Happy Thanksgiving!

Hey ya'll!

BMT is an experience. A lot of drama, bitches, pain and tears.

But it's Thanksgiving and we all got adopted by families for a few hours. We got to go out on base and spent time with families who are willing to take us in and share meals with us. But we have to go back to our dorms in two hours and we have to wear our full uniforms though.

I fall asleep in our classes but I enjoy the classes that we get to really apply the lesson. But I'm ending my third week and on Sunday, it's my fourth week. I get issued my blues, my name tapes on my ABU's and it's a good feeling because I'll somewhat be official but then again, now all the MTI's will know me. -_-

I'm halfway through... But running sucks ass. We have to run for like, 40 minutes straight! You can't stop or the MTI's will be on you and take our 341's from you! It sucks. But I don't stop, I'm trying my best to finish and not get recycled but I'm lacking motivation...

However, I'm doing my best.

I can't talk too much about it but I will when I'm officially back.

My nickname is "Crazy" or "Goofball" or "Turd".

I miss you, Turtle. Just sayin'.

Sincerely,
Trainee Otter

Nyahnyahnyah.

So last night, Derp and I discovered the joys of calling each other via landline.

I don't have to worry about my cellphone battery running out or having to convert my phone credits into promos I don't usually use. Plus, virtually no signal issues. Since my mom was out on a date with an ambassador of some Central European country, I got to talk to Derp for a few hours on the phone about recent stuff going on in our lives.

 At one point in our conversation, Derp tried to improve his meowing (apparently he hears Godfather and Charlie meow to each other when they're on the phone) and instead ended up sounding like a lot of other things. Also, he demonstrated to me how turtles sound like.

 Btw, there's this open call auditions in Makati for broadway musicals that'll be produced next year here in the country (they're looking for singers and dancers) so wish me luck, guys. It's on Monday so I'm gonna be practicing a lot. I'm so nervous.

Le Great Escape

 So by some weird series of events, Derp and I managed to go out and watch Wreck-It Ralph. My mom had an early dinner with friends somewhere in Metro Manila so we managed to steal some time together.

IT WAS FRIGGIN' AWESOME.

Probably the best animation I've seen this year.

Also, thank you Derp for bearing with me through these stressful times. This is fuckin' cheezy but you're my friggin' silver lining. ( I don't even think he goes through this blog haha.)

P.S. You guys should also watch out for the animation short "Paperman" which shows right before ze movie.

For Godmozza

 It turns out that I wasn't able to receive Godmother's head's up GM about her and the Prince of Persia dating last Monday. So when she dropped by my place today and proceeded with girl talk, words cannot express my feels over it (BECAUSE I'VE BEEN SHIPPING IT SO MUCH IN MY HEAD WHEN I WAS SEEING SOME OBVIOUS SIGNS) so here are a couple of gifs to portray my feels. Because words aren't enough.

I apologize if this eats up all your interwebs bandwidth.

Not a gif but FEELINGS

All these happy feelings literally exhausted me.

On the bright side, that teleserye gig with me being a prostitute will not push through. Mehehehe. Because mom.

Right now, I will just be sad and move on with life.

In the words of Barney Stinson... SLUT UP.

 Oh hey guise. So my talent coordinator contacted my mom and it turns out there's a certain teleserye (it's not out yet) that's looking for extras. To make a long story short, I am one of the seven girls in one episode wherein we are... "bayaran sa barko." We be flirtin' with sailors yo'. A famous actress plays a rich girl who happens to have a twin sister somewhere in the pier whose milkshake brings all the sailors to the yard. Soooo... hahahaha. I just find this funny. It's just for one episode so whatever.

2~3 More Days.

Guess what? I have two more days until the hotel and three more days until I fly to Lackland AFB, San Antonio, Texas.

lksdjfkliowejaklsdf,mv,.xcngaroisdklfjsd!!!!!!! D;

 For some reason, I have this urge to write random letters to my friends and my man-friend.

 But I forgot my really nice stationeries in the province nuuuuu.

 What do.

Awkward Turtle

So here's the thing.

 My dad lost his job recently. No severence check whatsoever (maybe coz technically he's an alien abroad) so my leave of absence is extended indefinitely. Le sigh. I do hope our papers will still push through and that at least he can land at another job soon. For the moment, I want to get a friggin' job but my mom's too busy wanting to push me to showbiz (barf barf barf) soooo yeah. I feel so bipolar. The future is foggier than I can bear and  I'm trying not to let my anxieties get to me. They just had to bring up the past like "oh if only Turtle took her studies seriously she could've graduated a lot sooner blah blah blah."

Really? I'm quite aware I didn't do well because I wanted to go to CSB in the first place.

 It just feels like the rug is being pulled out underneath me constantly. I was finally getting seriously good at my majors in school- then I had to leave. And just when I thought I could continue- my dad gets fired. I want to help but I'm not sure how and this showbiz thing just pisses me off and I just want to come off as rude to anyone who has anything to do with mediocre local entertainment. Though I can't really say if I can pull it off.

