Bible Study-Ish With Indigo.

(Discusses things in the Book of Mormon and in the Bible with Indigo)
Otter: In 2 Nephi, "Stem of Jesse", why is "Jesse" referred to Christ?
Indigo: Remember the house of Israel? What was his name before it changed?
Otter: Isaac?
Indigo: Right. And what were his sons name?
Otter: I forgot...
Indigo: Jesse is the father of David. David being King David, of the house of Judah.
Otter: Oooh. Sigh. Confusing.
Indigo: My advise is just skim over 2 Nephi, because to understand Isaiah, you need to read the Old Testament.
Otter: Sigh, that means I have to read the first half of the Bible.
Indigo: Yes.
Otter: So I'll just go back to it later then?
Indigo: Yes. Even I have a hard time with it.
Otter: I think the Bible was made to read over and over again.
Indigo: Well, it was meant for Jews.
Otter: (laughs out loud until stomach hurts) I don't know why that made me laugh so hard!
Indigo: Me neither. Kinda hurts.
Otter: Yes, I'm hurting right now!
Indigo: Stop it
Otter: I can't!
Indigo: Stop!
Otter: I can't!
Indigo: You must!
Otter: Noooooooooooooooo~!!!
Indigo: Yes!
Otter: Okay. I'm done. :)
Indigo: Gah
Otter: Bah
Indigo: No
Otter: Snow
Indigo: Where
Otter: Somewhere...
Indigo: Over the rainbow?
Otter: If you can get pass the armed unicorns...
Indigo: And the angry mushrooms.
Otter: You can't forget those! They're hardcore. :(
Indigo: But delicious
Otter: I've never had one before.
Indigo: They're very good in hotpot.
Otter: Mmmm, sounds yummy~
Indigo: Oh yes
Otter: Can Jews eat them too?
Indigo: No. None for them.

LOL! How did we get here?!,
Otter

We Are Olives.

Otter: In 1 Nephi ch. 15, when they talk about an olive tree. It's not literally talking about an olive tree, right?
Indigo: No. It's a representation of God's people. The branches are the people and the fruit is what we become.
Otter: And the tree is...?
Indigo: The people. Remember it's just a representation.
Otter: So the people will become olives?
Indigo: Exactly. Our end result is to become olives.
Otter: Ugh! I can't wait to be an olive!
Indigo: It's gonna be the bomb.
Otter: Little olive bombs!
Indigo: (laughs out loud) Explode? Olive oil all over!

Teehee, Indigo.

So I posted my baptism pictures on Facebook and Indigo comments on it.

Indigo: That's my girl

:D,
Otter

Otter's Baptism.

Picture 1: Greenwood cutting cake for everyone!
Picture 2: My second mother and I.
Picture 3: Elder Opeda and I! (DON'T WE LOOK ALIKE?!)
Picture 4: Elder Preator, Joe, Me and Elder Jeffery

Of course, pictures are not allowed during the baptism so you can't really see me getting dunked but I did wear a one-piece jumpsuit that reminded me of an astronaut suit.

Everyone sang for me and I was getting ready to get baptized...

Joe and I went into the baptismal font and he held my back and I held his hand and he said a small prayer and then dunked me!

Mormons and My Wound.

So just five minutes ago, Indigo (yes, Indigo) had some connections that lead two Mormon Elders to me. I thank him for helping me out and trying to send people to “help me”. Even though I’m not religious, just the gesture was nice.

But in the midst of all that, Quazi (Emily’s dog) was growling at Astro and attacking the kennel. So I tried moving Quazi but just before I could touch him, he attacked my wrist.

I didn’t know how bad it was until Elder Larson and Elder Opeda handed me the Book of Mormon and then I saw how bad my wrist was.

THERE WAS A FREAKING HOLE IN MY WRIST AND I CAN SEE THROUGH MY SKIN.

Fuck. And I have MEPS next Thursday.

Otterbot and Choco

CHOCO JUST TEXTED ME! AT... 3:18AM! I guess he got off his flight not too long ago. Ohmygod, jitters. (giggles) And he was in Eastwood a few hours ago... Wow. He didn't tell me. Actually, wait. No. It's good that he didn't tell me... I wouldn't be ready. (laughs)

GAH, he's here already! I'm so nervous again~ What am I going to wear?! I'm thinking that no matter how much I try to look pretty, I might not be pretty enough... Maybe I'm saying it because his standards are high? Or I'm putting myself down. I don't know. lsa;kdj;lkasdjflkjasdl;kjfksdjfj;sdkfjhdfg!

Just thinking about having a date with him... Ohmygod x 38939479834939842!!!

