USAF Process.

So this coming Wednesday, I'll be heading down to the recruiters office and I'll be sent to the hotel and Thursday, I have to get up at 4am and head down to the hospital for the MEPS process. (Yippy.)

Once I've sworn in, (hopefully it's the day of) all I have to do is wait for one of my job selections (the jobs that I have selected that I wanted to do based on my ASVAB score; which is basically like an entrance test and sees what kind of jobs you're capable of doing based on your general knowledge.) and when the Air Force has an opening for a job and it's one of the ones I selected (I picked about 10+) then my recruiter will call me, ask if I want to take it and if I take it, she will book me a spot and give me the date.

Then more processing happens. I go back for a MEPS check up (yeah, they do one before you leave for basic training) and then they will give me a brief summary of things and then put me on a bus to the airport and then I'll head to Texas, get picked up by a shuttle/bus and then go to the Lackland AFB where BMT (basic military training) will start.

A Big Sunday Night.

So, Elder Ortiz invited me to go to their church however, he and the other Elders that I've met were attending some event at the Singles Ward so he contacted Sister Davis (Lorena Davis) and she came to pick me up at my house and brought me to church, which then I met Elder Jeffery who took me around places in the church and helped me feel comfortable during the whole thing even though it was overwhelming.

But after church, I had to head to the class/lecture/discussions and I honestly enjoyed that and then we had to gather in the church hall to listen to the Patriarch talk about something for an hour. At the end, I realized that I had been at the church for four hours!

4Play

 My second cousin on my dad's side is Elle Jaxon (stage name). I was bored going through YouTube and I decided to look her and her girl group, 4Play, and their music video. Personally, their performance on Myx is better than the actual music video.

 She's the one with the black hair and the prettiest in the group. :D

Wounded Update.

(Update: It's 5:35am right now...)

I had to wake up to redress my wound and holy fuck, my thumb and wrist is swollen! Sigh. When I took off the bandage on my thumb, I tried to bend it but it's so swollen that, for some reason, pus projectile'd out of my thumb! I quietly squealed, everyone's still asleep so I didn't want to wake them up but I was grossed out! And the wound on my wrist seemed to have closed up but the area and my thumb is still swollen. Sigh. It's only the first day. I hope it gets better the more I wash, clean, and redress it. I CAN'T AFFORD GETTING INJURED RIGHT NOW. Because I don't have the money nor the insurance to get it checked at a hospital. T_T thus, why I'm attending to first aid viciously.

Injured,

Otter

PS: I still love dogs though.

Nah Nah Nah

 Feeling a little better now, plus, I gotta finish up some papers. They're not due til Tuesday, but I have to write them now coz I won't be here on that day.

 I realized that I've been completely complacent in a lot of parts in my life. I haven't been working on my art, or my journal-writing. I've been ignoring the gym, and I lack so much focus on my schoolwork.

 Gotta sort out my priorities later after I've fully recovered and my brain isn't so foggy anymore.

Awkward Turtle

Mormons and My Wound.

So just five minutes ago, Indigo (yes, Indigo) had some connections that lead two Mormon Elders to me. I thank him for helping me out and trying to send people to “help me”. Even though I’m not religious, just the gesture was nice.

But in the midst of all that, Quazi (Emily’s dog) was growling at Astro and attacking the kennel. So I tried moving Quazi but just before I could touch him, he attacked my wrist.

I didn’t know how bad it was until Elder Larson and Elder Opeda handed me the Book of Mormon and then I saw how bad my wrist was.

THERE WAS A FREAKING HOLE IN MY WRIST AND I CAN SEE THROUGH MY SKIN.

Fuck. And I have MEPS next Thursday.

Sick Turtle Is Sick

  I hate being sick. It makes me fuzzy, emotional, and I want someone to put me out of my misery with a laser sword.
 I was able to go to PE class today. Couldn't afford to be absent because it's a once-a-week thing.

 I want sopas. Can someone make me sopas? I'll be eternally grateful.  LOLJK

There goes my weekend. I'll be spending it drinking tea and reading books.

I miss everyone.

 Hope y'all will have a better weekend than mine.

Fever, coughs and sniffles,
Turtle

I Need To Save You.

Blue Fox. I need to save you.

I miss you, I really do and I wish I was there to help you. I love you and I think this isn't the right way. You are a smart guy, you're motivational and you have the talent to inspire but sometimes, you take your talents and do crappy stuff with it. You are better than that and sooooo much smarter than that. I know what you love, I know what you like and I know you are better than that so please, grow the fuck up. And I'm only saying this because I love you. I love you to death. You know I'm always here for you. Always and forever. I still want to be with you btw, but this has to stop.

Two More Steps...

So my recruiter, Ssgt. Fears, called me this morning to tell me that she got a spot for me for MEPS next Thursday. I have to head to the recruiter's office on Wednesday (February 1st) at 11am and Thursday is my MEPS check-up and it should go smoothly since they already have my MEPS records from my previous recruiter (the one who was a big dumbass) so the only thing I would have to do is make them have me go through the process and just check over to see if anything has changed, if I somehow got a big scar during the time I wasn't checked or monitored or if I suddenly got a tattoo that wasn't wavered. That's easy. No scars, no tattoos and no piercings. Done deal.

