"Di Ko Alam."

  How would I describe this day? GOD. So much happened! Anyway, my day started with me rushing to Taft to grab my money from Western Union and then buy a Christmas paper bag for the polo shirt I was going to give Spencer. We met up at KFC and bought spaghetti with Coke.

 For those who really know me, I don't like to drink Coke or other carbonated drinks unless it's my only option. Root beer is a huge exception. I got my meal with soda because I know that Hottie didn't have enough money to buy anything at the establishment (there is a reason he's got a scholarship) and I figured he's kinda like me when it comes to food. When I sat beside him (out of my friends' forceful suggestion), I asked who wanted my Coke coz I didn't want it. He immediately volunteered since everyone else was good.

Yes, I bought drinks I didn't want on purpose. For him. (OMG WHAT IS HAPPENING TO ME)

 We all exchanged gifts and we had a good laugh at each other. I didn't get my gift from CC until later when we were all at Prov, singing our hearts out.

 You know those moments when you just want to kill your friends because they know you like this certain person and they're doing everything they can for the two of you to have an opportunity to... I dunno, hook up?? While we were all crammed in this little karaoke room at Prov, they just had to have him sit beside me and of course push him closer to me that I nearly fell off my side of the bench.

 And when they were singing love songs, they kept inserting his name in the lyrics. I, of course, just laughed it all off with Hottie at the same time I took note of all the people I'm going to kill with a marshmallow.

 Of course, Hottie and I sang some songs together. I like singing duet songs with him because I LOVE his voice. It has potential if he wants to hone it someday. When he sings, I just wanna go ALKRJTHCNFREUIAAXMLKJXMB!!KJLFDH

 There was one time we were singing a song together and Van thought it would be cute if he entwined ourmicrophone cords with each other. TROLOLOLOL.

I love my friends. ♥

There was one event we were all just talking and suddenly they left me and Hottie in the room alone. OMG, Hottie and I were sort of surprised when they did that. It was like... What do they expect us to do??? It was somewhat awkward because... hello, are we to be like trained circus seals: to entertain them?

When Hottie stepped out of the room to take a ciggie (the only thing that ticks me off about it even if he's in the process of quitting- allegedly), Spam followed him outside while we continued to sing our hearts out. She asked him what was up with the two of us. His answer? "Di ko alam." Spam left it at that.

OMG WHAT DOES THAT EVEN MEAN?  He's not sure how he feels about me? He doesn't know what to do? Is that his polite way of saying that he doesn't like me that way? He doesn't know that I like him? BAKIT HINDI NYA ALAM?

And now to drown my sorrows in food: rice and canned tuna.

But first, a lovely song that I'd dedicate like to dedicate to Hottie because I am such a pathetic, awkward creature who hasn't the slightest idea how to hook up with anyone.





Sadly, I still like the dude. And overall, he was really nice about everything that happened.

Awkward Turtle