Sigh. I've thought well and hard about this and... I think it's best to let go of Indigo especially before I fall too far into all hopelessness and swirl in a horrible abyss that I've created myself. I've rebottled everything else and even though I'm tempted to open it up again, I know have to just leave it be. Sure, we can just talk but I don't think anything will ever happen to us. Sigh. That's fine... I suppose.

PS: I watched Transformers: Dark Side of the Moon in 3D! And to be honest, I should have just watched the normal version. (laugh) I mean, during the whole movie, you kind of don't need the 3D glasses. Oh well, I thought it was badass! Capital BIG, uppercase ASS. I laughed, I teared, I ALMOST cried and I was hyped up. And I think Rosie Huntington-Whiteley is better than Megan Fox. But if Megan Fox didn't bash Michael Bay (the man who basically piled on good credits for her) she would still have her job. However, Rosie's better. Plus, she has a British accent. You can't go wrong with that...

Confused,
Otter

Indigo in Taiwan.

Indig - Who? Just kidding.

Indigo left to head to the airport about an hour ago for his next stop: Taiwan! He'll be doing this group language thing where they all solidify their Chinese. It sounds a little silly and looks silly in my head but he'll be gone for another month... He'll be back in Singapore on August 8th and then he leaves for Utah on August 9th. Great!

When Indigo went to Indonesia, he met up with some old friends that he hasn't seen in four years and when I took a look at some pictures, I couldn't believe that I know at least one of them. (laughs) but that one guy who I know has a girlfriend who has a friend that he tried to hook up with Indigo. Hmmm, yes. I saw pictures... It's just hooking up but Indigo says it's nothing. (Right, all guys say it's nothing but ya'know it's something... Even for one night.) Whatever though. I'm learning to suppress my emotions...

Trying to let go,
Otter

Indigo in Indo.

On Tuesday morning, Indigo left for Indonesia to see his friends that he hasn't seen in about four years or more. He'll be there until Saturday morning. I'm glad.

In all honesty, I'm not quite sure if this will go anywhere. I haven't tried anything or whatever but just seeing it as it is... I'm 50/50 (maybe I'm being a little too generous) with the whole thing. Do I feel like I'm his type? Yes. Feel is the word. But am I? Not sure. If he thinks Rhino is "gorgeous", then what am I? A freaking goddess? I think so. I wouldn't call this a 'love triangle' because I don't think Indigo is Rhino's type... But, you know. Still. Gross. Sigh~ "Still gorgeous", he says. Ha! Gorgeous my sweet patootie!

I don't know. I honestly don't know... That's why I'm taking this time (away from him) to just chill out because I think with what happened along the way, I reopened a bottle of feelings that have been kept away all these years and it almost got the best of me... And, I'm really hoping I didn't leave any traces or hints along the way.

Let's just see what happens between Indigo and I.

Re-bottling,
Otter

Otter to Indigo.

Sometimes, there are moments where I don't want to tell anyone anything about you or show you to anyone because I'm so afraid that they'll fall in love with you too. (sad face)

What's Wrong With Otter?

I've noticed with the guys that I've dated, I'm always the one that ends up being tossed aside. There was only one occasion where there was a mutual break up (it ended well, we're still friends. One of those rare things too) and there's one where we were just always missing our chance to be together so it ended up not working out.

On most of the relationships, it would either be it stops during the dating process or it fails when or shortly before it reaches three years. Maybe it's because when you've reached three years, that's the moment where you start and think about whether the relationship ends right then and there or goes further to something more serious, i.e. marriage. Don't look at me like that, that's what the experts said... I'm just assuming.

Indigo Is In Hong Kong

It's been a day and a half? Two days? Since Indigo left for Hong Kong with his mother to see his grandparents. He's only there for three days or so, but still, I miss him a lot. I know I shouldn't miss him this much but... I just do. It drives me crazy sometimes. He's not really excited to see his grandparents because they'll interrogate him in Chinese (laughs) and that was in his words but he is excited for the food. He loves food. (smiles) Honestly, in my mind, I don't know where this is going or if it's going to go anywhere... But uhg! I want it toooooooo~

As for Turtle; the guy that's calling you "ugly" and "bitch"... You must show him to me so I can invert his ass over his head. How dare he~ Even if he likes you and does that for attention, it's clearly disrespectful. I've seen elementary school students who act better than he does! Wait, no. My puppies have more respect than he does! Next time he calls you "ugly" you should say, "Hey, you hideous piece of bull shit" and if he calls you "bitch" again, tell him that it's weird to talk to himself. Or, just ignore him. Most people go for the whole ignore-thing.

And as for Panda's cousin... I would have slapped him silly for bringing him over! Crazy. But at least you got to see him smile over something as small as earbuds. (laughs) He seems so... Innocent-y.