But I would still have to wake up at 3am on Thursday (we'll be staying at a hotel a day prior to MEPS) and go through process like everyone else. I just hope that they don't make me do duck squats and push up's naked again. I mean, it was awkward enough for them to make me "spread my cheeks" but doing the duck squats and push-ups naked was a little much and the Naval Hospital was freezing cold so my skin was turning white and my nails were turning blue as I was doing my push-ups... Sigh. I hope I don't have to do that again but now, I have to diet a little extra hard because I don't want to seem like I've gained weight because that can actually disqualify me even though I don't think I have.

So I'm excited. Haha.

WOOT!,
Otter

Le Grocery

  My family is the healthy sort so most of the time we just buy vegetables, some meat, lots of fruits, stock on loaves of wheat or wholegrain bread but today, for some reason, we went crazy at the junk food and candy
 section, as the picture shows.

 Note the vegetables at the bottom.

OMG, I think I'm coming down with a cold. NUUUUUU.

Andes mint chocolate is awesome.

To my friends in the offline world: Don't forget to drop by my Tumblr blog guys. :D I miss you!

Awkward Turtle

*Bawls in front of computer*

I was going through Everyday Isa, intently catching up on her blog coz she writes well and there's always good things in her posts. From one of her blog posts, there was a link that led me to 60 Tiny Love Stories.

 So I clicked on it, thinking there's just stuff that'll make me go "aaaawwww" instead of retching. Instead, I started bawling (I mean, uh, I got something on my eye- a twig, a branch or something) and I'm not even halfway through the list.

 These aren't really "love stories" in a romantic, syrupy sense. It's called love stories because of amazing things that we do out of love for anyone we hold dear.

Some of my personal faves from the list:
*Today, my 12-year-old son, Sean, and I stopped by the nursing home together for the first time in several months. Usually I come alone see my mother who’s suffering from Alzheimer’s. When we walked into the lobby, the nurse said, “Hi, Sean!” and then buzzed us in. “How does she know your name?” I asked. “Oh, I swing by here on my walk home from school all the time to say hi to Grandma,” Sean said. I had no idea."


*Today, my daughter accepted her boyfriend’s marriage proposal. He is 3 years older than her. They started dating when she was 14 and he was 17. I never liked the age difference when they were kids. When he turned 18 a week before she turned 15, my husband insisted they break-up. They maintained a friendship, but went on to date other people. Now at the ages of 24 and 27, I’ve never seen two people more in love.


*Today, after I heard that my mom stayed home from work with the flu, I stopped by Wal-Mart on my way home from school to pick her up some canned soup. I ran into my dad who was already in the check-out line. He had 5 cans of soup, NyQuil, tissues, tampons, 4 romantic comedy DVDs and a bouquet of flowers.


*Today, when I tapped the side of my wheelchair and told my husband, “You’re the only reason I want to be free from this contraption,” he kissed me on my forehead and said, “Honey, I don’t even see that thing.”




Just gonna finish reading this list and buy a fresh supply of Kleenex.




Awkward Turtle

NEIL PATRICK HARRIS

"Broadway has never been broader... it's not just for gays anymoooore!!"

I'm officially crushing on a gay dude. XD Why LORD WHY.


This teh lolz.

Turtle

Nom Nom Nom...

Angie, Koala and Delirium:  Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom,
Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom, Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom,
Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom, Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom,
Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom nom, Nom nom nom nom nom nom nom-

Germany: TANGINA ANG INGAY NYO!


Turtle

Avoiding Their Stares.

So these last two weeks have been really hard on me (as I've said before) and I've been able to go out and walk around, to help ease my mind and maybe walking around will help me figure stuff out. You know, pump up the circulation in my body, put some oxygenated blood cells into my brain to help me think better. But it doesn't seem to do much...

I keep thinking of Blue Fox. This is how my thought process goes;

"What am I going to eat? Oh, look a dog! Aww, how cute! Hmm, still hungry... But how much do I have in my pocket? Ah, not enough. Oh look, a cute couple... They look happy. Blue Fox. I remember when Blue Fox and I were like that... (memories flood my head) UGH. ANYWAY. USAF. RIGHT. SCHOOL. YEAH. SCHOOL. Sigh. I'm hungry... Aw, look! An electric car. Aww, I remember when Blue Fox said I shouldn't get one. (memories of Blue Fox again)... NO. SO. MONEY. JOB. I NEED ONE."

It goes on and on... It doesn't stop. So as I walk around thinking in my little head, I look "intense".

You know how intense I look?

I look so intense that even strangers look at me and tell me to cheer up. Or some of them walk by and say things like "Cheer up, sweetheart!" or "It's a nice day today, smile!" and I smile and laugh and whatnot then automatically go back to my intense-thinking face. SOME of them actually come up to me and tell me, "Cheer up! Your face is too pretty to be looking upset."

It upsets me even more because I'm like, "Is it really that obvious that I'm upset? Maybe I should just walk around with no people just to avoid this."

Sigh,
Otter

Lame Auditions.

(Fishy Recruiters) That's lame! Ohmygod, if they were telling me those things, I would have been like, "I'M CALLING THE POLICE ON YA' ASSES!" lol. They were probably a freaky I-want-a-three-some couple if they were like that. Or, they were trying to recruit you to become apart of their underground brothel. O_O

There was a time I was going to an audition to get a part for this spring runway event thing-y and I was at the best shape of my life; 5'3" 110lbs. PERFECT. And so I thought when I was going to this audition, I would have at least gotten the chance to go for a second audition but this lady was looking at all of us and was picking people from left and right. "Petite Sizes" and "Plus Sizes" or what it looked like in my eyes, match sticks and pork thighs. But I was in the middle. I wasn't petite nor was I porky.