 My "blunt" personality seems to scare them off though. I wasn't being rude or even sarcastic. But to some people, they don't like the way I talk. Probably because I prefer to speak in English and I don't pepper every sentence with "po" or "opo" every damn time even though they're within my age group. Well, guess what I don't like it when people use "po" or "opo" at me regardless of age or seniority but I don't hold it against them because I often see the innocence in it.

Okaaay I'm rambling now.

 Right now, I just want to focus on my workshop, my art, and my music.

 What do.

Sanity don't leave me.

P.S.
Hanging out with my friends yesterday is probably the most fun I've had in weeks. I should be grateful, really.

Awkward Turtle

Being 22. And funemployed.

 I don't know if I'm the only one who feels this way:

  My mom attempted to push me into the showbiz life by meeting up with our family friend who is a legit talent coordinator (and a former caregiver of our grandpa years ago) and he has handled talents currently in telenovelas and movies. The entire time they were talking I just wanted to shoot someone because they were talking about getting me in Party Pilipinas (barf), being an extra in telenovelas (double barf), get me as a contestant for a national beauty pageant (what) and even having me in "reality" shows (shoot me).

 They mean well, I know, but the whole thing sounds depressing. Sure, I could accept singing gigs-even modeling- and anything related to music but if you'll have me in those telenovelas, commercials, and pageants that I'm vocally against, I feel like I've sold my soul to the devil.

 Guh. I feel so marginalized.

 The focus of their conversation was about just getting exposure and be famous. How about respect for my work? How about being recognized for stuff I actually believe in?

 I have somehow dodged the bullet though, by not getting in touch with my talent coordinator, even though my mom says I should.

 As long as I don't contact him, I am safe.

 I am suddenly inspired to make a blog post about stuff I don't believe in to my other blog.

I think the only things keeping me sane are my friends, my art, and my workshop.

Otter's Leaving A Day Early.

I just finished my DEP CC today and I spoke to my recruiter about the issue that Michelle (a girl from the October group) brought up about October 30th LA-DEP's leaving to the hotel on the 28th and leaving for Lackland on the 29th. I brought it up to my recruiter and she wasn't told such BUT looked in the system and found out to be true.

We played a really fun game called "Story" (I think that's what it's called) and it's pretty fun. You have a group of people in a circle and one person starts off. This is how it goes.

First person to start the game: Once...
Second person in line: Once there...
Third person in line: Once there was...

And it goes around the circle until someone messes up.

So for example:

First person to start the game: Once...
Second person in line: Once there...
Third person in line: Once there was...
Fourth person in line: Once there was a...
Fifth person in line: Once there was a dog who.

If someone messed up on a word or adds two words, you're out. LOL. Or continues without saying the rest of the sentence.

SO, we had a few when we started the sentence like "Cool" the person was suppose to say "Cool Story" but just said "Story". HAHAHAHAHA. XD

OH, and PS: I lost three pounds. YAY! (Thanks to the Insanity workout)

Also, we meshed with two new recruiters and we're adding 25 new DEP'rs on our team. SO, yeah. Now we're about 45 people. And we had one guy, Jonathan, cancel and got his DEP place terminated. That sucks because I had dinner at the Old Spaghetti Factory and saw him working... I thought he was going to join but he volunteered to terminate it because he missed three DEP CC's in a row which is an AUTOMATIC disqualification but he knew it and terminated himself. Whatevs.

Short Update. BUT, ping pong training!

http://twitter.yfrog.com/h7DGE7i1XstyqkEq.01

Me, ping pong training. Finally, on Thursday we got some heavy rain, thunder and some lightning. It's been hot ALL year and finally, this is the first real rain we've gotten for the first time this year. I'm happy it's getting colder, cloudier BUT with peeking sunshine. It's the best weather! I'm feelin' good.

Also, today. Insanity workout day 1 @ 5am: Success!

2 weeks, four days. EEK!

Optimism

Source: fbcdn-sphotos-a.akamaihd.net via Joelle on Pinterest

I've got the worst sore throat in history and my muscles ache and yet I must attend voice acting classes tomorrow.

This is temporary.

Awkward Turtle

 Yesterday, Derp and I watched The Perks of Being A Wallflower.

 But before that, we were going around MOA and through their cinema hall, looking at movie posters and using LSP's voice when we make a comment on each terrible movie that's showing in the future.

"Oh mah glob, I totally wanna watch Breaking Dawn because Jacob's abs."

"I wanna lumpin' see Edward sparkle."

"Oh glob, I wanna see The Secret Affair because Derek Ramsey is a walking six-pack."

 We've agreed that we should have a date where we'll sit through a bad movie and just bitch about it using LSP's voice.

Derp really liked Perks. The entire time I was like "CHARLIE LET ME LOVE YOU."
Aunt Helen is a crazy bitch.

Awkward Turtle

So many things to do and feelings.

 Just got back here in Manila  yesterday and currently I am just... drained.

