Recruiting Nanny.

Even though I may not have gotten job calls yet... I was offered a chance to be a - wait for it - a nanny. ROFL! As much as I like kids, I hate most of them. However, it'll be only my cousin but the reason why I'm taking it is because I will be paid by the government. SICK. So, my aunt is signing me up and they'll do a background check on me. If I do get the job and judging from my aunts time schedule, I can actually earn $1000 a month. YES.

However, I still have to have a plan b. That's why I started to think about learning how to take the bus by myself... I need to learn how to take the bus to Downtown so I can go around and apply for jobs so that I don't have to wait for my aunt to be on her day-off to take me out, you know? So, yeah.

Also, yesterday. I went to Tukwila (a neighboring town) and I went to the Air Force Recruiting office but they were closed and the sign said that they were out on recruiting events. So, I called the number on the sign to "Ssgt. Smith" and I asked if I could make an appointment because I have some things to discuss but since he wasn't there and I'm not sure if I could go on Monday we just talked on the phone. I told him that I'm a DEPPER, currently under a recruiter in Guam but I've been trying to contact my recruiter through email, phone and even leaving voice mails for him to call me back but he hasn't been contacting me back or replying to me FOR A FEW MONTHS. And when Ssgt. Smith heard "a few months", he was like, "A. FEWWWW. MONTHS?!?!?!?!?!?!" and I was like, "Yes. And that's why I want to transfer to a new recruiting office or new recruiter." and he told me that he couldn't really do much for me because I can still live in Washington and still be under the recruiter in Guam and if I really wanted to be under a new recruiter, he said that I have to ask my current recruiter to sign the courtesy ship? I forgot what it was called but he said, "But promise me, that the whole of next week, you will keep calling your recruiter and trying to get a hold of him. If one week passes and you still don't get a word, stop by my office and come see me. So I can have my team help you out. And I will talk to my boss about dealing with the recruiters in Guam for showing poor customers service. But promise me, you will try your hardest to contact him." and I said, "I promise. I will."

And he added, "If you'd like, even if you're under your recruiter in Guam, you can still attend my DEP program. It's once a month on the third of every Saturday. But if you don't like working out then that would be a problem because I work out with my boys. But you are more than welcome to come by... It's just, I want to prepare everyone for boot camp. That's our job... So, just think about it." And I just told him that I'll try.

OHMYGOD, DEPPER BOYS. *drools* Just kidding. But I'll think about it because I have to see how I can get there. However, I will try and contact my recruiter because he's being an ass and not even contacting me. Makes me upset.

We also went to the Southcenter Mall... I forgot to stop by Finish Line to see if Matt still works there. LOLOLOLOL.

A Nanny-To-Be,
Otter

Hungover

 So my friend Spam invited me drinking last night with her high school friends. They were a cool bunch. There were a few drinking games and LOTS of shots. My sister joined us an hour later and she got a bit tipsy too.

I think I was drunk, but without the barf and migraine the next morning. I drank lots of water and still felt drowsy from the alcohol. On top of that, I fell asleep with my make-up on and my hair smelled like an ashtray. I couldn't figure out how to get rid of this tiresome feeling so... I cleaned the bathroom.

I scrubbed the tiles and the toilet as an attempt to cure my hungover.

After that, I took a looooong shower to rid of the cigarette smell on me, and I did my laundry on last night's outfits coz I was pretty aware of third-hand smoking in the house.

I feel okay, though not exactly energetic. But... placid.

Feeling post-hungover Zen,
Awkward Turtle

Cat Love

Hitler is getting bigger and fatter. Whenever we open a cupboard, drawer, or closet, he'll jump in without question. Kind of a weird habit.

Hitler watches "Big Bang Theory".


Oh, and guess who's going to Pucca's house to do the History project this coming Sunday?

Nothing new happening in here,
Awkward Turtle

Tall Enough: Inter-racial Love.

I just heard the most baffling thing from my cousin... And she's only eight years old.

Here's how it went. A few days ago, I was watching a drama called "Runaway: Plan B" and it starred Rain, my husband. So, she knows that I'd marry Rain in a heartbeat but it wasn't that she said that Asians were weird... It was what she was going to say next that concerned me. She asked, "If you could marry anyone, besides Rain, who would you marry?" and I said, "Usher." and said, "(gasp)... Why?! He's black!" and I was like, "What's the matter with being black?" and she told me, "It's not good." it concerned me but I really wanted to punch her in the face even if she was eight.

But get this.

Just now, my aunt and I were talking and she told me that her father is going to pick her up so they can hang out and my cousin said, "I don't want to go!" and we asked her why and she replied, "I don't want to ride the bus!" and I asked her, "What's wrong with riding the bus? It's fun." and she said, "Fun? Hellooooooo, there's black people on the bus! I don't want to ride with black people!"

I'm going to be honest, my heart sank, my jaw dropped and I teared up. I said, "Hey! That is the most racist thing I've ever heard come out of your mouth!" and she kept quiet. Her mother said, "Yeah, that's racist. Don't you have black friends at school?" and she said, "No, I don't like."

What she also told me once is that she wanted to marry a white man because - Get this - "Because my English got better and I'm not so shy about talking in English." - Yes, those were her words. I'm ashamed to even be around her now...

It was shocking to hear an eight year old say things like that, especially around me. I don't know what she learned in her short two years here in America but what she said was just enough. It really hurt me almost as much as it would have hurt an African American person. To be honest, I feel uncomfortable calling them "black" because I feel like it's still mean. I mean, you don't call Asians 'yellow' or Indians 'brown'.

I ended up having to excuse myself from the table.

Most of my friends are African American, I've had relationships with a few and I have a lot of aunts, uncles and godparents that are the same and none of them are what people think of them as a race are... They are great people, just as great or even greater than anyone else you'd meet. Most of them are welcoming people... It's just some make bad choices but that doesn't mean that all are like that but to see my eight-year-old cousin to say something so poisonous... It made me want to choke her to death because it's those types of people I hate the most.

