In Trouble AGAIN. But, it's not my fault...

So I already get pissed at people during details... Now I have a new reason to be pissed at someone new. klsjdlfkjsdl;jfl;jsdl;fjdsf. The last two weeks haven't been my week.

ATP Probs.

I've been trying to get a hold of my MTL (Military Training Leader) because last Friday, I missed Open Ranks (which is you show up in whatever uniform they want you in and meet up at a certain time, certain place with your transition card so they can check you, see if you keep your uniform looking good and such) because we had a manditory First Duty Station briefing (a briefing about where we're going after Tech School) and so I told him about it ahead of time and he said that I can miss Open Ranks for it but to come see him Tuesday (yesterday) and make it up. So I did, but he wasn't around so I wasn't able to get my transition card stamped.

Love Scandal.

This is how I'm going to start off... With a heart burn.

Blank. Totally blank.

Bullshit, I swear.

DSLKFJASLKDJ;LSDKJFLWTFFFFF.

On the 17th, Blue Fox texted me "Ok". And I was like, "Ok what?" and he took four hours to reply and said, "Okay I made a decision" and I said, "What decision? Lol."

Be Warned: You Will Rage

So I watched this video of a bus monitor woman named Karen and the kids she has to watch are so disrespectful that it's a damn shame they're alive. If they were my child, they would never be able to speak like that EVER... If they do, they will get beat! THE OLD FASHION WAY. This is why a lot of people hate America because of kids like these, even worse, their parents are the ones that made this happen. I would have loooooooooooooved to punch some sense into these kids!

To know that these kids are the generation after me is such a disgrace! It makes me sick to even hear kids talk like this... It's just a damn shame!

Ugh. I'd kill them if I could... And wouldn't get in trouble for it.

08/09 USAF BMT. Sigh.

I called my recruiter yesterday morning to talk to her about the situation and she told me that there wasn't anything she can do because no one wanted to swap jobs with me and there were no spots for me for the jobs that I could get because they were all filled. I asked if there was a spot for July and she told me that July is filled and has been filled by people from two~three months ago so she believes that I might get something for August, latest is September.

Is It Bad If I Want You?

WTF AM I DOING YOU GUYS?!

I don't know if I'm digging myself an even bigger hole or what...

I honestly like DG... A LOT. I don't even know why! But I like him a lot and it makes me a little upset because I know I can't have him.

McDonald's, PETA and Pitbulls

"According to McDonald's new radio commercial, they say eating their chicken bites is less risky than petting a (stray) "pitbull". We don't care what product they are promoting, but by insulting that petting a "pitbull" is unsafe, is not only false advertising but it's creating an unfair image in the public eye for dogs.  Please contact McDonalds at 1-800-244-6227 and give them your feedback about this commercial. Your silence serves as agreement so let your voice be heard!"

( http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SAEg0WsRz64 ) - Here's the actual commercial that aired on the radio.

My best friend and I totally called and gave McDonald's a piece of our mind! Not only do I agree that it's false advertising and it's just reassuring the horrible image that these dogs have to the public but I think it's just plain bullpoop! These dogs are the most loving, loyal and smart dogs that I've come to know! They were bred to protect their family and were also bred to be kind enough to withstand children and that's what makes them one of the best breeds for family... You just need to train them properly. But there are some evil people in the world that use this breed for their own good and use them for gambling and street dog fighting. That's why most of them are aggressive and have to be put down (if they are lucky enough to live through the grueling fights they are forced into) and there are some even more evil people out there who themselves cut the ear-flaps of the pitbulls just so that when they fight, they won't have the ear-flaps chomped on. And it makes me want to cry when I hear and see stories like these because these breeds don't need this kind of horrible attention!

HUMANS buy them.
HUMANS over breed them.
HUMANS cut their ears off.
HUMANS beat them.
HUMANS make them fight.
Yet, HUMANS blames the breed for being bad!

And another reason why I hate PETA because they say that they support animal rights but if you really look into them, PETA supports the EXTERMINATION of pitbull-type breeds AND slaughter of elk on an island off of the coast of California- not for people to USE the meat, but just to kill them because they are not "native" to the island. How does that make any sense? At least hunters use what they kill. Definite hypocrites.

And it's painful to see this because I love Soonja (Blue Fox's female pitbull) and we both love her to death because she is the cutest and most sweet dog.

UGH! PETA and McDonald's UGH!,
Otter

MY SAD FARMERS TAN!

I don't like having awkward farmers tan. I know it's not a big deal but this is what happens when you run under the run or walk under the sun and all you wear is t-shirts. As you can see, my natural skin is white. And then the rest is tanned out! And it's only going to get worse from here as I join the USAF and I'm in Texas for two and a half months. Now when I take off my shirt, I look like I'm wearing a white shirt.

Sad,

Otter

.................. F*ck.

Seven hours ago, it was 5am. I just fell asleep for less than three hours...

Then my phone rings...

I pick it up and see that it's Blue Fox.

WHAT THE F*CK? BLUE FOX? (picks up)

(at this point I'm excited that he called because that gave me hope...)

"Hello?", I said.

(rustling sounds, male friend talking, Blue Fox replying)

"Hello?", I said again.

(rustling sounds, male friend talking, Blue Fox replying)

… My heart is racing, I’m nervous and I stay on the phone for two minutes, listening to him giggle at what his friend said while they’re walking and I realized that his phone is in his pocket again and it called me. This happened three or more times before and we were still talking to each other so I know that he wasn’t trying to be mean but… Sigh. It made me even more depressed that his phone called me and not him… I was hoping it was him.

I hung up the phone, retreated deeper into my bed, buried myself in my pillow fortress and tried crying myself to sleep but I just ended up… Crying.

I just really wanted it to be him, not his fucking pocket… And I keep crying about it because I was excited at 5am, thinking there was fucking hope. Crying at night and crying in the morning fucking hurts because the only person I want to talk to isn’t around; I can’t call, I can’t text, I can’t IM, I can’t do shit and it hurts… But why do I still have to strength to wait? I feel like I’m slowly losing hope but why do I still have hope?

I’m scared he’ll never call me again and I’m scared he won’t forgive me…

When I got the call, I picked up happy with my heart thumping through my chest and I was happy to hear his voice but I hung up, crying… Knowing that he didn’t know he called me and that I was staying on the line feeling happy. I hung up because he wasn’t aware…

Sigh, and here I go again… ㅠㅠ