* Just to ease your minds, I don't discriminate sizes, but that's how I saw it. Girls were anorexic or girls were like 'daaaaaayumn' big.

So it was me and some flanky chicks and I was wondering why I wasn't picked but I was being a good sport and letting it go because I knew there would have been a ton of people who might want me. So, I let it go. Five minutes later, the lady calls me out and I'm thinking, "Ohmygod, did I get picked?!" and she says, "We like your face because you look Chinese-Japanese but..." and I'm like waiting for her to continue but she just stared at the paper she was writing on and I continue for her, "But...?" and then she continued, "But... You don't fit in the category of the runway event." and I'm thinking, "Are you serious?" but I tell her that I understand and that I'm not too upset about it but then she said, "We want to put you in but we're not sure if you could fit in our petite category..." and I look at the girls in the petite side and I'm thinking to myself like, "Definitely NOT." then she hit me with something else; "Do you think you can lose weight to fit into that category in three months time?" and I look at her like, "These girls' arms are the size of my arms when I was 10!" but I tried to play it cool and I told her, "I don't think it'd be right for me to lose anymore weight because I'm at the size I should be and I want to maintain the healthy image that's right for my body shape. I'm sorry but I'll have to decline." and she basically threw her hands up in the air as if I made a bad decision but I thanked all of them for their time and walked out.

But Turtle, what you went through was worst than mine. Yours was like, dangerous. Sigh. Some people.

Smh,
Otter

Fishy Recruitment Is Fishy

    One of the people closest to my heart is Ms Tiddly (not her real name) because she's just a big-hearted woman who loves what she does: singing and teaching singing. We've known each other for a few years and we love her to bits.

   So when she told me that she recommended me to one of her friends- or acquaintances, rather- she told me they were looking for a model, I was like, "sure." That guy acquaintance of hers- we shall call him William- contacted me through my FB asking if I was interested. So after I talked to him on the phone this afternoon, he gave me his girlfriend's number so that I can arrange meeting their, um, boss. Let's nickname their recruiter Mother Violet (LOL).

After talking to William and then his girlfriend, I am convinced that they are some sort of elitist-ish type of sex traffickers or something along that line.

*The salary is ridiculously HUGE (Salary allegedly ranges from P100k to P170k). For 5 days rehearsal and 5 days "leisure time." If they have that kind of money, why would they stoop down to letting amateurs like me to be at their "fashion show?" They keep emphasizing that local celebs will be part of it (riiight).

"I'm going crazy, I'm losing my mind..."

This Jessie J song is for those people who feel like they're about to lose it, because you feel lonely, trapped and torn.





Just what I need right now for my neurotic, schizophrenic moments.

Awkward Turtle

3 Awesome Things

1.Celebrating my little brother's 15th birthday yesterday by splurging on shopping. Mainly for his clothes coz he is a growing boy. But he's already taller than me!! Anyway, we went around men's wear, and while I waited for the guys to fit clothes, I ended up going around checking all the clothes and making imaginary makeovers in my head.
 I don't know about you guys, but I realize that I prefer men's jackets to women's jackets. The structure and details of the guy jackets make me asjklfhsdkljgh. I will get me a guy jacket one of these days. Or a leather one like Angie's.

2.Chocolate cake from Conti's, courtesy of my sister. ZOMG IT MAKES ME HYPER

3.I've been vividly dreaming again, which is great. Though my recent dreams are trying to tell me something which I cannot decipher.

Tablo feat. Bumkey - 밑바닥에서 (At The Bottom)

"Baby, I'll try~ 언잰가는 행복이 되어줄게, 

언젠가는 최고가 되어줄게. 

오늘까지는 만 뿐이지만, I'll try. 

Baby, I'll try~ 언잰가는 세상을 다 줄게 

안된다면 세상을 바꿀게..."

"Baby, I'll try~ Someday I'll be happiness to you.

Someday, I'll be the best for you.

Today it's just words but I'll try.

Baby, I'll try~ Someday I'll give the whole world to you,

If I can't, I'll change the world for you."

Whenever you feel like you're at rock bottom, all you had to do was call out for me. I would have ran back to you.

Why Men And Women Can't Be Friends

I think there are exceptions to this but the guys' reactions just make me LOLOLOLOLOL.
Sandwich dude, you're EPIC. XD XD XD

Awkward Turtle

Otter's Insecurities.

Definitely, Turtle.

Growing up, I always thought I was ugly.

A Dollar-Worth of Thoughts And Two Dozen Powdered Donettes.

For the last two weeks, it has been really hard for me lately. I'm trying to figure out how to make things work in my life, I'm now talking to Ryan again and of course, I can't stop thinking about Blue Fox.

Two days ago, I was probably at my craziest.

Insecure Drama.

I've had my share of insecure boys as well. And I believe that there are two types. The Agressives and the  Mellows.

BAHAHAHA

I had nearly half a bar of Meiji milk chocolate today and it does wonders to my mood.

I started texting random stuff to my friends. Like how awesome they are and what not. I told Spam she was great. I texted the Derp boy a line from Monty Python and I told his brother that he's Dorky Valdes. I texted Nafnaf her quote during Jonah's photo shoot, ("I can't talk to my crush and you're crying about a shirt!"), plus I told Koala that she's adorbs. I think I was high for the next couple of hours.

I even texted Hottie about their upcoming play. Then he asked me if I'd like to be an extra in their play's protest scenes. I'm like, why not? I have too much free time some days anyway.