And just yesterday, I watched a short six-minute clip called "Tall Enough" and I think everyone should be inspired by it. I'm all for inter-racial relationships and I know in the future, we'll all end up being inter-racial so might as well get use to the idea right now.

Here's the clip:

Heartbroken,
Otter

When Will Otter Get A Chance?

So, when my aunt left to go to work and my little cousin went to summer school... I'm left home alone yet again. Still no job call, I can't really go out, and things like that. I'm slightly bored and I'm thankful to have this sucky laptop.

As I try to find a job, I'm also trying to keep in contact with my recruiter. I update him often and things like that but he doesn't reply to my emails, he doesn't answer my call, he doesn't call me back when I leave a voice mail... So, I'm being left to dry basically and it's flicking my nerves a bit.

And just about an hour ago, I was talking to my friend, Julia, and she was one of the new recruites with me when we were going to Guam for our last stages of being recruited... We were talking and she told me that when she was on vacation to Florida, she got a call from Sarge on July 19th THAT SHE BOOKED A JOB AND IS LEAVING FOR BOOT CAMP ON NOVEMBER 29TH. A vacation AND a BMT date. It can't get any better...

She asked if I heard anything from Sarge and I told her "not yet" and she was actually surprised that I didn't get a call either... For me, I'm not surprised.

I'm not going to lie... It was a little disheartening. Our friend Ray left for BMT the week we were in Guam, Lauden (he's a citizen of Guam) just left for BMT shy of two weeks ago. A girl we met in Guam too is leaving sometime August. And now, Julia has a date. I'm happy for her, she's the first member of her family EVER to join the military and I know that her life in the Air Force will forever change her for the better.

William got disqualified, and Teddy... Decided to join the army instead. SAD. I wish we'd all be in the AF Family together.

Now, my other friend Maurice is leaving for BMT in about a month from now... I update him on what's going on with me and he's referred me to his recruiter in Bremerton, so if my recruiter can't do anything for me... I'll just go to Maurice's recruiter. We were talking the other day about if Maurice were to get in, by the time he gets out, I should have a job HOPEFULLY. Sigh. I gave him my address so he can write me when he leaves and tell me about his days... He's been getting mail from his friends in the Army BCT and he's excited for USAF BMT. I'm pretty sure he's ready and I know he'll fly through the whole thing. We just have to study our reporting statements well because if we mess up, we'll get scolded by the T.I.'s and according to his friend, we might write it 600 times. LOL. But like what his friend said, "I'd rather do 600 push up's than write 600 times." sigh. But, I hope that before Maurice gets out, I have a ship date and by the time I get out of that... We can share our whooping stories. :)

All my other friends are already in the USAF for about a year or two. When sadly, that was when I was trying to get in as well. So, I feel a little discouraged that I've been trying so hard for these past few years to just get in.... But can't. And watching all my friends join in while I'm being pushed back all the time is upsetting because, I've wanted this since I was thirteen and I'm sooooooooooo close to getting in but something is always in the way. I can't book a civilian job and can't book an USAF job. Today, my day isn't as good as I wish it'd be...

But still... Congratulations to Julia! She's almost an official Airman/Airwoman.

Feeling a little left out,
Otter

What you talkin' about??

 Yesterday, for my Oral Communications class, I had to give a speech demonstration as part of our activity requirements. My presentation was about "How to Perform". I had a great time just being silly and talking to class about the basics of performance. To -dos and not-to-dos. Anyway, to close my presentation, I sang "Casualty of Love" by Jessie J. I think the class loved it because they practically gave me a huge applause.

I forever worship Jessie J.

Anyway, my professor isn't the only one who evaluated performance. For this activity, we had peer evaluators. In other words, randomly chosen classmates evaluated us as well and have to give feedback after each presentation. Kind of like a judge panel.

First judge: "I think I just fell in love."
Second judge:"You have a very nice voice and you were confident."
Third Judge: "It sounded lip-synched." (In my head, I was like "what is he talkin' about??)

Honestly, I was flattered that he thought I lip-synched because it was a totally live performance. My professor asked him to clarify his statement. He said I sounded like a professional singer. Oooooooh.

My professor's assessment? I had confidence from ceiling to floor throughout my performance and it was a great presentation.


Too bad I didn't record it on video.

Totally bad-ass,
Awkward Turtle

Babysitting and Hunting.

So, I found out that the manager that was handling my job application forgot to hand it over to the boss. I know that they are needing people to work at their location but seriously, if that's the case... You should handle all applicants with eagerness. So that kind of makes me think that I should work for someone else?

That is why I'm planning to go downtown (on my aunt's day off so she can drive me) and I'll go around, asking for job applications. I'm thinking of going to Old Navy, Urban Outfitters, H&M, Nike, Adidas, Target... I just need money because I have six dogs, a mother and a adopted brother to take care of so, I kind of need a job right now. Plus, I need money to get around as well. But I'm also thinking of working at shoe stores like Nike or Adidas or Journeys or Finishline because, you get employees discount. Well, you get that in most stores but I know for sure Adidas has that and it's Employees Discount %30 off of items, including shoes. LOL. But, if I'm going to be leaving for USAF boot camp in the near future... It's best I hold off on the shoes because I'd only be allowed one pair with at least four~five days worth of civialian clothes.

SO, I'm not sure yet. All I need is a job that will get my some paper in the bank.

Other than that, I am babysitting my cousin and getting paid by the government. And to be honest, it's not that fun when you don't have cable tv. Yes, WE. DON'T. HAVE. CABLE. TV. And my friend PB said, "Where the heck do you live?!" LOL. I know, I know. At least I have internet and I can watch Korean and Japanese dramas to pass the time... And have my cousin watch until she's bored to death and falls asleep. SEE, GREAT BABYSITTING.

Still hunting,
Otter

Casualty of Love

After listening to her hits "Do It Like A Dude" and "Price Tag", this song "Casualty of Love" shows off her versatility as a pop ballad singer. It's a fitting genre. If I have a boyfriend (and by boyfriend, I mean PANDA), I want him to slowdance with me to this song. *sigh*

Still single,
Awkward Turtle

Job Hunting, Fail and Irritation.

