Gym? Dots and Whatnots.

Man, I did not have the best morning...

Last night, I head to bed at 10pm because my body schedule said so and I fall asleep shortly after. But then suddenly, I'm awake by 3:40am. WHAT THE? And believe it or not, I had another dream of Blue Fox. So I'm like, "Eh, no biggie. I still have three hours to sleep until my alarm goes on..." so I try my best to go back to sleep. NO LUCK. I end up laying in bed, with my eyes closed and thinking about Blue Fox. I'm tossing and turning, take off and putting on my socks, removing and covering myself with the blanket. WHY AM I SO RESTLESS?

A New Step For Otter

Sigh. After freaking out last night... I took what Blue Fox said and he's right. I have to think for myself. All this time, I've been thinking of others, what others think, what others want me to do and I forgot all the things that I wanted to do and what I need to do for myself. I've been sheltered so much by my mother and I thank her for that but I grew up, scared of taking chances when I know I should. It hurt me that my mother would pity-talk me saying things like, "You'd take this job in Los Angeles if you still care about your mother and your dogs." if I had the chance, I'd be in the Philippines, taking care of my mother and my dogs every single day but who'll support them? No one. Not even my father will. I have to help... But I just hate people telling me to do this because they all count on me. I have my mother, my dogs, and five other people (that I have to pay back) on my back and it's seriously weighing me down but I have to do what I have to do; think for myself for once. Even if I come off as selfish and self-centered.

So, I gathered up the courage and took a chance...

I bought a ticket to Maryland, Monday - Sept. 19th, and I arrive at Baltimore-Washington International at 6:44PM-ish. OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!

I'm doing it! I jumped... I took a chance. I'm taking this for myself and giving this whole new "taking chances" thing a try. It's a little scary because I have doubts like what if Blue Fox doesn't actually come and pick me up. LOL. (I think he will. I don't know. He says he's excited. I don't know. Sigh.)

But, I do have a back-up plan though. If this doesn't work out and it starts to feel uneasy, I'll head back... Somewhere.

Like what my friend Trace-face says, "It'll be an adventure. Everyone should do something out of the norm and a little wild."

And guess who got her period today after all that stressing out? OTTER! Sigh.

Am I Wrong?,
Otter