 Like, I really wanna contact my friends and be all "hey guys, let's hang out or derp or something."

Right now I just feel like I'm in limbo even though the past few days have been really productive. It's an eerie feeling that yes, I have been quite busy and I have promising opportunities my way but lately I've been having these mood swings. And I've been looking forward to going to Taft this week coz I planned to pay my tuition for last term but I forgot the money in the province so right now I'm just FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK THIS LIFE. My excuse to go to Taft just went out the window. I wanna hang out with my friends and Derp.

And my friends are watching Perks of Being A Wallflower.

I am just so angry right now I can't even blog the good things that's happened lately.

I'm sorry for this negative post.

Get well soon, Godmother.

Life's Changing. HOLY CRAP.

I'm not on this as much as I want to be. I'm sorry.

If some of you haven't noticed, I'm leaving in three weeks and four days (25 days) and when I talk to my friends about it, some of them mention that I don't seem excited to leave like the others and honestly, I'm not. I'm not excited because I left all my excitement back in June - When I was ORIGINALLY suppose to leave - and so right now, I'm left being anxious and nervous.

I'm slightly jealous over some people that I was suppose to leave with have their first duty stations while I'm still here, just barely leaving for BMT... I'm not discouraged at all though, I'm happy for them and I know everyone has different paths in life... I suppose mine was postponed and there is possibly a reason why I'm still here.

Robert Ah Sue = Beautiful Human Being.

Robert Ah Sue has been the only guy in my church that I'd totally go for, not only is he my type but he's SUPER gorgeous and he's just... UMPF. I always thought if I were to marry a Mormon, it'd be Indigo (and that still stands) BUT, ever since I met Rob, he'd be one of the Mormon's I'd totally marry in a heartbeat.

He's 23, graduated from Southern Utah University with a degree of kinesiology this year and moved back to Riverside with his family and he works at a UFC gym in Corona, CA. (a town near by).

The story that I know about him is how he lost his father. Every year in Riverside, we have a Tinman triathlon. His father does it every year and he completes the whole running-biking-swimming portions of the triathlon. A year or two ago, his father had a sudden heart attack during the swimming portion of the triathlon and didn't make it. Now, every year, all the sons do the triathlon together in memory of their father. And just two months ago, one of the brothers, Greg, left for his mission to Australia! Haha.

Sadly, he's totally out of my league. He's just too beautiful for me. I mean, we talk and he greets me in the hallways during church and such but... I actually don't have a chance with him.

But on the off chance if we did get together and we had children, they'd be smart AND beautiful. :D

NOW, FOR SOME EYE-CANDY!

(Far right; The eldest brother)

(MMMMMMMMMMMMMM...)


(Far right; during his football years in college)

(Far left during his football years)

(Oooooh yeeeeaaaaahhhhh...)

Four More Weeks.

Four more weeks until I leave for the United States Air Force BMT (Basic Military Training).

So many emotions are interacting all at once and I don't know how to deal. But I'm sorry that I haven't been posting as much as I want to. I'll try and get it all out there before I leave though.

Just thinking about it makes me nervous and when I'm nervous, I got to go poop... Real bad. Sigh.

But I'll surely miss you, Turtle. I know I'm not leaving YET but I just want to put that out there so you know right now. :)

Soon-to-be-trainee,
Otter

Itinerary for the next coming days.

Friday. Jogging/Running at UP with Coffee, my mom, Wapwap, and Lexie. I don't really run so I'm going to guess Coffee and Lexie are just gonna run in circles around me. In the afternoon, going to Makati with my mom and Sheep to check out this voice acting workshop. Seems promising.

Saturday. Bloom Arts Festival at Cubao X! Hope I'll see you guys there!

Oct. 4. My talk about Personality Dev't at this teeny, local college in the province. Brains don't fail me now.

Oct. 6. If all goes well, I will attend the first day of this voice acting workshop.

Awkward Turtle

P.S. On a totally unrelated note, I love the fact that Anonymous Philippines hacked the website of the Bangko Sentral ng Pilipinas (Central Bank of The Philippines) in protest of the Cybercrime Law.

Who's The Psycho Kid?

Every Thursday is volleyball from 9pm~11pm and sometimes, we want to hang out with each other longer so we'll plan to go to Denny's or TGI Friday's. Last night was... Interesting.

Playlists and relationships

 Last night, I had dinner with Derp at Zark's. I can't remember how we got to the topic of playlists but I do remember commenting that I can't bear going through couple stuff like making playlists or mix tapes for each other because it would kill me and he was all, "you know what, let's do that!"

Me: Whut. But but but...

So we agreed to come up with 13 songs for each other (coz, you know, 13 is a good luck number for us apparently). No solid criteria. Just come up with 13 songs to dedicate to the other. Just thinking about it made me extremely queasy coz we're both aware of how different our music preferences are.

Derp: NO BIEBER SONGS!

Me: LOL OK. I'll probably gonna put my playlist for you in my blog. How about you?