I tried applying for a job in a retail store but it has already been five days since they've recieved my resume and they told my aunt that they will give me a call but seriously, they haven't called me at all. So, I'm about to just screw that and find another place... I hope that my aunt will have the time soon to drive me downtown so I can look for a job around the area.

I also need to find a way to get out of the house more often. Actually, I don't leave the house and it's like being home all over again. One of the reasons why I don't leave the house is because when I did take a walk, I wasn't sure where I was going and I was afraid that I was going to get lost... So, I ended up coming back home. I don't have a GPS and I'm not going to leave bread crumbs to find my way back home. I'm going to ask my aunt if there's a park close by and then start walking there and hanging out.

I really need to be busy soon... I want to be so busy that I don't have to think about some things. My recruiter is being a douche bag and a effin' punk, my 8-year-old cousin is stepping on my nerves and I just really want to stick her in the face and I need to get out so I don't think about food to satisfy my boredom... The last thing I need is to gain weight when I was doing so well take it off.

Heavy-Feeling Mind,
Otter

Yogaaaa!

For PE today, we had to do different yoga positions and do two rounds of Salutations to The Sun. Last night, I watched a copy of a yoga video and went along with it. My mom arrived home and saw me doing the cat pose halfway (Hands and knees on floor, back arched up and head down). I'm still a beginner, though I have done some sessions before. The entire night, I was a human pretzel while trying to make sure my body placement and position were correct. ("Is that right arm over left arm? And how did her toes get there??") I don't care what my other classmates say about Yoga. It relieved me of this muscle pain in my lower back and I barely get menstrual cramps these days. I'm thinking of buying my own yoga mat and make it a regular thing. After each yoga session, I feel tons lighter and it feels fantastic! Attempting the turtle pose, Awkward Turtle

Butt-Bread Dreams.

Don't listen to them, butt of bread. Live out your dreams
just like the other pieces of bread in the loaf.
You're no different...



Otter and Baby Seals.

OHMYGOD, I WANT TO HUG IT SO BAD!!!

Pucca, Meet My Shovel.

DUDE, SERIOUSLY. I'M TOTALLY THE SAME! I don't like random people touching my head or my hair unless it's their job. Even if there is a sticky lollipop in my hair, they will not go near it (unless I'm comfortable with them doing it) but usually I'll do it myelf. It's annoying when people just do it as if it's nothing. NOOOOOTHING!!!!!!!! Drives me crazy!!!

(When someone places their hand on my head)

(I look at the person who did it...)

(My FIRST warning...)

CAT

 Random cat at our backyard in the province.

Cat got your tongue?

Awkward Turtle

Homicide Mode

 Sooo last Monday, History class was a riot, as usual. Pucca and Teddy we're going at it with Who Has The Most Random Answers. As a result, everytime I speak up, I seem to be the only person the professor likes to listen to.

Anywaaaaay, I was on homicide mode that day because of PUCCA. Jeezus Christ. Here are three reasons why:

* As usual, I was laughing at him because the teacher asked "Where was this historical figure exiled blah blah blah" and he answered. "Hawaii!" The answer was Guam. I was laughing so hard, that I was already bent over my desk. And then I felt his hand on my hair. (He is my seatmate. Ugh. ) On my head. OMG IT FELT SO WEIRD. I sat upright and pretended to look over my book and notes for the professor's discussion.

I could be paranoid, but.... asdjfh hfuvnifhshfjahgfalh!!! I mean, you just don't let a random person touch the crown of your head (unless the person has to work on your hair). For me, the head is quite an intimate area. I like it when my mom decides to give me a little head massage, or when a guy I used to go out with would stroke my head or ruffly my hair playfully. I mean, think about it! If someone you're just acquainted with reaches out to touch your hair or your head, it's just AWKWARD.

* I have this little habit of biting the end of my pen and just letting it stay there in my mouth if I'm nervous or if both of my hands are full. All of a sudden, Pucca knocked the pen off my mouth. And laughed.
First of all--- OUCH.
SECOND---- WTF???
I was so mad, I grabbed my notebook and started beating him up senseless. The teacher had to approach us and asked if I want to report Pucca to the Discipline Office. ARGH. I want to report him to the nearest police station! I told my professor it wasn't necessary.
  THEN Teddy- who was seated in front of me, said Pucca shouldn't be reported because he and I have a future together. SAY WHAT. The professor was obviously supressing a smile when she went back to the whiteboard.

*When we were all dismissed, Teddy went up to Pucca, extending a hand. "Dude, I want to be the best man at your wedding." Pucca and I gave him a weird look. I started to make my way to the door.
"What wedding?" Pucca asked. Teddy replied, "Oh, coz you know... you have a future."
I can feel Teddy, Pucca and Kitty looking at me.
"The only future he's having is the one in his grave!" I shot back.

A Friendly Defence.

Most of us hate cruelty towards animals and I hate to see the animal population going down. But now, there's a spark of hope in the elephant world! It's a new innovative solution to the problem of the destructive elephans in Kenya!

While the revival of the elephants in Kenya has been a huge sucess or conservationists, it has come to the expense of farmers and villages who live near the sometimes dangerous pachyderms. Some clever thinking may end up saving everyone some grief. Elephants, like humans, are afraid of bees. Farmers and villagers experiemented with fences made of bee hives - instead of the traditionl thorn fences - and found them to be much more effective. As an added bonus, Kenyen farmers may now benefit from selling honey.

Runway Beat and Mint Chocolate Ice Cream

Turtle! It only costs you the same as if you were texting me while I'm there. Haha. But I can wait. Anyways, the cute guy named Matt who sold me my shoes at Finish Line... Yes, I need to hunt him down! I went to the same mall two days ago but I didn't stop by because we weren't there for long but I'm going to git'him! I'm giggly just thinking about it...

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Anyways, I was just thinking of this Japanese independent film I was watching when I was leaving for Tokyo. It's called "Runway Beat" and even though I don't think Koji Seto is my kind of cute or any of the male cast (and some girls are cute but that's it), the movie was inspirational and I absolutely love the sound track! I teared in the movie and it's something that I think is worth buying~ So next time I'm in Tokyo, I'm buying myself a copy! (^_^)

Ice cream in the freeze is calling,
Otter

GITHIM!!

