all, "why d'you think he asked you to the wedding?"

The answer is, "I don't care! It's in friggin' TAGAYTAY for god's sake!"
 

Still paranoid,
Awkward Turtle