September 19th, 2011 - Maryland Bound

I'm finally in Maryland! And I have to tell you, the moment I got on that plane from Seattle, it was just so intense! I was so nervous, scared, excited, worried but I loved the rush. I'm not quite sure why I was going to postpone this! Anyways, my flight to Seattle was a little boring, I was up until 3AM and I couldn't sleep on the plane because I was filled with so much emotions... And then when I reached Philadelphia at around 2:00pm, Blue Fox called me and asked where I was and I was glad to hear from him on the phone... It helped my three hour lay over go by faster but then I heard the intercom and said that my flight from Philadelphia to Maryland would only be 20~35 minutes! I was like, "Whaaaaaaaaat?!" so it was a short ride.

"I'll see you tomorrow" ♡

I have the address of Blue Fox's apartment and the mailing address. Woot! I'm excited. I texted him saying that he should sleep now because he has a PT test tomorrow in the morning so he has to wake up before 5am to get ready... But then, he called me for a little bit before he heads to bed.

Blue Fox: I was studying but now, I'm about to go to sleep because I have physical training tomorrow in the morning.
Otter: I know, that's why you should sleep now.
Blue Fox: Mhmm. For the mailing address, it could be different for you but it's different here? But! Do what you want. (laughs)
Otter: Fine, I'll do it your way...
Blue Fox: Mhmm...
Otter: Go sleep now.
Blue Fox: Okay...
Otter: Goodnight~
Blue Fox: I'll see you tomorrow...
(hangs up)

OMG, I SERIOUSLY CAN'T BELIEVE IT! WOOT!

See YOU tomorrow,
Otter

Up and Packing...

I've been trying to pack since Friday night. Blue Fox keeps asking me, "Are you done packing?" and I keep saying no because I realized, I'd be over-weight for one whole bag. So, I'm bringing only one (the black one) and then I'll have the other one sent to me when I have the money or I'll go and pick it up or something... I don't know yet...

Blue Fox: Are you done packing?
Otter: No. Haha.
Blue Fox: How many bags are you bringing?
Otter: One.
Blue Fox: That's it?
Otter: Well...
Blue Fox: Well...?
Otter: I'm leaving some stuff. I'll be over-weight.
Blue Fox: What? No. Bring all of it.
Otter: It's too much. Do you know how much I'll be paying for being over-weight? And plus... It'll freak you and your roommates out.
Blue Fox: Bring it all. Don't worry about the money. I made room in my wide closet... You have half a closet to yourself and a whole drawer to yourself. In my closet, I'm using less than half, actually. The rest you can use.
Otter: We're sharing drawers and closets?
Blue Fox: Mmm, yes.

OMG, WE'RE SHARING DRAWERS!

Blue Fox: Did you have sweaters?
Otter: Yeah, but not heavy jackets though... I know it'll snow soon.
Blue Fox: Mhm. That's fine. You can use my sweaters...

OMG, WE'RE BORROWING SWEATERS!

A New Step For Otter

Sigh. After freaking out last night... I took what Blue Fox said and he's right. I have to think for myself. All this time, I've been thinking of others, what others think, what others want me to do and I forgot all the things that I wanted to do and what I need to do for myself. I've been sheltered so much by my mother and I thank her for that but I grew up, scared of taking chances when I know I should. It hurt me that my mother would pity-talk me saying things like, "You'd take this job in Los Angeles if you still care about your mother and your dogs." if I had the chance, I'd be in the Philippines, taking care of my mother and my dogs every single day but who'll support them? No one. Not even my father will. I have to help... But I just hate people telling me to do this because they all count on me. I have my mother, my dogs, and five other people (that I have to pay back) on my back and it's seriously weighing me down but I have to do what I have to do; think for myself for once. Even if I come off as selfish and self-centered.

So, I gathered up the courage and took a chance...

I bought a ticket to Maryland, Monday - Sept. 19th, and I arrive at Baltimore-Washington International at 6:44PM-ish. OMGOMGOMGOMG!!!

I'm doing it! I jumped... I took a chance. I'm taking this for myself and giving this whole new "taking chances" thing a try. It's a little scary because I have doubts like what if Blue Fox doesn't actually come and pick me up. LOL. (I think he will. I don't know. He says he's excited. I don't know. Sigh.)

But, I do have a back-up plan though. If this doesn't work out and it starts to feel uneasy, I'll head back... Somewhere.

Like what my friend Trace-face says, "It'll be an adventure. Everyone should do something out of the norm and a little wild."

And guess who got her period today after all that stressing out? OTTER! Sigh.

Am I Wrong?,
Otter

Fffffffffffffffffff... ᅮᅮ

Just when I'm about to be able to go to Maryland... Something comes in the way of it!

It's things like this that make me realize the saying, "When you want something so bad, you can't have it yet" is true. I really want to go to Maryland but...

Useless Tension in Seattle

Anyways, with my aunt and I... There's tension building up pretty quickly and I actually don't see the point in it and why she's so mad.

She was planning this trip to Great Wolf, which is like an indoor water park thing, and when she was still planning it she asked me what I thought about it and I told her that I can swim but I don't think it's quite a good idea because for one, I have other things to do, better things to do and priorities to think of first... I didn't come back to Seattle to play around and go on trips.

But I've already told her that she didn't have to but she still decided to go with it. She was inviting her friend, Maureen, but I don't really like her because of the way she treated my uncle (who she was married to) so it was uncomfortable... But then last Saturday, she asked if she could bring her 50-year-old boytoy Willy but I thought it would be extra uncomfortable... Because I have no idea where she got him and they've only been seeing each other for a short time and she was thinking of him being with us in the hotel room but I told her that we'd be all girls and then you bring in this guy that you just met... I expressed that it'd be uncomfortable. She was... Not liking my answer.