   Hey Otter! I remember the story you told me about the guy who sold you those shoes you liked! OHMAGAHHD girl!! Find him!! Hunt the man down!

  I haven't loaded any phone credits yet so I'll probably be able to text you by next week, since I'm pretty sure Globe's unlimited text promos don't apply to sending SMS to roaming numbers.

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Judging by the majority of the grades in all my subject, there's a huge chance I could make it in the Dean's List next term. So I gotta grind in a little extra effort and focus starting next week. Spartaaaa!!!

There's nothing much new going on. However, I'm studying handwriting analysis. I'm reading this huge, comprehensive book by Andrea McNichol. Through handrwriting analysis (or graphology), you can pinpoint the most likely suspects in theft and robbery, identify a felon or a potential criminal, find out if a person is lying or is under drug influence... so yeah, I'm gonna make a couple of my friends guinea pigs for my little self study. TROLOLOL.

Meanwhile, this is the song I'm currently groovin' to.




Taking a break,
Awkward Turtle

Otter and Devil Children.

I think kids are great. They're fun, innocent and very sweet... But sadly, their cuteness expires when they reach about seven or eight. And then that's when they become the worst shitty little people you would ever have to babysit. (chokes child like Homer on Bart) D:<

One annoyed babysitter,
Otter

Oh Seattle, We Meet Again.

I'm back in Seattle... And it's cold! :)

Let's recap: I hate Delta Airlines. Why? Because they feed you when you're sleeping. I hate how they bang my table open and place my food tray on it while I'm sleeping. I mean, seriously? I'm sleeping, I don't want to hear whether you have chicken or beef and no, I don't want coffee, tea, beer or cola. Uhg, it's like China Airlines all over again... Shame on you, Delta. Shame on you. Where are your manners? I should have taken Korean Air.

My flight from Japan to Seattle would have been nice if the Korean guy didn't ask me to switch seats with him so he could sit next to his friend/brother because I was sitting alone hoping that I would sit alone during the flight or at least sit with someone cute but when they came up to me and asked, I was a little upset. Hmm, here's how the conversation went:

(A conversation in Korean)
Korean guy: Hi, excuse me. Are you Korean?
Me: Mmm, yes. Why?
Korean guy: Ah~ Good. Is it okay with you if you could switch seats with me?
Me: Um... Where's your seat? What's the seat number?
Korean guy: 32J.
Me: Ah~ Alright. That's fine.
Korean guy: Ohmygod, thank you so much.
Me: No problem~
Korean guy's friend: I'm so sorry~
Me: Oh, no. Haha. It's alright. Don't worry about it~

To be honest, it was horrible. Why? Because the guy that I was suppose to was SO cute! Uhg! I didn't want to be rude and it was a window seat so I couldn't complain but it would have been a better ride if I got to sit next to him! He was so cute... Why didn't that Korean guy let me sit next to his friend/brother so I can make love to his amazing Asian features? Sad face.

He was tall, athletic-built, nice Asian eyes (not too big, not too small), nice smile, low voice, manly hands and from the looks of his shirt, he seems to work out and probably has nice chocolate abs... It was like his shirt was covering a nice six-piece section from a Hersey bar! Sigh.

Why is it that whenever I sit next to someone cute on the plane, something happens and makes them move? That's like the time I was on my flight from Japan to Seattle almost two years ago and I sat next to this Japanese guy who was really, really handsome but the lady flight attendant was being a bitch to him and couldn't let him sleep so he got pissed off and switched to an empty seat on the plane. Yes, I was happy that I got two seats all to myself to sleep on but he was so handsome. And now that this incident has happened again, I'm mad. I would have sat next to a very cute, Korean guy with a nice body for more than eight hours, eating with him, sleeping next to him and even maybe watching a movie with him. SEE, IT'S THE PERFECT DATE WITH A CUTE STRANGER WITHOUT EVEN TALKING TO HIM! Maybe, if the cards were good we could have had a conversation... BUT NO, THE UNIVERSE DECIDED TO BE CRUEL TO ME. Sad face.

Anyways, now that I'm back, I'm trying to get over this jet lag. What was funny was that I dozed off in the house at 5pm, woke up at 2am, showered at 4am, ate breakfast at about 430~5am and went back to sleep before 6am, and woke up at 815am. Yeah, that needs to be fixed. But now, I'm going to look for a job or two since people here are really in need of hiring so I'm down to make some money... I feel like this is a nice turn in my life, it's starting to feel like thing are going to get better and that this is the change that I need.

What's my next mission? Finding a nice, handsome guy that I can have tons of beautiful babies with. OH, OH, OH! LET ME FIND, MATT! THE GUY THAT SOLD ME MY SHOES AT THE MALL! (puts on hunting gear)

Mrs. Feel Good,
Otter

Panda, Noses and Ratios.

OMG, TURTLE. I WAS HOLDING MY BREATH WHILE READING YOUR PANDA STORY!

Congratulations on finishing your midterms and all the things that have been keeping you busy! You deserve a break even if it's a short one but seeing that you got a little something something from Panda, I think the excitement of your break has started!

Panda sounds so perfect~ And I lol'd at his drunk story. I giggled at the fact that he gave you a bear hug and I held my breath when he gave a kiss on the cheek. GAH!!! I think you guys need to hook up NOW. I want tons of godchildren from you and I want his genes in the mix... He's tall and huggable and he seems to have manners. Did he smell nice when you hugged him? And while we're on the topic of attributes, how is his nose?

LOL, yes. I have the same problem to. The nose needs to fit the face as well. It all needs to be of equal ratio... The mouth-face ratio cannot be too off, the nose-face ratio has to compliment each other and the eyes and face ratio needs to be appealing too. See, it all needs to fit.

