Be Still, My ♥

 I. Just. CAN'T.

  I mean, there is just SOMETHING about Hottie that just makes me want to... HNNNNNGH.

He isn't the most good-looking person I know, but the longer you look at him, there's this charisma that just pulls you right in. He has this certain charm that he's not aware of. Which makes him even more charming.

Seriously. I must hold myself back and stop with all this nonsense of texting him. I started this daily gratitude update with him. At the end of the day, we text each other the 3 things we're grateful for, no matter how big or small. This kind of daily exchange is a great way to pay attention to the little things in life and it's also a good way to get to know him better.

I call him Hottie. He calls me Beautiful. *gushgushgush*

What I've learned so far about him is that he was suppose to enter the seminary (thank GOD that didn't push through), he's a deeply spiritual person, he loves his parents to death, he's applying for a scholarship in school, and he wants to take up film and be a director in the future.

I have no trouble believing him. He's a bad-ass visual artist, he helps out TONS in theater productions in school, he's got stamina I wish I had, and he just loves to help out people to bring their visions to life. Plus, he's a Josh Groban fan. *cartwheels*

And there's this other day that I asked him what he was grateful for and one of them was:
"....I'm grateful for you for making me think about the simple joys in life. :)"


Please be mine,
Awkward Turtle

Musical Turtle

  Haven't posted much like I planned to but for a good reason... I was recording my first EVAR original song! After I recorded cover songs at our family friend's recording studio, he decided that my sister and I are good enough to have our own album of ORIGINALS. Like, omg. Next thing I knew, he contacted one of his composer friends who sent us a few samples.

So this looong weekend (no classes from Saturday til Tuesday here in the Philippines), we were at the recording studio, revising lyrics and the melody, and finally- recording! I'm still deciding if I should post it online but my material is still pretty raw.

Right now, I just want to drown somewhere because I have to compose lyrics for my second original song. Hnnnngh. Say what you want, but songwriting's a bitch, especially when inspiration just seems so elusive these days.

A milestone toward a dream,
Awkward Turtle

How Does This Make Otter Feel?

Blue Fox moved into his new dorm-apartment with his roommates and setting up the tv and all of that. I'm excited for him and that he'll be starting school soon but he told me that he's not too excited because for one, he won't have much time for me and two, his apartment has little signal so when we do talk, we might get cut often. I'm a little upset that I won't be able to talk to him often but I know that he has to do what he has to do and make some sacrifices to committ to what he promised from the beginning... Sigh. A little sad.

Last night, we were talking about the things that we wanted to do together and planned all these things... Apparently, he's thinking of getting his own off-campus apartment with roommates in the spring and - EMBRACE YOURSELF TURTLE - he asked if I'd like to be a roommate! I know that I can't stay in Washington forever and being with my aunt and cousin wouldn't be healthy for me anyways. I told mother that I was thinking of moving out once I have enough money for an apartment and I asked mother if I could move from the west coast to the east, and she approved because I was told enough to do what I want so... I got that settled, I just need enough money to move my ass out of here. And it's nice to know that his cousins (females) and friends will be there.

IT'S DECIDED.

If this Air Force thing doesn't work out and they never call me, I'm heading out there and going back to school. I just need to work at the moment to get the money but Blue Fox keeps telling me that he wants me there now and that I don't have to pay for a whole year because he can support me. (LAUGHS) As sweet as that is, I'll work and pay too.

Otter: Don't do that. I'll feel guilty for using your money.
Blue Fox: I know but you should feel more guilty for not being here with me.

Swimming in serious water,
Otter

... To Be Continued

August 29th: I was getting ready for my interview and I was so nervous while I was getting changed. Was I missing something? Is my outfit too plan? Is it too much? Is this blouse alright? Do these heels fit my outfit?

After putting all my clothes together, I actually looked pretty cute. (laughs) but I was still nervous that I couldn't eat my breakfast so I texted Blue Fox about it and he told me that when I get nervous, I just had to think about him doing the Native Indian bonfire dance song~ And that made me feel better but I don't think that I would be able to take the interview seriously because I would be laughing too much.