D: I'll post it in my blog.

Me: You don't have a blog.

D: Hey. Don't discriminate.


Oh btw, Derp loves the necklace I bought for him. It looks so nice on him too, I'm so happeh. XD
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  I'm going back to the province today (or tomorrow morning) so yesterday, after Derp and I parted, I mustered all I can to not cry in the MRT on my way home. I won't be gone long but I always had school to go and see Derp or just hang out with friends. So I was bummed when I parked my ass in front of the computer until Wina the Pooh chatted me up. SO MUCH LOLZ. Thank you Wina.

Awkward Turtle

      Last night, I was at Eastwood with my mom and her friends. While they were drinking at one of the bars there, I decided to check out the tiangges near the citywalk. There was one stall where all the accessories had a very down-to-earth, hippie-ish feel, and the designs were unique, elegant and a tad bit understated ( I regret not taking a picture). I was looking around when the owner of the stall said that some of her accessories uses carabao horns, which makes them relatively expensive because carabao horns are difficult to procure. The name of the fashion accessories store is Klasse Murae by Nicole Roxas.

 For a long time I've been thinking of getting Derp something so he wouldn't mope around so much on days when I'm in the province. I thought of getting him a cool leather wristband or an earthy-type of bracelet. While browsing through her stall, I spotted these necklaces with the pendants made of carabao horn with the yin-yang symbol engraved on it. I was like ZOMG THIS IS PERFECT.

The necklace.

Close up for details

I plan to give this to him tomorrow hurhurhurhur. I now have sporadic anxiety levels because I dunno if he'll like it.

 Carabaos represent strength and resilience for me ( I used to have this fantasy of owning one in my backyard) and the yin-yang represents balance of the masculine- feminine polarity of individuals (aka light-darkness polarity for some). Derp's birth path (life lesson) according to his numerology is an 8. 8 represents balance in all aspects of your life and is one of the most challenging life lessons.

Well, I can always wear it if he won't like it. Hurr durr durr. I think it's awesome.

I happen to have a ring that also has a yin-yang symbol so it's quite meaningful.

Awkward Turtle

Goodbye, My Baby Selena :(

So about a month ago, Joe has been having a hard time with Selena because well, it's not his dog, it's his three other roommates but (not) surprisingly, they're NOT feeding her. Three weeks ago, NONE of them fed her for four days (insert me cursing like a mother bear) and a week before that, the apartment manager saw they had a dog and it's not allowed on the apartment grounds but they still wanted to keep her but of course, no one's taking care of her. Joe has work AND school and the three other guys are going to start football season so they are going to be gone ALL day so who's going to take care of her? It'll be really hard and it broke my heart that she hasn't eaten in four days. Yeah, yeah, people keep telling me "she's just a dog" ... STOP RIGHT THERE, that's where I draw the line and punch you in the face. She may be "just a dog" but she's an innocent dog that did NO harm to anyone, doesn't bark and is trained. The only thing that I hate about Selena living in that tiny shitty apartment is that they beat her A LOT because she chews stuff up and whatnot. UM, NEWSFLASH. SHE'S ONLY THREE TO FOUR MONTHS OLD (judging by her teeth since she still has her baby teeth) OF COURSE SHE'S GOING TO CHEW STUFF. SHE'S TEETHING. -_- Also, you'd have to be stupid to let your stuff lie on the floor like your headphones, anything with wires, anything that looks interesting... Everything looks interesting to a puppy. So you have to puppy proof your home just like how you'd baby proof your home for toddlers.

But we ended up going to the store and buying her food (since I almost did it myself since those guys wouldn't do it for her) and even though she's not my responsibility, I cannot stand a starving dog. I JUST CAN'T. That's one thing Joe was "afraid" of is that I'd spoil her. IT'S NOT SPOILING. It's called "giving her attention" and playing with her. She listened to me, she followed me and she understood what I wanted her to do. I played with her, I napped several times with her and I just gave her SO much love which she NEEDED. She needs guidance because she's just a puppy! But Joe was serious about giving her away... Since they can't have her because it's against the apartment rules and they were already given a three-day notice. The three day notice was either the dog leaves or everyone moves out.

Three weeks ago (I think), Joe saw his usual customers that come by his work (a gas station) and they happened to own a animal shelter (more like an animal ranch for rescues) and they were interested and saw pictures and actually got to see her so a few days after they were notified about Selena and met her, they decided to take her in.

A week after that, she got adopted by the Riverside Police Station! Soooooo she's going to be a guard dog and a rescue dog! I'm bittersweet about it because I was excited to go to Joe's house now because of her but with her gone, I'm sad but I'm happy that she's being adopted by the police station and is being trained and loved by so many people and is going to do some serious work for the good. So I'm happy for her but I do miss her a lot. :(

Butterfly dreams

 Last night, I had this dream and I was asking for angelic guidance. Then this big, white butterfly comes out of nowhere and sits on my arm.