Eating more vegetables,
Awkward Turtle

Insecure

  I broke off a getting-serious relationship because the guy was insecure. And when a guy is insecure, he lets his jealousy get the best of him and starts accusing me of shit. Few years ago, I watched the movie "Despicable Me" with my bastard brother Wapwap (not really a bastard, but he's quite close to the family so my mom dubbed him as our brother). We haven't seen each other for weeks, so that's why we watched a movie and had dinner while we discussed about his crush who friendzoned him (LOLOLOL). My then-boyfriend knew where I was, what I was doing, and who I'm with- coz, you know, I am honest like that and I still like to stay in touch coz he likes it that way.

 Wapwap and I had to wait for a taxi for more than an hour coz of the looooong queue. So I got home around 10 or 11. My then-boyfriend suddenly gets mad and was like, "you were with Wapwap at the mall until 10pm??"

 I wanted to say, "really. REALLY? You're mad that I was with Wapwap til 10pm at the mall waiting for a taxi. Wapwap, whom I haven't seen in 2 weeks? You and I just went out a week ago, what are you bitching about?"

 Then he starts being all dramatic and he didn't say it directly but he definitely didn't like the fact that I was with my bastard brother. I explained everything to him, but he still ranted like a bitch.

 In short, I got mad, told him not to communicate with me until tomorrow, and he ends up not texting or calling me for more than 2 weeks. Even after I apologized the next day! I got fed up at the 10th day I wasn't hearing anything from him. When I met up with my bastard brother for lunch, I was like, "I can be single and not know it." Wapwap was stunned for a moment.

 When my then-boyfriend decided to ask how I am, I told him I've considered us broken up and that he may take his bullcrap elsewhere.

 It's ok to be insecure about things and to get jealous occasionally, but to hell with it if you'll let it run through the course of the relationship.

 ***********************************************************

  In school, I met Jerkjerk. We became friends and then he and I started going out. We didn't really "go out", we just spend time together and watch movies at his place. He was attentive though not really a natural gentleman.

 In the end, he became one of those people who spend too much time with computer games, started cutting classes, and prefers to sleep than have a conversation. Plus, he gets hypocritically preachy  and self-righteous when we discuss religion. So I abruptly told him that I don't want to go out with him anymore.

 Then my friend Chi had asked him, "why don't you fight for her?"
 He replied, "because I don't deserve her."

Damn right I don't deserve anyone who feels like they don't deserve me. If you're going to pursue a girl or embark a relationship, at least have the audacity to feel that you have a shot, a chance, and that you are capable of taking care of the relationship.

*************************************************************



This is the reason why I choose to remain single.

Awkward Turtle

Meow?

   This is probably weird of me to say out loud but this is probably one of my loneliest terms in school. Usually after my classes, there's always someone I spend my free time with. Since the start of this term, most people don't have classes on on Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays. Free time on Tuesdays and Thursdays are limited, lest I cut classes. I always have this urge to ask other people if they're free but for some reason I'm plain embarassed to ask.

But it's just loneliness.

Awkward Turtle

Recycling Fail!

So yesterday, I had another USAF appointment and met up with my new recruiter, Ssgt. Fears, and she said that my files have been transferred successfully and made me sign papers and put my initials and change some stuff in the system and the only thing she needs is my education evaluation paper and then she can schedule me to do a MEPS check up (paired up with this other girl) and we'll be staying at the hotel for two nights so we can wake up at 3am to go to the 4am MEPS processing and we all know, that's going to take a little more than 12 hours. -_- and we can't eat anything. We can only drink water. I did that in Guam and let me tell you, I thought it was crap so before the shuttle came, I ate a yogurt-berry parfait and orange juice. LOL. And water. Anywho, good news is that if the UPS brings my evaluations in tomorrow (sent in by my dad) then I will be scheduled for Tuesday and I can swear in on the day of MEPS and I'll wait again for a job... Hopefully one comes soon so I can book a spot for the job and be shipped out for BMT. (basic military training)

After the appointment, I was hanging out with German and his girl-friend (who use to be in the US Navy) and while I did  my thing, she tried to get her stuff fixed before she becomes homeless and whatnot and after, we just chilled at Marcus' house. At around 4pm, my phone was about to die so I went upstairs to get my charger and I see that Cam's best friend and his girlfriend are at the house, fogging up the apartment so I was in and then rushed out and chilled at Marcus'. At 8pm, we all decided to go to the gym and worked out until 10pm. I worked out my legs most of the time and they turned into jelly!

When I came home, I ate dinner and showered and then went to bed. I woke up at 8am, worked out, walk/run the dogs and my legs were still sore but it was whatever and then I came home, and I wanted to get rid of our recycling stuff  so I carried all six bags of our beer bottles and other glass bottles, walked 10 minutes with those in both hands, under the sun, in sweatpants and sweatshirt, sweating like a hog to the recycling shack... And you know what happened?

I ONLY GOT $1.98 OUT OF IT.

WHAT HAPPENED TO MY $40? T_______T

I swear I was being ripped off. Last time, we brought 200 smashed cans and one one-gallon keg and we got $10 out of that. I'm pretty sure glass jars and bottles and beer bottles are heavier than smashed aluminum cans...

WER IS MA MONNEH?!

Broke and disappointed but still saving the environment,
Otter

Have You Ever Had A Dream...

