Insecure

  I broke off a getting-serious relationship because the guy was insecure. And when a guy is insecure, he lets his jealousy get the best of him and starts accusing me of shit. Few years ago, I watched the movie "Despicable Me" with my bastard brother Wapwap (not really a bastard, but he's quite close to the family so my mom dubbed him as our brother). We haven't seen each other for weeks, so that's why we watched a movie and had dinner while we discussed about his crush who friendzoned him (LOLOLOL). My then-boyfriend knew where I was, what I was doing, and who I'm with- coz, you know, I am honest like that and I still like to stay in touch coz he likes it that way.

 Wapwap and I had to wait for a taxi for more than an hour coz of the looooong queue. So I got home around 10 or 11. My then-boyfriend suddenly gets mad and was like, "you were with Wapwap at the mall until 10pm??"

 I wanted to say, "really. REALLY? You're mad that I was with Wapwap til 10pm at the mall waiting for a taxi. Wapwap, whom I haven't seen in 2 weeks? You and I just went out a week ago, what are you bitching about?"

 Then he starts being all dramatic and he didn't say it directly but he definitely didn't like the fact that I was with my bastard brother. I explained everything to him, but he still ranted like a bitch.

 In short, I got mad, told him not to communicate with me until tomorrow, and he ends up not texting or calling me for more than 2 weeks. Even after I apologized the next day! I got fed up at the 10th day I wasn't hearing anything from him. When I met up with my bastard brother for lunch, I was like, "I can be single and not know it." Wapwap was stunned for a moment.

 When my then-boyfriend decided to ask how I am, I told him I've considered us broken up and that he may take his bullcrap elsewhere.

 It's ok to be insecure about things and to get jealous occasionally, but to hell with it if you'll let it run through the course of the relationship.

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  In school, I met Jerkjerk. We became friends and then he and I started going out. We didn't really "go out", we just spend time together and watch movies at his place. He was attentive though not really a natural gentleman.

 In the end, he became one of those people who spend too much time with computer games, started cutting classes, and prefers to sleep than have a conversation. Plus, he gets hypocritically preachy  and self-righteous when we discuss religion. So I abruptly told him that I don't want to go out with him anymore.

 Then my friend Chi had asked him, "why don't you fight for her?"
 He replied, "because I don't deserve her."

Damn right I don't deserve anyone who feels like they don't deserve me. If you're going to pursue a girl or embark a relationship, at least have the audacity to feel that you have a shot, a chance, and that you are capable of taking care of the relationship.

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This is the reason why I choose to remain single.

Awkward Turtle