I had a friend who was being introduced to a girl and apparently, we were told - yes, when I mean 'we', I mean him and I - that the girl was pretty. Since I'm very protective of - hmmm, let's call him PB - I'm very protective of PB because he's everything to me and if I'm going to send him off to a girl, that girl has to be hella badass with killer looks and a genuis brain that makes all human life form pitty itself. So when he finally met the girl, he freaked out and when I mean 'freak out' I mean, really freaked out in the inside because he didn't want to be rude to her in person. But let's jut say that she had the old-school Jewish nose... I'm not being mean to Jewish people but you have to admit, they didn't have great noses back in the day. It was similar to a nose of a Halloween witch and I'm not exaggerating either... I mean, the girl was pretty. She has nice green eyes, she had nice hair, her lips were fine and she had a nice, perfect and straight smile and she seemed to be in shape, she wasn't big or too thin but it wasn't to die for... BUT DEAR GOD, HER NOSE WAS HORRIBLE. Even if she got it fixed, chances are the children might get it and a 50/50 chance is all you need to say no. So, he didn't date her... PB didn't even keep in contact with her. LOL. That's how much it freaked him out.

Laughing,
Otter

Panda and Hugs

 Yesterday, my classmate Kitty and I walked to the Main campus, with a little pitstop on the way to consume isaw (chicken guts!) and pig's ears. Nothin' like street food to celebrate the end of midterms. Then we continued to walk. Passing by a couple of fastfood areas, I saw Panda a couple of feet away.

I think it's amazing that I was able to identify him at a distance with his back to us. TROLOLOL.

Anyway, I pointed out to Kitty who Panda was as we passed him by. I didn't want to say hi coz I wasn't prepared to talk to him yet. I mean, I had no idea if my breath smells like vinegar or if I have bits of chicken gut stuck in my teeth or whatever. Kitty was all, "let's go back and you say hi!" (Kitty is Japanese, she sounds adorable speaking Tagalog.)

I was like, nooooooo...

Panda looks so friggin' immaculate in jeans and white polo shirt.

Kitty and I reached the front gate of the main building. Then the Angelus started since the clock had struck at 6pm. And everyone knows when the Angelus starts, nobody should move a muscle. So Kitty and I just talked and then she sees Panda making his way to our direction.

OHSHITOHSHIOHSHIT. "Say hi!" Kitty says to me. Panda was already in front of me, saying good-bye to a friend. I finally called out to him. "Tito!" I said. Yes, our group calls him tito as a term of endearment because he's got this paternal role thing going on. He looks up at me and beams. "Oh hey!" he says, and gives me a bear hug.

Like... OMG, I swear this man is genetically designed to be HUGGABLE. It was the best feeling ever! It was like hugging a tall teddy bear. He's tall and he's not skinny, so... yeeeeeaaah. I want my future boyfriend to be as tall and huggable as he is, if ever Panda and I don't have a shot. LOL.

Panda didn't even wait for me to be introduced to Kitty. After he hugged me, he introduced himself to her. OMG, why is he so PERFECT?

Turns out Panda was waiting for his cousins, Spencer and Anya. They were gonna take the LRT together. We talked for awhile. I mentioned to Kitty that I'm gonna pick up my glasses at the nearby mall.

Panda: (cheerfully) I lost my glasses.
Me: Really? When?
Panda: Yesterday.
Me: Where'd you lose it?
Panda: Highway.
Me:... (long pause)... were you drunk?
Panda: Yup! I was throwing up at the car window and when I looked up my glasses just went.

Moral of the story: slow down on the alcohol and hold on to your eyewear in the middle of the highway.


Before I left, Panda's cousins arrived. And he gave me a kiss on the cheek before departing.
SIGH.

Walking on cloud 9,
Awkward Turtle

Comedy Mondays

 Oh I nearly forgot to mention.  Pucca came in History class late last Monday. What's hilarious is that he practically strides in class with a certain swagger, you'd think he's gotten in early. We're seatmates, so when he sat down beside me, he was like, "Can you fix my collar?"

"Your collar?" I blinked at him. His degree program requires them to wear a coat and tie. His polo collar wasn't folded over his tie, so I fixed that for him. He only intends to have his collar fixed at his last class of the day?? Men.

Here's a little background of my History class. During History period, Pucca is my seatmate, Teddy and Kitty are seated just in front of us. And we're the bunch that our old lady professor usually keeps a sharp eye on because :
a.) Teddy and Pucca say the most gobsmacking things for comic relief (and it works to disrupt the class which is one of the few idiosyncrasies which makes me not want to kill them )and, 
b.) she claims that our History group project presentation was a total bust. I blame Pucca for putting irrelevant pictures in the presentation, with one of them me giving a middle finger to his camera coz he won't stop taking shots.

And another thing you have to know about Pucca is that he likes to recite in class, even if it's just a lucky guess. He'll spew out the most random stuff. This time, the teacher was friggin' annoyed, she shot him a "ticked off" look.

Pucca: Sorry, miss.
Prof: ... and what else?
Pucca: Um... sorry?
Prof: Anything else?
Pucca: Uh... I love you?

The whole class nearly died laughing.

Hell Week Over

  Whew!! Midterms were crazy but I pushed through! Hooray me! *throws confetti* I have to work hard starting this week because I can't get too comfortable. I want to be on Dean's List for once.

There's nothing wrong with Facebook guy. He's cute but... his nose. If we were to go steady and we'll eventually talk about the future, I don't want my future offspring to possess his nose. It's not distorted or misshapen or anything. It's just... not ideal. OMG I'm so mean!!! So there you go. The nose has to go!


Nose conscious,
Awkward Turtle

A Date with Choco and Otter.

I just had my date with Choco today and I had a great time! :)

We met around 12:45PM almost 1PM and I was going to meet up with him in front of Pizza Hut, just the walk alone to meet up with him got me so nervous... I was extremely jittery, nervous, excited, anxious and it was just so much of all those emotions, I felt like I might throw up butterflies.