LMAO! OHMYGOD. SO CUTE! I want this written on my gravestone. :D

On replay,
Otter

"I Was Here"

   I've been listening to this song non-stop for three days straight ever since I found the link on someone's Facebook, and it never fails to remind me why I'm doing the things I'm doing- to keep holding on no matter how crappy things go- to remind myself, and why I feel so blessed. This is one of those few songs that remind me why I need to dream big, work hard, do my best, laugh out loud, stay humble, keep living, and enjoy life as it is.

  This song makes me cry because at the same time it reminds me of one of my talented, close friends who committed suicide 2 years ago. Her mere presence and her encouragement gave me the push I needed to develop my confidence in myself and my talent. She's one of those beautiful souls.

 I never thought Beyonce could pull off a song like this. I will attempt to sing this song even if my voice isn't really suited to Beyonce's range. I'm not really out to leave an impression on anybody, even my loved ones, coz what's important to me is that I surround myself with genuine, quality, big-hearted people and to treasure them until the inevitable moment I fade away.

OK, will stop being so emotional right after I listen to this song a few more times. The lyrics are simple but effectively pulls my heartstrings.

Turtle

Broccoli and me

Dinnertime.

Big Bro: (eats a piece of steamed broccoli) I don't get why people don't like broccoli.

Me: I like broccoli!

Big Bro: You're not counted as "people."


Eating vegetables,
Turtle

Dunno Which Is More Awesome...

*On our way to the Comic Con, Derpy and I ran into Charlie and Koala. Kinda funny coz they saw Derpy first and they were like "Deeerp!" and then when they spotted me, they completely ignored him and ran by him and went, "TUUURTLE!!" before giving me hugs.

*Running into Nafnaf! :D

*Charlie giving me her cute gloves. asdkljhfskjghskjdh

*Trolling Derpy dude for being Derpy. "What does that even mean??" He says exhasperatedly. "That word is so vague, you can use it to describe anything. "And Charlie exclaiming, "YOUR FACE IS VAGUE!"

"I don't get how someone's face can be vague!" Derpy Valdes adds. And I mindlessly rattle off, "maybe it means like that one time my friend saw someone ALMOST good-looking..."

*Mint chocolate Kit-Kat.

LOL-ing,
Turtle

OH. MY. GAAAAAA!

WHAT IN THE EFFING WORLD DID I JUST FIND ON THE KEYBOARD OF THIS MACBOOK AIR OF MY BEST FRIENDS?!

A. FREAKING. PUBE. HAIR.

I'M DONE!

Sanitizing my whole arm,
Otter

Gym? Dots and Whatnots.

Man, I did not have the best morning...

Last night, I head to bed at 10pm because my body schedule said so and I fall asleep shortly after. But then suddenly, I'm awake by 3:40am. WHAT THE? And believe it or not, I had another dream of Blue Fox. So I'm like, "Eh, no biggie. I still have three hours to sleep until my alarm goes on..." so I try my best to go back to sleep. NO LUCK. I end up laying in bed, with my eyes closed and thinking about Blue Fox. I'm tossing and turning, take off and putting on my socks, removing and covering myself with the blanket. WHY AM I SO RESTLESS?

Why Do I Feel Ditched?

 Last night, while chatting with Spam, I told her that we should meet up tomorrow and have lunch together. She's all, "Game!" So it's all settled.

 The next day, less than an hour before we were due to have lunch, she texts me that she's on her way to Katipunan with the other peeps.

I am friggin' ANNOYED, though I shouldn't be.

 I mean, the others invited her to go to Katipunan just today, and I already made a lunch date with her LAST NIGHT. Personally, if she was invited by her crush or her soulmate to have lunch with him instead, I wouldn't mind. But here, she's going somewhere else with her friend who only started hanging out with us again coz she broke up with her boyfriend recently.

 I should be understanding, but Spam's a bit of a hypocrite.

Ugh, whatever. Tomorrow, I still have that time-wasting seminar to attend because of the times I entered the campus without my ID.

 *eats paper*

Annoyed Turtle

Recycled Drunkards

People who know me know that I sleep early (maybe hella early, almost elderly early) and that I'm usually in bed by 10pm (11pm the latest) and I wake up around 6:30am every morning, wash up, work out, eat breakfast, walk their (my roommies) dogs, shower... All before lunch time.

Last night, as I went to bed, my coupled roommies were smoking weed and bought some drinks at a nearby liquor store... So that's pretty much whatever to me so I head to sleep. And the things they watch on Netflix or TV is just... Meh.

This morning, I wake up and I was going to boil eggs to make an egg salad sandwich for breakfast and what do I see? A TRASHED KITCHEN. Sigh. I understand when you smoke weed, you're effing hungry and I understand when you drink, things end up in places that you didn't even realize... But seriously? Every single plate, bowl, utensil, pan, pot, cup are all used?! ONLY BY TWO PEOPLE?! And they were just piled up all over the sink and around the kitchen.

I can't make breakfast now. So, I end up washing every damn thing because I need ONE plate, ONE spoon, ONE small bowl for breakfast but no. EVERY DAMN THING IN THE KITCHEN IS DIRTY.

But from their drinking, I have two more large bottles (one pint) of Red Stripe. Now I have seven bags of beer bottles that have been collecting in the utility closet for almost two months now and it piled up fast during the month of December while my best friend was away in Hawaii. (Thanks to her boyfriend and our neighbor, German.)