 It's fitting because the first time I asked for angels to make their presence in my life, I was tired and it was late at night. When I went to grab my Angel Bible from my bunk bed, this huge white moth (it was sitting on the book) startles me by zooming past my face.

 I'd like to think that maybe I do have a strong connection with the angelic realm even if it doesn't feel like I do.


Awkward Turtle

 I take comfort in the fact that I can be cheezy here coz apparently, Derp only knows about my other blog MUHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.



 I have a feeling if I make some sort of modern mix-tape for him, he's just going to hate it because we have different preferences for music. XD

Awkward Turtle

Accurate.

 ZOMG EXACTLY.

I am not cheezy.

I like hugs.

Art by HJ Story



Awkward Turtle.

I'm Trying To Update...

I'm sorry I haven't been able to update on here for a while. Some days, I'm really busy and then there are days where I'm in my room, in my bed, hibernating. So, I apologize. And I'm going to update little by little so it's going to be all over the place... I was originally going to update with EVERYTHING put out there but I realized that will never happen because it's too much. So I'll spread it out. Haha.

Good Vibes Saturday

  So I went to Taft to meet Derp at SDA. He was finishing up one of his final projects and one of his schoolmates, Pretzel, who happened to be in the elevator I was taking was all, "so you're going to your boyfriend?"
 "Yup. What about you?"
"Oh, I'm also gonna meet him coz I borrowed his usb to print my project."

 Then on our way to the sound studios, Pretzel was telling me that Derp seems really nice and that it's good that he's working hard on his projects. He added though that his first impression of Derp was that he's either a druggie or just badly needed sleep.
   I'm seriously beginning to consider asking Godfather to lace Derp's food with just enough melatonin to make him consistently sleep early. XD

P: So what happened to JerkJerk? Do you still see him? You guys still hang out?
Me: JerkJerk? Oh. Nah, we don't hang out anymore. He's been dropping some of his classes ever since he began his obsession with computer games.
P: Wow, that's bad.
Me: Yeah.
P: You guys were dating right?
Me: Err, not officially. It was getting there but his love for computer games got the better of him so I was like "no thanks."

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     So that little conversation kind of reminded me how different things are now.

  Derp's guilty pleasure is being "a proper boyfriend." I just had dinner with the family in their house and we were just trolling around in his room and he said that he apologized for not being a good man-friend lately because of finals. I was like, "when was your man-friendness diminishing??"And he tried explaining that because we haven't been going out on proper dates like dinner and movies, just the two of us. I like going on dates but that's not entirely the point of being in a relationship.

"We don't have to go out all the-"
"BUT I WANT TO."
"Okaaay."

Riiight.

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Dinner with the family. The meal was hugely Indian food. There was chicken curry, chili, and that Indian-style empanada (forgot the name LOL but it was delicious).

Scary One: I love you.
Dad: I love you too, son.
Scary: I was talking to the curry.

Me

LOL IDEK

 During dinner, I was just looking at the Quiet One and I was thinking the entire time THE SHIP BETWEEN HIM AND KOALA SHOULD WORK OMG
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And yeah, their new house is definitely better. There's something quite zen about it and it's more airy and bright. The atmosphere is more relaxing too.

And now a .gif just for teh lolz.

Werk it.

Awkward Turtle

I like some songs in Glee. Some.

   The other night (and I told Charlie about this already), I dreamt that I had a haircut. It was a short haircut that I normally wouldn't pick. I think this signifies that change is friggin' inevitable. Oh subconscious.

 Anyway, yesterday I am just friggin' grateful that I am surrounded by lovely people like Charlie, Godmother, and Wina the Pooh (I need to improve my nickname-ing skills), and Derp. I have to keep reminding myself to take it one day at a time.

 I shall do a few chores and then get ready to meet up with Derp and then I can finally go to their new house and be all cuddly. And shit.

Awkward Turtle

Sickness and Dreams

     I've been pretty sick plus with an extremely upset stomach after downing street food last Monday. I haven't eaten street food for months now since I've been minimizing my intake of junk and fastfood, and along with it I've avoided street food all together. So after suddenly downing a meal's worth of street food pre-dinner (my mom's idea), I got sick, sluggish, fever, muscle aches the next day and I didn't eat for the next 24 hours in an attempt for my body to get rid of whatever bad stuff I ate. For some reason, that worked. My sluggishness and aches were gone and I felt clear-headed but my stomach was still in occasional bouts of pain. It's better now but GOD it's never fun to be that sick. NEVER EVER.

  I had this dream the other night. Tuesday night, I believe. I was hanging out with Diego Galan (which is very weird coz I haven't seen or spoken to him in ages, and no I don't have a pseudonym for him at the moment since we don't even hang out) in this random room when this crazy lady tries to break in the door using a knife. She manages to unlock the knob but Diego and I are blocking the door. So I can't remember exactly what happened next but next thing I knew I was also holding a knife and telling the crazy lady to piss off coz I wasn't afraid to hurt her. She got wilder and crazier and proceeded to attack a white kitten nearby out of frustration. Now THAT royally pissed me off so I knocked her off the kitten and told her that I can bear her messing with me and my friends but to attack an innocent creature was the last straw and I told her I wasn't afraid to murder her.