With all the cars parked by Pizza Hut, I almost missed him but we met up and I was so happy, I wanted to hug him but Choco is just too shy to do that... Instead, he gave me a hand-shake. (LOL) And the first thing we both said to each other was, "Oh~ We both gained weight." (laughs)

Since we both didn't eat lunch, I asked him what he wanted and he said, "Anything. (pause) Wait. Anything EXCEPT Korean food. Please (in begging form)" and in my mind I was thinking, "Mmm, rebellious~" so I took him to Italiannis and it was on me. Dessert at Red Mango and other activities were on him~ He told me that when I go to Korea, he'll treat me to kimbap (Korean sushi rolls) and ramyun (instant noodles of Korean brands) LOL. Mmm, yes. I traveled thousands of miles to be in a country where I can eat what I can make at home.

So, we both went to Italiannis, ordered and talked for a few good hours then we went to Red Mango to eat dessert and talked about what he needed for his business and then after, we went to Timezone, played some games. He schooled me at basketball by 20 points BUT it wasn't a fair start! My Timezone card delayed! Sigh. And some shooting games and whatnot. (giggles) And then we went to Fully Booked and exchanged some money then it was off to The Coffee Bean to chill and we talked for another few more hours.

We talked about things such as our plans for the future, economics, cultures, country relations, vacations, dislikes, how the American money is being managed by the Jews, China, China taking over the world, Korean movies and dramas that we watched, interesting things on the news, North Korea and other things.

Oh! And he showed me all the cakes, mousses, macaroons, chocolates and other desserts that he's been making in Korea! Ohmygod, I was about to swallow his cellphone with all the yummy goodness on his phone!

Choco even brought up that we were talking a lot. (laughs) From 12:45PM ~ 9PM, we were talking. Not really eating but talking and I didn't even realize that we were hanging out with each other for eight hours! But I did bring up the fact that we just talked more today than we have ever did in our four years COMBINED. Because in the beginning, he wasn't very good in English so he couldn't converse too much with me and he was always so shy and I was shy and my Korean wasn't very good at the time so I relied on constant cute Konglish. But now, he's more confident but still lost some vocabulary due to being in Korea for a long time. It was nice to help him with his pronunciation, grammar and word-assurance in English and it was nice that he could speak in Korean when he couldn't express something and I could understand, help and he can help me with my wording as well. It was nice.

It was nice mainly because I forgot how nice and comfortable it was to be with Choco and it wasn't until a couple hours before we were to part ways for the night that I realized how much I missed him throughout the whole four years we haven't seen each other. I know we email, text and call from time to time and if we're lucky enough, we could chat on MSN but actually being with him made me realize so many other things. It was great and I had a really good day today.

WHen he had to catch a cab to see his roommate/friend - because his friend was waiting for him for dinner - he called me two minutes after getting into the cab to tell me how happy he was to see me, how glad he was to be able to hang out with me and how he missed being around me. Also, promised to see me as soon as possible. Alright, I'll be waiting.

Too bad we're both too shy to take pictures together. :(

Happy hearted,
Otter

Embarrassment The Old School Way.

So, I'm looking at some photos that I'd like to share with Brother Otter because he couldn't stay long enough to find it with me. However, as the greatest sister in the whole wide world... I thought I'd share some with you.

This is probably my favorite one so far. <3.

And Brother Otter is pretty proud of this one.

Mornings with Brother Otter. 15 years later, 

we're still the same... Every single morning.

Awwww. When we use to eat breakfast together.

My failed attempt to box Brother Otter in the face.

Until now, he's still like this. Trying to 

strangle me when he gets the chance.

Hahahahaha, I think that'll be enough to entertain you for the rest of the night. My aunt and I have made a plan that hopefully Christmas time, we'll be able to go to Canada and see Brother Otter. I'm excited however, having a job during Christmas? Chances are they won't let you travel. Eh, we'll see. As far as I know, it's just a plan. Haha. But I want that plan to work out.

Tagging Brother Otter in embarrassing pictures,

Otter

Pimp ME out!

  So I was just watching a DVD of the 10th season of CSI when Pucca texted. He says that he's gonna introduce me to a good friend of his, a 24-year-old dude- THROUGH FACEBOOK.


I'd like to think that Pucca is being sensitive to my single status and that he was considerate enough to ask my permission but... ARGH!!!!


 I'm allergic to cooties.

Otterbot and Choco

CHOCO JUST TEXTED ME! AT... 3:18AM! I guess he got off his flight not too long ago. Ohmygod, jitters. (giggles) And he was in Eastwood a few hours ago... Wow. He didn't tell me. Actually, wait. No. It's good that he didn't tell me... I wouldn't be ready. (laughs)

GAH, he's here already! I'm so nervous again~ What am I going to wear?! I'm thinking that no matter how much I try to look pretty, I might not be pretty enough... Maybe I'm saying it because his standards are high? Or I'm putting myself down. I don't know. lsa;kdj;lkasdjflkjasdl;kjfksdjfj;sdkfjhdfg!

Just thinking about having a date with him... Ohmygod x 38939479834939842!!!

Sigh. I've thought well and hard about this and... I think it's best to let go of Indigo especially before I fall too far into all hopelessness and swirl in a horrible abyss that I've created myself. I've rebottled everything else and even though I'm tempted to open it up again, I know have to just leave it be. Sure, we can just talk but I don't think anything will ever happen to us. Sigh. That's fine... I suppose.

PS: I watched Transformers: Dark Side of the Moon in 3D! And to be honest, I should have just watched the normal version. (laugh) I mean, during the whole movie, you kind of don't need the 3D glasses. Oh well, I thought it was badass! Capital BIG, uppercase ASS. I laughed, I teared, I ALMOST cried and I was hyped up. And I think Rosie Huntington-Whiteley is better than Megan Fox. But if Megan Fox didn't bash Michael Bay (the man who basically piled on good credits for her) she would still have her job. However, Rosie's better. Plus, she has a British accent. You can't go wrong with that...

Confused,
Otter

One Jailed Corgi.

OH. MY. GOD. *died*

Convicted of extreme cuteness. 

Life sentence without parole.

Otter Sucked Into Corgi Cuteness!

I'm absolutely in love with (Cardigan) Welsh Corgi's. They have small stubby legs, cute little eyes and a big fat butt. They are the cutest when they are puppies but they are full of whimsy as they age and right now, I'm filling myself up with Corgi puppy cuteness!