So tomorrow or Wednesday, I should be able to bring (transportation: walking) all seven bags to the recycling shack near Stater Bros. (a low-down yet expensive grocery store) and I'll leave the plastics and aluminum cans in the utility closet. With this amount of bottles, how much will it get me? If the last time we went, we got $10 out of four bags of aluminum cans... I'm sure seven bags of heavy beer bottles will get me... At least $30? I'd like $40 but I won't stretch it.

And plus, it's been almost two months and it's just sitting there, lonely, wanting to be recycled for the good of the environment! So, as a good samaritan, I will do my deed and take it all and turn it into some good cash because my wallet is hungry, too. I got to feed myself and my wallet, my furry friends.

I guess there is a good side to living with stoned drunkards. MONNEH IN ME POCKET! :)

AND, I'm helping the planet. ♡

Win-win situation champion,
Otter

LOL False Alarm LOL

The girl with Hottie in the pics was apparently his best friend for a long time and she has a boyfriend already.

LOL

Silly Turtle feels silly.

Gotta look for food nao.

KFDSKHFKDSJHFLSDFKDS?!

January 11: Emily messaged Blue Fox again.

3 Awesome Things This Week (Hi Angiiiiee!!)

1.My adorable Spanish professor who doesn't speak a word of English. We're close to doing sign language trying to communicate with her and the guys have no idea how tell her that they needed to go to the bathroom. But we're still having fun. Besides, my cute classmate in that class makes things easier.


2.Watching Sherlock Holmes with the Derpy Valdes and grabbing a quick dinner at Sbarro. While I finished off my baked zitti, he gave me his belated Christmas gift. A lovely necklace. I was stunned for a few seconds before commenting that I LOVE it. He said that he had help picking out the gift. Who could that beeee... (more details at my Tumblr blog LOL)

3.My friend Nikki meeting Angie, Koala and the others. And a delicious serendipity of taking the train with Nafnaf :D



Swimmingly optimistic,
Awkward Turtle

EH.

So when I got home, I immediately logged in my Facebook, checked my notifications, and on my news feed was Hottie's recent photo albums looking suspiciously chummy with a girl.

(Proceeds to delete all photos with Hottie in own cellphone and throws away Hottie memorabilias.)

Then I log out of Facebook.

Awkward Turtle

P.S.
To those of you who know me personally, you may also check and follow my new Tumblr blog. Love youuuu.

Horrible.

Last night I dreamt that I was looking for something, then a rat fell on me and bit my hand. I wasn't bleeding but  he did give me a painful, nasty wound and all I was thinking was, "OMG I'm gonna die."

I hate these kinds of nightmares.

Turtle

THIS MAN ♥

At first, I was like, "okaaay, what's this. I hope he's not another self-righteous Christian."

AND HE ISN'T.

What if Jesus came to abolish religion?

This video needs more views.

That's All You Had To Say.

I don't care if he wanted to end the relationship and "just be friends" because he had too many things to focus on and priorities to do and wouldn't find the time to commit fully to it, but as long as he said "please stay for me"... I would have done it. That's all he had to say.

Otter + Blue Fox = ________.

"Maybe... You need to revert down to friend status. Like best friend status, you know? So he doesn't have to have the pressure of always having to make you happy. I think that's what he's struggling with as well. He wants to show you his affections but he's unable to because he has so much things to do. But maybe, a best friend status is just what you need. Keep it super close, but still have your own space. you'll still be able to tell each other everything and I reckon in the long term, it may be more beneficial." — Tammy

“He’s just at a confusing point. Maybe you should give it a little bit of time. He’s just fighting you off now but in his heart, he knows you’ll always wait for him. So there’s this kind of comfort for him to just do that to you. You know what I mean? Like, he can just say “I can’t do this” when he REALLY does want to be with you and even by saying that, he knows you’ll never just take it and be like, “Okay, let’s stop then”. You’ll say, “let’s try” I think it’s that comfort he has… I think he’s kind of like me. Like, I only really miss that person when I physically see them. When I don’t, I don’t really miss them too much and even though he misses you, he’s also busy so there’s this comfort there that, ‘Reanne ain’t going anywhere even though I’m ignoring her for now.’“  — Tammy

“Just doesn’t know how to do long distance. It bothers me that you get treated the way you do. If I was him, you would be with me. I’d find a way to get housing for us. I would appreciate how patient and understanding you are… I would be open to you with my doubts and worries.“ — Bubu

THE CUTEST TRICK SO FAR!

This is either a Shiba Inu or a Akita Inu which is a Japanese dog. (Looks very similar to a Jindo-gae) but I came across this this morning and I was like, "OHMYGOD, THIS IS THE CUTEST THING I HAVE EVER SEEN!", I've been watching this all day~

I WANT ANOTHER DOG!

Yes, you read right. I want another dog. (laughs)

I have six dogs already. (Bruno, Charlie, Sheldon, Cornelius, Sage, Chance) and I'm living with my best friend and she has two dogs (Astro and Quazi) and I just can't get enough...

I'm wanting my own dog but I know I can't because I have six. And I don't think I can support another one with food, space, clothing (yes, clothing) and medical check-ups and everything else they need to be healthy...

Soooooo... I'll wait. But for now, this is the kind of dog I want. It's a "Jindo-gae" which is a Korean dog from Jindo Island. I've already figured out three names that I'd want to call it~ (giggle, giggle, giggle, giggle, giggle)

Everyday I'm Tumblr-ing

I made another blog at Tumblr, but this time without the pseudonyms and shizz, and it's for stuff I don't mind people knowing. Such as my Worlite professor who gives time-wasting projects, my Philosophy prof who just reads off the Powerpoint presentation or the time I've dreamt of washing down brown-and-white cows with a garden hose.