 She angrily stormed away. The kitten was totally ok, no wounds or broken bones or any marks made. It managed to protect itself by curling up into a ball of fur. (D'AAAAWWW).

 From my limited experience in analyzing my own dreams, I can safely say Diego G. represents my dreams of intensively learning Spanish and traveling to Spain (he recently was awarded a scholarship to study in Spain which is like THE DREAM). I'm not sure what the white kitten represents (if anybody has an idea, let me know). Crazy lady could represent my recent anxieties that sometimes spiral to panic but not entirely sure. This might root from the fact that my mom told me she can't enroll me for next term. -_- I dunno.

If anyone knows a good part time job that would fit me, let me know. I'd still like to stay here in Manila if ever.

Awkward Turtle

Personality Development. What.

  One of my brother's batchmates, a girl who I look up to as my older sister- let's call her Boots- contacted me the other week, saying that the college her family owns in the province are organizing this Personality Development seminar for their college and high school students and they're looking for a  guest speaker on the topic.


  Boots said that I was the first person to pop in her mind and asked if I'd be free around second week of October.

Initial reaction:

I was like, "seriously? Me? You want me to give a talk on Personality Development? I have a personality and charm of a slug."

 She insisted, saying that she believes I'll do good and said that I have to give a 2-hour presentation at the most. And I have to do it with Powerpoint.

I haven't done this kind of thing before (Personality development. IDEK.) and it's probably social suicide but what the hell. YOLO.

Awkward Turtle

P.S.
Guys, I plan to make my personality development presentation to be unique and slightly deviate from the typical personality development presentations so it would be nice if you could give me suggestions on what personality aspects/improvements students should work on. Please please pretty please.

A Bit of Peace.

Finally met up with Derp after almost a week of not seeing each other coz of the floods and non-stop rains. We met up at Taft and then decided to just kill time at the bayside at MOA. I don't know which is better, seeing proper sunshine or human contact.

Awkward Turtle

Blank. Totally blank.

Bullshit, I swear.

Oh, Finn.

 This reminds me of a certain someone which is why I can't stop laughing whenever I look at this. XD


Awkward Turtle

Selena, The New German Sheppard Mix Pup!

Reppin' her four daddy's Samoan flag!

SHE'S SO ADORABLE AND SHY!

She's not good at fetch but she's playful.

I love her! :D

So yesterday (080212) I went to my friend Joe's apartment because he called me at 930am to say that he forgot to walk Selena. (Joe, Fraiser, Salapu, Charlie's new pup they got from a fellow football player friend) and she's super shy, really playful and sweet but she's also skiddish but she loves me soooooo much and it's not because I spoil her but it's because she listens to me. So I took the bus and walked to their apartment to walk her... When she saw me come into the apartment, she knew who I was and was wagging her cute tail! I took her out and she immediately made a big puddle of pee and she pooped twice. One was in front of the apartment entrance and the second one was during the time when we were going to cross the crosswalk, a car was coming by to stop at the stop line so we can cross, Selena got so scared she pooped in front of the car and we had to cross so I kind of pulled her but she was in a squat position and still pooping so she made a trail of poop across the cross walk. LOL.

But when we were gone, she got bored and dug through the trash can and ate some left over food and tore up a lot of newspaper. Joe got really pissed and started smacking her with rolled paper. It was sad because she got scared and I can imagine how it hurts her but she ended up running to me... And I told her to not to that again but then again, she's a three to four month old pup... She still has her baby teeth so she was trying to find something for her teeth... But, she'll learn eventually.

But yeah, I spent my whole day with Selena, we also took a nap on the little mattress together and played at a little park area near Riverside City/Community College.

Teehee,
Otter

Brave/ What is Sleep.

 Yesterday, Derp, Lexie and I watched Disney-Pixar's "Brave". By the end of the movie, Lexie and I were all:

BECAUSE FEELINGS

       Probably the most superb 3D animation so far because, hello, PIXAR. After the movie, I was like "BYE GUISE I'M GOING TO SCOTLAND." The setting of the movie is breathtaking. You think Tangled setting was breathtaking? Think again.

 The story is friggin' relevant to mah life.

   You know how Isaw's boyfie was bawling after The Dark Knight Rises? I was just in tears by the entire half of the movie because it really struck a chord in my personal life. There were moments I was cursing and wailing because of gripping moments. Derp said that the parent just a few seats away from us seemed annoyed at my disregard of the minors in the movie (technically, there was only one minor there. The rest of us were either teen barkadas, couples, and middle-aged women).

 So yeah. Now I know why my tita remembered me when she watched Merida, the feisty protagonist, in the film.