Try and resist Corgi. Just go ahead and try~

Corgnotized,

Otter

Indigo in Taiwan.

Indig - Who? Just kidding.

Indigo left to head to the airport about an hour ago for his next stop: Taiwan! He'll be doing this group language thing where they all solidify their Chinese. It sounds a little silly and looks silly in my head but he'll be gone for another month... He'll be back in Singapore on August 8th and then he leaves for Utah on August 9th. Great!

When Indigo went to Indonesia, he met up with some old friends that he hasn't seen in four years and when I took a look at some pictures, I couldn't believe that I know at least one of them. (laughs) but that one guy who I know has a girlfriend who has a friend that he tried to hook up with Indigo. Hmmm, yes. I saw pictures... It's just hooking up but Indigo says it's nothing. (Right, all guys say it's nothing but ya'know it's something... Even for one night.) Whatever though. I'm learning to suppress my emotions...

Trying to let go,
Otter

A Very Nervous Otter

So this coming Saturday, a good guy friend of mine is coming in from Korea. Hmm, let's call him: Choco

LOL, yes. Choco. It's short for chocolate.

He's coming in on Saturday but him and I aren't meeting then because I'll be meeting up with Turtle! Yes, I didn't forget and I have it marked on my calendar. So, Choco will get a sim card and call me once he gets one and we'll figure out a way to hang out... To be honest, I'm a little nervous because we haven't seen each other in four years! Heck, just when I said that my wee-bit nervousness just turned into really nervous. GAH, what am I going to do? What am I going to wear? (nervous)

Since we haven't seen each other for a long time and he's here for at least a little over two weeks and I'm in town while he is in town too... I might as well make an extra effort to see him or we both make the extra effort to see each other. (laughs)

Ahhhh~ But I'm so nervous! T____T but I'm also happy but more nervous.

I've missed him though. Through these four years, we kind of went through a lot... From friends to more than friends to more-than-friends-who-can't-seem-to-find-the-moment-to-be-together to close friends to we're-still-close-but-we're-busy to I'm-not-sure-what-we-are-now-but-I-still-love-you-and-I-just-wanted-to-call-you-to-tell-you-that.

RAWR!

Nervous Nilly,
Otter

Cootie No Patootie.

LOLOLOLOLOL! Oh Turtle, indeed you are the new plus one of an upcoming wedding but I think Pucca asked you - not only because he likes you and that is getting more obvious by the blog - but maybe, juuuust maybe he asked you so he can see you in formal attire.

Even though some think you're crazy for accepting... I think it's genius because yes, it is in Tagaytay but most importantly, free food. "Free + food = FREE FOOD" is probably the best math equation known to man. So I salute you. OHMYGOD, SO LUCKY! FREE WEDDING FOOD!

But no matter what you do... Don't kiss him.

Cootie shots these days are expensive.

Love,
Otter

OMG what?

 Sooo... Pucca and I got to talk yesterday.

He asked me if I could be his co-emcee- more technically, his partner- at his cousin's wedding on October. In Tagaytay.

I'm like "wooooww."

I said yes for some specific reasons:
- It's at Tagaytay for God's sakes!! TAGAYTAY!
- Weddings, more often than not, have awesome food and cute waiters.
- They can give me free accommodations plus they're willing to pay for my talent fee
- I'm not a big believer of marriage, but weddings give me a reason to dress up, look pretty and PIG OUT.

He asked me how much my talent fee is. I told him I'm thinking of giving them a discount or maybe just pay me in kind. Pucca's all, " 'wag lang kiss!"
Um... I beat him up with my notebook.

After I said yes and we parted ways, that's when my head started spinning. I mean- REALLY? Did I just agree to be a co-emcee at an event where I barely know anyone except for Pucca? And a WEDDING at that, full of Pucca's family members and relatives??

I confided to my friend Wapwap that I feel like I've been tricked to being Pucca's plus-one at the wedding and disguising it as a co-emcee thing to save face. Wapwap's all, "He promised you cake, and you know what they say about cakes."

"Uhh, what do they say about cakes?"

"The cake is a lie! The cake is a liiiiiiieee!!!"

In other words... yeah, he wanted me as his plus-one I guess. Doesn't make sense though. People who emcee at weddings are usually the couple's family members and relatives. Pucca and I aren't close! I mean, we only see each other twice a week for History class and we're just groupmates for the last weekend's project endeavor.His laugh still brings down the house though. TROLOLOL.

Right now, I'm avoiding wondering why he asked ME to join him at his cousin's wedding or it would be a headache of sorts. So when I tell my friends about it they're all, "why d'you think he asked you to the wedding?"

The answer is, "I don't care! It's in friggin' TAGAYTAY for god's sake!"
 

Still paranoid,
Awkward Turtle

My lovely nephew, Zach.

So I have six days left until I leave and mother's been telling me that before I work, I should go to Canada and visit grandmother because apparently, she's hating Canada again. According to mother, mema is being a bitch. (LAUGHS) But I wouldn't mind. I've been missing Canada for a while too and I'm already missing Brother Otter and I haven't seen his girlfriend in a while~ She's so cool though. And she can't watch any scary shows without me; shows like The Haunting and Ghost Lab. UHG, SUCH GOOD SHOWS. (laughs)

And of course, my nephew Zach!

LOL, Brother Otter and Zach.

LMAO! Zach on the ride... That hasn't started yet.

Ohhhman, just wait until he's at least 14. Brother Otter and I are going to have so much fun! We will teach him the ways of rollercoasters and other fast rides. Grow up well, baby Zach!

"Am I allowed in?... I don't want to look."

LOOK, LOOK, LOOK! IT'S THE BACKPACK FROM DORA THE EXPLORER THAT I BOUGHT HIM! I see that he's really liking it. (chuckles)

Happy Canada Day! I love you. Can't wait to see you!

Is it normal for me to be jealous of my own nephew's curly hair?

He got a new drum set! He must practice on the little drums before he enters into Brother Otter and I's rock band. Just wait and practice a little more, youngin'. You must rock before you roll.