I had a nice text conversation going with Hottie today. I don't mind that we don't text much as we used to because I've reassessed myself and realized I have a lot more things to prioritize other than chasing him around.

But there was this one point when I was attending a Golden wedding anniversary and the song "Thank God I Found You" comes on and I was like...

I AM GOING TO MARRY HOTTIE.

But for now it will be me, my music, my art, my friends and my family. Serious shit can wait til I'm 30 or whatever.


I am totally not cruel and weird.

Awkward Turtle

Training and Healthier Otter.

So, Emily and I are... Actually, I'm trying to influence Emily to get on the wagon of a healthier lifestyle. I want to her sway away from the weed and try to change her life. Yeah, sure, you can't get addicted to weed HOWEVER, you do become dependent on it. Yeah, I know the benefits, the medicinal properties and why people use it for recreational purposes but... My best friend doesn't have a medical card, nor an illness for her to get one so for her to pick up from her boyfriend and other friends is still considered illegal. And the fact that her boyfriend is growing and he doesn't even have a medical card either and doesn't have a reason to get one, that's also considered illegal and I don't want Emily to get in trouble.

Now that her boyfriend's back, we have an awkward living situation. He brought all his weed equipment, growing it in the sleeping area and we all three sleep on the same bed but we all sleep horizontally. Talk about awkward. -_- and it's a studio apartment.

I've been training, eating healthy, and working out and I'm staying healthy but it's just weird how everyone keeps coming over, picking up, smoking it up and getting stoned and I'm the awkward, super-clean, innocent-looking Asian, sitting in the corner, online, watching Asian dramas. LOL. BUT, as long as I'm clean, sober and it won't hinder my chances in getting in the military then I'm good.

Today, when we came back from the gym, we entered the house and the house definitely smells like maryj. Sigh. And that's all the way in the bed area. What more with smoking it? Sigh. Now, her boyfriend's best friend and his girlfriend came over and brought more weed and some hash. Great. Are we putting the hash in our food now?

Awkward.

Thus, why I need to get out soon.

Emily's boyfriend's best friend just asked if I wanted some weed while they're smoking some. I'm glad you have manners but no thanks.

More awkwardness.

Awkward,
Otter

Otter Misses Her Blue Fox.

December 19: Blue Fox finally called me.

With Emily's help, though. Actually, I told Emily what to say but we used her account.

GAH!

 OTTER Y YOUR POSTS AWESOME.

And right now, I don't know how to deal with a certain someone because if I deal with it, I will feel like a terrible person. Well, even if I don't I'll still feel terrible.

I think I'll clean the bathroom.

Sigh-ness.

Awkward Turtle

Victor Kim: Marry Me!

Honestly, if you were to ask me which Asian I'd want to marry, I would have usually said Rain or Won Bin or some other handsome Korean I know in my little noggin but seriously, I would love to marry Victor Kim. Yes, it's a little creepy but trust me, I'm not that scary compared to others. Why do I love him? He's artistic, he's creative, he sings very well and he breakdances and he has the looks to boot.

Just looking at him makes me... Hnnnggggg~~~~ <3

Goodnight,
Otter

USAF NEWS!

So today, I went to my USAF appointment and I finally spoke to a recruiter, Ssgt. Ashley Fears, and she looked up my files hoping that my stuff would be easy stuff and luckily for her, it was. It didn't take too long for her to open up my files and see what I have done in the last year... She saw that I have done my physicals (MEPS) and she has seen my ASVAB (aptitude test), I even asked her if I had to do the physicals again because a previous recruiter told me that it was only good for a year, but she said that I wouldn't have to because it's good for two years. THANK GOD. She made a few calls on how to make the process with an applicant coming from Guam and found out that she will have to do a MEPS-to-MEPS pull; meaning that she would need my current Guam recruiter to send over my stuff and once that goes smoothly, Ssgt. Ashley Fears can schedule me to go to LA and do a re-check up on my MEPS at a official MEPS facility. And after that, I can be sworn in and hopefully get a job... Since I'm thinking of going in as 'general open', hopefully I can get a spot and Ssgt. Fears said that when I go enlist as 'open', then I can get a ship-date within a month or so and I can be in basic training before summer.

FREAKING. AWESOME. AND ABOUT. TIME.

So, I'm pretty stoked! I mean, I left the recruiting office in a good mood, I even treated our neighbor German to Subway (with coupons, since we have a bunch at home) and we plan on celebrating with booze at the end of the month because he can't drink just yet. LOL. I don't know why BUT I DON'T CARE. I'M ON MY EFFIN' WAY!

Final-effing-ly,
Otter

USAF Appointment

In four hours and 30 minutes, I have an appointment with a USAF recruiter regarding my situation and hopefully, I can get on DEP and wait for a job soon. I have to ask them if I have to do the physicals again since it's been a year since my last one (and it's only good for a year) so, if they tell me that I have to do it again... I suppose I have to? (laughs) I just hope that the physical examiner won't make me do push ups, butt-naked, striped down and HELLA freezing in the hospital again. The last time I did it, my skin was so white and my fingers were so blue. That's how cold it was in the hospital and I had to be naked on top of that! It was a sad moment, and to make things even more awkward... The examiner was a butch-lady. So, I'm afraid to even think that she was... Swaying that way.