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   Post-movie, Lexie, Derp, and I were trying to decide where to grab dinner. So we were going around Robinson's trying to make up our minds while passing by boutiques and department stores. Lexie and I were discussing the possibility of taking Derp shopping with us or shopping for Derp's clothes in the very near future. Derp was protesting against the idea until I saw a boutique selling high-class underwear and lingerie.

"Don't you want to see me try those on??" I taunted. Derp's protesting stopped for a minute and he was trying not to smile but Lexie was quick to point it out. "He wants to, he just doesn't want to admit it." she said.

In the end, we settled for a Japanese resto. I forgot the name. Trololol.


LOL t'was a great day.

Awkward Turtle

I Hope You're Okay...

I'm sooooooo close to having a lot of time to update... And I will the second I have the chance. I've been hearing a lot of loss of electricity and flooding in the Philippines and I was wondering if you're okay. (My parents are, luckily) Don't drown! Even though I know turtles can swim. :)

Sincerely,
Otter

Little Jaron!

Jaron Han Park. He's sooo cute~ Omg! Hahaha. <3 p="p">

Crazy weather is still cray.

    I'm so glad that I got to hang out with Charlie, Godmother and the others yesterday. It's a nice change from being stuck at home with my mom who's driving me crazy with her obsession with anti-ageing products and nagging on and on to me about my sister (who is possibly a lesbian, but I don't waste my time with stuff that aren't a big deal.)

  Right now, I just need to relax.

 Last night, I had Derp spend the night at my place because of insane weather (and also to just catch up with each other because we haven't seen each other for 5 days hurhurhur.) He was soaked twice that day. It's a miracle he hasn't got down with a fever or a terrible cold. We just snuggled and talked about school, our awesome hipster friends, bits of our childhood and our derpy relationship when he suddenly said, "hey hey hey."
"What?"
"I love you."

Kbyeguise while I try not to be too kilig about this hahaha

Awkward Turtle

Welcome, my nephew!

Jaron Han Park

My newest little nephew! ♡

July 22nd, 2012; 7:31PM. 

7lbs, 20.5 in. long.

Cray weather is cray

 It's been raining nonstop since yesterday. When I woke up this morning, I looked out the window and I couldn't see anything through the rain, not even the nearby signal tower which is usually the first thing I see in the morning. Nearly zero visibility. This is madness!

 I'm in a bit of an emotional slump because of yesterday's events and I feel really guilty every time my friends on FB are raving about The Dark Knight Rises (which is a great movie btw).

Le sigh.

Awkward Turtle

DSLKFJASLKDJ;LSDKJFLWTFFFFF.

On the 17th, Blue Fox texted me "Ok". And I was like, "Ok what?" and he took four hours to reply and said, "Okay I made a decision" and I said, "What decision? Lol."

I am sliiiightly guilty of this.

If I could pack my friends in my luggage, I would.

Awkward Turtle

Happy Friday the 13th!!

     For today, I was a little nervous because I was in Greenhills coz was finally going to meet two of Derp's high school friends whom we shall nickname as Coffee and Lexie. They're both girls. At that point I understood why Derp finds it easy to be more sensitive than the average guy. XD Upon meeting them, we hit it off immediately, though I gravitated more to Lexie because for some reason she reminds me of me when I was in my first few years in college and you just wanna tell her that everything's gonna be fine. Coffee reminds me of me in terms of being more assertive and being quite opinionated about things.

So in a nutshell, hells-to-the-yeah, I've made new friends! Coffee took up Nutrition and Food Science. Lexie  is currently studying Speech Language Pathology. It's just great getting to know these two gorgeous girls- they have a wide range of interests, they're intelligent, they love their courses, and they have their own opinions of most topics you can mention. We had lunch in this Japanese resto called Omakase. Then we moved to Xocolat cafe at Promenade where Coffee's man-friend showed up. Let's call him Tea.

So this is my day in bullet points:


*Met Lexie and Coffee at Promenade. They walk in casually and I spot them first because they were walking slowly while looking at Derp. So trolololol.

*On our way to Omasake, Lexie asks me how Derp and I meet. Then she tells me how Derp has been endlessly talking about me and how happy he is that we're actually together, and she adds that I'm quite lucky

*After giving our orders at Omakase, Coffee tells us about one of her best guy friends who confessed to her when she starts dating Tea. Woooohh so much drama. We mulled over the question: can guys and girls just be friends? Lexie points out, "hey I'm friends with Derp but I'm not in love with him!" Then Derp and Lexie look at me as if expecting me to find the whole conversation weird. "Oh don't worry." I said, "I don't mind. I actually try to pimp Derp out."



*Over appetizers, Lexie tells us about her recent breakup with her man-friend whom we will call Nuts. Because he is. We just want to kill him. Lexie deserves someone better. That is all.

*We moved to Xocolat cafe in Promenade and had our chocolate fix. They talked about the people in their high school. Which made me think of all the idiots in my high school.

*Tea arrived. We interrogated him a bit. He seems genuinely nice. It's quite funny when he brings up that one of his parents is a doctor specializing in pulmonary and intensive care. Lexie's like "Pulmonary? That's good! I have asthma!!" LOLOLOL.