LOL. He said to Brother Otter, "Daddy. I hurt my legs." and applied bandages to the affected area... However, Zach. Why is there a bandaid on your forehead? LOL. Dorkiness runs in the family, I suppose.

So there you have it folks; my nephew. My number one, all-time love, nephew. I know he's the second greatest thing that has ever happened to Brother Otter (first being him meeting his girlfriend; the mother of Zach) and I know that they'll be a wonderful family... Now, Brother Otter. Marry her already and give me another child to take care of. I'd like a boy but I'm sure your girlfriend wants a girl. But either way, give me one more. Thanks!

Sincerely, 

Otter

OMGOMGOMG

 I know I'm just being REALLY paranoid here but... OMG Pucca just texted me minutes ago. Here's the English translation:
"Turtle, I'm gonna ask you something later. Are you going to class later?"

I wanted to snap, "of course I'm gonna attend class later- we have MIDTERM EXAMS." And before I could start texting, I completely froze and my heart started racing. OMG HE'S GONNA ASK ME SOMETHING LATER.

That statement is the annoying kissing cousin of The Question Of No Return!!!

Please let me be WRONG. Or let him forget about it.

My hands are suddenly sweaty.

Dreading to see Pucca later,
Awkward Turtle

For Turtle

Thank you! I'll try my best to enjoy the journey... However, I want Indigo. Will the journey allow me to kidnap him? I hope so.

Well I hope that we do meet real soon! And yes, food is indeed on the to-do-list. Food, snacks and a lot of other stuff~ :D

And it seems like you've been really busy... Busy laughing and eating with little studying! LOL. And it's nice to see that you're, um, making friends? Should I call it that? With Pucca. A gay delightfully being raped with a shameless drunk man? That sounds like a party already!

PS: I think the almond jelly had Chinese drugs in it. Maybe that's why you were blabbering things you can't remember.

Contemplating kidnap,
Otter

Weekend galore

 So this past weekend, I spent it going to UST (on Saturday) and then completing the presentation (on Sunday). We had to take pictures of landmarks with Spanish influences for our History class and put everything in Powerpoint. T'was a busy weekend.

Sunday was the highlight because:

• We had a pretty hefty lunch of mussels and roast chicken. Plus iced tea. And CHOCOLATE omg. 
• 
  
• Pucca (you remember Pucca, that friggin' groupmate who asked me The Question of No Return and he didn't reply) has this thing for jumprope as part of his fitness routine. Our Japanese girl groupmate, whom I shall call Kitty, has totally outdone him with different jumprope techniques. She was soooo KAWAII! All this commotion while I was halfway through our Powerpoint presentation. 
• 
  
• Amidst the random conversations, youtube vids, crazy pictures, and bromance, I think what we did half the time was eat, eat and LAUGH. Like, omg, Pucca has this insane laugh that's EXTREMELY infectious because it's a cross between a gay being delightfully raped and a shamelessly drunk man. Up til now, I still laugh just remembering it. I'm like an idiot holding my laugh back during my commute at MRT.
• 
  
• Our Chinese groupmate, whom we shall call Teddy, was our driver all the way from Taft to Bicutan and vice versa. On our way back to Taft, he treated us to dinner in this "authentic" Chinese resto. Excellent siomai and their ALMOND JELLY is INSANELY HEAVENLY. It made so hyper that I was blabbering stuff that I can't even remember now. 

For Otter

"A lifetimes is made up of journeys, not destinations.
And to be happiest, one must enjoy the ride,
 even though during it you will not have whatever it is you're after,
 or you wouldn't be on the journey to begin with."
-Mike Dooley

Hey Otter! I'll see if I can meet up with you next Friday. Midterm week is coming up so I'm doing all I can now so I can have some free time next week.  It's crazy.

Anyway, it's normal to be a little apprehensive of what's gonna happen when you leave for the States.
 I mean, FINALLY, there's your chance to live YOUR life! I'm so happy for you! We must celebrate with FOOD. 8D

Thanks, Brother Otter.

"Never be afraid to try something new. Remember, amateurs built the ark, professionals built the Titanic."

Feeling a pinch better,
Otter

Seattle Bound: 12 Days

I have 12 days left here. No, not here on this blog. Or 13 days if you want to count the day/morning that I leave... Actually, I have mix emotions about this. As excited as I am, I'm also hesitant.

The Question of No Return

UGH. I hate it. I REALLY hate it when a guy asks me, "Turtle, can I ask you a question?" or "Turtle, may tanung ako."

WHY?

Why do guys do that? I realized how traumatized I am with that particular question.
 I call it The Question of No Return- because 8 times out of 10, when you reply "what is it?", some big wave of emotional, romantic confession comes crashing down on you. I have learned that when a guy texts me that question, I have to put on my emotional crash helmet or I might kill the nearest passerby.

I had a paranoid moment because one of my guy groupmates from one of my classes texted me. "Turtle, may tanung ako?"
My brain went on overdrive and I swear there was a fight-of-flight response going on. Like, whoooa. I casually asked, "What izzit?" For some reason, he didn't reply anymore.

*SIGH OF RELIEF*

I CANNOT handle things like these gracefully for some reason.

Cramming paperworks,
Awkward Turtle

A Bitter Otter.

I woke up a little earlier today to send money to my mother in Baguio, since she's been staying there for almost two weeks now so after I send some money to her, I went to Red Mango to have myself an almond waffle and some green tea frozen yogurt... I haven't been there in almost two years? I was the only one inside so there was a lot of sitting room for anyone else. Minutes later, a lovey-dovey couple comes in and they order and seriously, out of the WHOLE STORE they sit RIGHT NEXT TO ME!

RIGHT. NEXT. TO. ME! There's room over there, there's couch space over there, there's tables and chairs over there or go outside! Ohmygod, why sit next to me?! And they were the ones that were touchy-feely and they were constantly kissing each other. I don't mind love, I don't mind kissing and whatnot but seriously... How many times are you going to kiss her nose? If you kiss her nose one more time, I swear you should just suck the living boogers out of it if you love it that much!

That's all. Thanks for making me barf up my delicious almond waffle and green tea frozen yogurt.

Bitter and hungry (again),

Otter