Anywhooooo, I hope I can move out soon if I get on DEP quicker than I hope. Actually, sooner than soon... So I can move out of the apartment of my best friend so she can have more privacy with her boyfriend. (because, you know... That... You know.)

Our neighbor, German, is going to drop me off because it's only 13-minutes by car but if I were to take the bus, I'll be on the bus for an hour and thirty minutes. Sigh. So, he'll be taking me and we'll go out for lunch. Hooray!

My best friend left for her first class today and she is officially back to school! I hope that she does well this quarter and gets her grades up. I am proud of her for going through school and getting her degree~ She's almost done and I hope she sticks it out.

Anyways, I shall walk Astro and Quazi, eat and then get ready.

I'll blog you later, friends!

HOUNGRYYYYY,
Otter

Dorm-hunting Turtle

After class, grabbed lunch with Coco Crunch and Doki. Coco Crunch had to go, so I asked Doki if she knew any dorms around school. She suggested the dorm where her boyfriend stays and the dorm where a friend of a friend stays.

 We checked out the most popular dorms around the campus.

Dorm A was the first dorm we checked. It seemed like a very secure place. Quiet, and there wasn't any curfew. They had wi-fi but only at the lounge. Rent is reasonable, though it does not cover water and electricity.  Males and females seperated.

Dorm B. The first thing I saw when I was let in the vicinity was CJ (that History seatmate who'd hit on me) cuddling with his girlfriend on a bench in the lobby. Apparently his girlfriend stays there. Not a good sign for me.

Dorm C was where my best friend used to stay. And that's where Doki's boyfriend is staying. The females and males are in different rooms. Fixed rate for everything. A little more expensive than Dorm A.

Really wish I can move out soooon.

Awkward Turtle

Ryan and Otter: 1995+

Ryan. He's a guy that I've known since kindergarden and he is one of the most important people in my life... We've been through so much together and separately and there's no doubt that we'll continue to be that way...

We were suppose to date and be in a relationship, however things weren't going right and he ended up seeing someone and I ended up dating someone else. He's been with her for almost four~five years and in 2008, he got her pregnant and they have a child together; a baby girl.

He's been in and out of jail (don't worry, nothing too serious. It's just Montana's stupid and sensitive rules), pre-release and all that. So one day, his mother called me and told me what's up and passed on messages that Ryan wanted to tell me.

A day later, Ryan calls me from prison. Honestly, that sounds so weird but I was glad that he called and I was so happy to hear his voice again but we could only speak for 10 minutes at a time or we will get cut.

He called me one night and we spoke and he told me a secret he hasn't told anyone.

Ryan: You know my daughter's name right?
Me: Yeah, it was Myiah RyAnna?
Ryan: Mhmmm~ And you know the 'RyAnna' part?
Me: Yes...
Ryan: Well, I wrote this in one of the letters I made you that got sent back but I just wanted to tell you that her name is actually your name and my name put together...
Me: Whaaaaaaaat~
Ryan: Haha, yeah. I named her after you and I.
Me: Did you tell anyone else?!
Ryan: Nope. I didn't tell her mother and not even my own mother knows... Yet.
Me: I knew it! When I first saw it, I was thinking that it looked so much like my name... Awwww, ohmygod. That's amazing. Why did you do it?
Ryan: Why?! I can't believe you're asking me that question right now... I named her after you and I because you're the most important person to me. You're my best friend and more! And only you know me better than anyone else and you've been through all this bullshit that I've done and gotten myself into and you're still there to pick me up through everything. I love you, Otter.

I think it's pretty cute and slightly romantic that someone as important as Ryan named his child after a childhood crush, love and best friend.

- Otter

OTTER IS BACK! HELLO!

I am back, lovers! To be honest, I didn't like that I was gone for so long and there were so many things I wanted to blog about but I didn't have a laptop! So I had to write down the titles for what I wanted to right about... But a lot has happened and I will slowly fill you guys in. But for now, here's a gist of it and I will add in more~ Oh how I missed you guys! Especially you, Turtle! :D

LOL ADORBS

My tito, one of our family friends, told us the time that he and his 4-year-old daughter were in the video store.

His daughter was in the Barbie and kids' section of the video store, browsing, when the video assistant cooed at her, "Hello Ms. Beautiful! What's your favorite movie?"

The kid grinned, "Drag Me To Hell!"

Otter/ Hottie

 So Otter left a message on my FB timeline. Apparently, she'll be able to update in a few days. Quite excited that me co-blogger will be able to join me again. :) Awesomesauce. I really love it when she updates. Her posts are always interesting, funny, emotional and cool.

Otter, you better update like CRAZEH!!

 OTTER!!!! :D

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 Anyway, just had my first day of class for this term so... yeeeeeaaaah. Kinda had mixed feelings about it. I was with Coco Crunch and JB. We dropped by Tattles and saw the rest of the Faliure family. Including Hottie. Who I didn't really talk much with. Coz he was SMOKING.

 GOD.

He told me that he was quitting, but I guess it's easier said than done. And I didn't even want to ask him how many sticks he's had. Coco Crunch, JB and I planned to go to UM for Cerealicious. But they encouraged me to say since Hottie was there. Who they conveniently had me seated beside with.

Nah. I love my lungs too much. Besides, I will resume hanging out with him when he's not poofing on a ciggie. I may be totally into Hottie, but not when he's smoking.

 I don't like people whose actions totally contradict what they say.

Gonna look for something to eat now.

Still hungry,
Awkward Turtle