*Pretty much the rest of the day we all just talked about our feelings, life choices, while Lexie trolls Tea and Coffee. Whenever Tea would tease Coffee, she'd be all "don't touch me!" and Lexie and I will chorus, "touch her!" We're not weird.

Have a great weekend!

Awkward Turtle

170 Grass Cuts But #YOLO

So yesterday, I went to a pool party with my church mates at the Whitehead's house (yeah, funny last name) and most of them went swimming but some of us didn't. (It was just too small of a pool to hold 22 people and the rock slide took most of the space) and so Nano, Celeste and I didn't swim but we were observing the people and out of our boredom, we made a game. There is this weird kid named Brandon and we made it a game where we were to count how many times Brandon slides or jumps off the rock slide. We were happy that it happened 20 times. When it got to 30, we were excited and Celeste went to roam around the house and found a grass hill. She came back to Nano and I and said, "If Brandon makes 40 by 8:35PM, let's roll down the grass hill!" and since we were bored, we decided to do it because #YOLO, I guess. We were slowly watching him and he made it to 40! Nano, Celeste and I jumped for joy and ran to the hill. It was Celeste, Me and Nano and then we counted to three and rolled down the hill! (LOL) Then the order it ended up was Me, Celeste and Nano. HAHAHAHA. We ran back up the hill and we realized how itchy we were and I realized I lost a footsie sock. Then we made another goal... If Brandon could make it to 50 by 9:00PM, we'll roll down again. He was slowing down but we were sure he'd make it and he kind of teased us because he would seem like he was going to go but he just sat there... (Mind you, he didn't even know we were doing this) this game turned into the most intense game we've ever made! It was like watching soccer during the World Cup. BUT, Brandon finally jumped the 50 with three minutes to spare! LOL. We jumped for joy and went back to the hill and we were in our normal formation and rolled down the hill. I think I rolled too far because I almost hit the tree and Celeste ended up rolling onto the sidewalk. HAHAHAHAHA! And then we went back up and we were even more itchy... It's not that we were allergic to grass but we realized that the long grass cut us.

Grass is different here in the States. If you don't mow your lawn/yard/backyard, the grass can get sharp. And this was healthy, long grass. But when you roll on it, it's not good. HAHA. And for the rest of the night, I felt like my grass cuts are everywhere and it was itchy. Grass cuts are like paper cuts! No joke. And then when I went home, I put a little bit of ointment to make it heal faster but I could feel it every time I move. And today while I was out all day, the sun didn't make it any better because it made me sweat and when sweat would run down my body and onto my cuts, it felt like lemon being squeezed on them!

When I went to the Mexican restaurant, I saw all my cuts and I counted them all. 170 grass cuts all over my body! sld;k fklsdj;lfkjsl;djfkdkhfoiwer.

But... You know... #YOLO. It was a good night with Celeste and Nano.

PS: Don't wear short-shorts and a t-shirt when rolling down a grass hill.

Derp is Invader Zim. I swear.

 LOLOLOL I can totally imagine him saying this.

LOVE PIG FTW

Awkward Turtle

Whose Line Is It Anyway

Laughter is still the best medicine.


XD

Awkward Turtle

WTF is up with today?

Today was weird. I left the house at 1130am to go buy stuff from K-Mart and stamps at the post office. Since I don't have a car, a bike, a ride or even a scooter, I had to walk. And it was 105 degrees of straight desert heat. OMFG. I HATE RIVERSIDE. And I finally came home at 430pm. And in the middle of all that, I got called a "negro" by a poor Mexican and I was told off by some hick in his car while stopped at a stop light saying, "Asian! You! In the black shorts! Go back to your home country! THIS IS AMURRICA!" - Sadly, I'm more American than he is.

Knee and PT. Sigh.

My knee is bothering me. -_- I mean, it doesn't hurt too much but the fact that I know it's still there is what's bothering me.

And tomorrow's PT at 8am but I'm going to have to miss it because I don't think it's a safe idea for me to walk from the Bishop's house at 515am to be able to catch the nearest bus stop that gets there at 614am. I'll go next week at the 4PM PT. -_-

Migraine. Sick. Hormone levels dropping because of monthly period. Will try to recover. Will have to miss class tomorrow.

Ooh it's raining.

Awkward Turtle

Turtle Anxiety

    I am so friggin' hormonal right now. I don't have any serious insecurity issues but when it comes to relationships (romantic ones, especially), I get extremely anxious about everything. I'm afraid that I'm not built for long-term relationships because I don't know how to handle conflict, I'm generally more cerebral than emotional, I'm not sure how much to expect or not to expect, and it's bad enough I've been told I'm insensitive. Also, I kind of need to be reassured once in awhile if I'm doing okay. Except I don't want to be friggin' needy because that's the last thing I want to be.

GRAAAAAHHH I HATE FEELINGS

I'm going to download Cloudy With A Chance of Meatballs.

Awkward Turtle