Passive,
Otter

Giddy Otter and Lovely Indigo

Indigo: Give me time and I will.

Otter: You will what?

Indigo: Kidnap you!

Otter: Oh! Okay. Well. I'm still waiting, no worries.

(My MSN status was, "Kidnap me, baby.")

Otter: I really wanted to make the world jealous.

Indigo: Me too. It would have to wait a bit longer to be jealous

Otter: I guess so

Indigo: Patience. Patience...

Otter: (sad face)

Indigo: I know

Otter and Her Main-Squeeze

So, here's the deal.

After 7 - Sprung On It

For as long as I can remember, I've been listening to After 7. Even before starting pre-school, I can remember seeing them on MTV and singing their songs on the radio. They are my all-time favorite! I have every single album that they've released, all original CDs. They didn't get too much recognition and some of their songs aren't given as much love as they should. When I was five, my parents put a small red TV in the bathroom so that you can watch TV when you're using the potty, taking a bubble bath or what have you... And whenever I use it, I always try to catch them on TV and I would have their CDs play when I'm taking a bubble bath. This brings me so many memories~ It makes my heart thump.

More so because this should be my damn theme song! Indigo makes my heart race and skip a beat like I have ventricular cardiac arrhythmia and listening to this song doesn't make it feel any better. ♡

Otter Misses Indigo

It's been four to five days since I haven't spoken to Indigo and I must say, I miss him shit loads. Sigh. He's probably out with friends, catching up with lunch and some movies, and since his dad comes over every weekend, he's probably busy with his family. Maybe working out with some friends and hopefully, maybe, catching up on sleep. I don't know but whatever it is, he needs to come online now. (laughs)

I wrote him a reply letter but I'm not quite sure what pictures to put... So, I'm thinking of that and he needs to come online so that he can give me an address to send this to. I'm hoping I can send this to Singapore while he's there and receive it on time. If he gives me the address late, I might do the one-day express mailing. (laughs) Because when he's in Taiwan, I doubt that we can send letters however, he can send me letters when he's there... (chuckles)

In my reply letter, I wrote two pages. I read his letters again and looked through the pictures and I didn't feel too crazy like in terms of wanting to talk to him because it felt like I was talking to him in my letters but I seriously wanted to talk to him at that moment. Sigh. I hope he'll like it... I bet he will. It's from me after all.

Sigh. I bet the world would tremble in jealousy and the universe will cry and throw a fit if ever we do end up together... Because we'll look incredibly beautiful together. (laughs)

Missing and daydreaming,
Otter

Qualities Otter Likes

My mom took a look at the letters that I've received, looked through the pictures that came with it... I told her things about him.

Things like how he's tall, handsome, athletic, funny, goofy, loving, loyal, caring, reliable... Played varsity volleyball, dance team, break dances, bilingual, smart, open-minded, keeps his promises, close with his family, actually manages to finish the two years of his missionary call, going back to college, manage to take the time to make me letters, outspoken, trustworthy, surfs, snowboards, outgoing...

And then she said, "Otter. Marry him already."

Giggles.

Otter's (trying) New Plan

Oh, Indigo.

Here's the thing I'm trying to do - yeah, trying - I'll try to calm the hell down. Yes, I like him a lot. Yes, I'm smitten. Yes, he's the closest to my type. Yes, I want a relationship (in the future). Yes, I want him all to myself. But I realized that I can't have that now... As much as I want it now, I can't. It just wouldn't work. (sad face) I love everything about him and I know that there's going to be so much that we can do together and so much more. We might get to see each other when we're both in the States; we'll only be separated by one state... I would love to see him if we could see each other. I'm going to be starting a new life, and he's going to continue with his; how will that work out? It might, it might but the chances are slim and I really, really, really want it to work out. So, here's the thing, I'll let it develop. I'll let whatever this is develop. As much as it kills me to wait patiently, I'll do it. Because he's worth it. We'll call, text, Skype, chat, drive up to see each other and send more letters to each other... I'll be more than willing. I love his company, I love when we talk really late at night and everything... Like I said, I'll bottle up whatever just to have his company, just to have him around, protecting me and to have him with me.

Half of me is agreeing that I can do this, patiently. The other half of me is shouting, "I miss you too much! Come back!" ~ Sigh.

Let's see how this goes,
Otter

Lonely Otter

It sucks to not have someone to talk to at this time of night...

So, the guy that I'm insanely smitten over? Yeah, let's call him Indigo. For many reasons, one being that it's a little lonely too. It's not the kind that you approach immediately but you know it's calm and comfortable. Everyone knows it, sees it, sometimes doesn't care but always fall back on it. It's friendly, shy and sometimes mysterious. That's Indigo.

I may not know what has been said... But I know it doesn't feel good.

What am I doing to myself?