I was 30 minutes early for my interview and was able to take the interview ten minutes early but right when I was about to walk to the door, Blue Fox texted me, "Be confident! You got this!" and that boost up my energy A LOT! It really helped... I knew that I was confident to do well on the job but I just wanted the job so much that I got nervous. Thank you, Blue Fox.

The guy that was suppose to interview me was Eric Johnson but he was out sick so a guy named Peter who was one of the head managers of the company I'm going for and after a 20-minute interview, I was given to Vanessa who is the HR and she had to give me a 15-minute interview... Then, she called up a guy named Diego who is in charge of the position that I'm applying for and he showed me the things that they do and it seemed so chaotic, I was almost overwhelmed and he said, "But don't be overwhelmed because once you start working in this area, it gets easy... It's just fast paced." and I was totally fine with that. He also told me that when and if I do work, it's best to wear flats because you'll have to be climbing a lot on the job and since I was wearing heels for my interview, he commented on me saying, "But it's good to see that you're wearing heels because you have an interview and you look absolutely great."

I was told that I would be given a call regarding if I got the job or not but since they gave me a tour of the job that I'm going for... It makes me think that I got it? Because when you go to get interviewed, they don't show you the job. I don't know, maybe that's how they do it. But I told Blue Fox about it and he thinks the same... And he also said, "Now... I'm excited." (LAUGHS)

Later that night, we spoke on the phone for a little bit but he was sleepy so I decided to let him sleep since he has his last day of work before he moves in to his apartment for school.

Sigh, I miss him.

Now all I have to do is wait for them to call me.

Waiting patiently,
Otter

Cute Moments with Otter and Blue Fox

I think Blue Fox and I are getting... Serious. I mean, this whole time, I know we liked each other A LOT but I guess last night was just one of those moments where I feel like we've leveled up in... Whatever this is. We share things that we normally don't share with other people, we're open with each other and we already made a list of what we want to do with each other and surprisingly, what he wants to do ends up being what I've always wanted to do... It gets more and more scary when we figure out how we have so much in common.

For the last few days now - and you're going to laugh Turtle - whenever we're on the phone together at night, we both brush our teeth together while on the phone! YES, ON THE PHONE. So I can hear him brushing his teeth and he's laughing and I'm brushing my teeth and laughing and... It's just one of the cutest moments that I enjoy a lot and it make me really happy for some reason.

Blue Fox: Go shower but don't brush your teeth yet. I want us to do that together...

At about 12am, he told me that I had to sleep early because I have an interview in the morning and as much as I didn't want to be let go, I know I had to go. But he told me, "Just take a deep breath and smile... And you'll get the job." siiiiiiiiiiiiiiiigh, whenever he gives me words of encouragement... I feel this sense of energy that uplifts my spirit.

Otter: Siiiiigh. I'm doing this just for future reasons and to make this guy that I really like reeeally happy because he's nomu nomu nomu nomu special to me. And I hope this makes him feel better since I can't be there to take care of him... Yet.
Blue Fox: If I had cancer, it would have been cured. That's how great I feel.

... To be continued.

Possessed Together.

LOL, well Turtle, you see... Since he calls me... I don't pay a cent! LOL. He's the one that calls me in the morning the minute I wake up to greet me, and calls me when work is slow or when he's making deliveries and then calls me when he gets home. Crazy, right? But he told me that he's never missed anyone so much in his life. It's a bit insane, actually.

Earlier in the night, my nine-year-old cousin got the courage to talk to Blue Fox on the phone but I had it on speakphone but I didn't tell Blue Fox that and I heard my cousin asked him, "Do you like Otter?" and he was like, "Do I like Otter? Hmm, what do you think?" and she said, "Yes!" and he said, "So does that also mean that I get your permission to like her?". She asked him how much he liked me and he said a lot, more than 120% and then when I spoke to him on the phone, she kept on bullying me so he asked me if he could talk to my cousin again and I put him on speakerphone and he said to her, "Can you try and be nicer to Otter?" and my cousin was like, "Why?" and he said, "Because it hurts my heart. I don't like to see her or hear her hurt. It's like when someone is being mean to your mother or someone that you really love get hurt by someone else, it's a terribe feeing and that's what I feel with Otter when you bully her. So, can you please be nicer to her?" and my cousin said that she will... Although, if you knew her well enough, you know she wouldn't give a rats ass about those things but to hear Blue Fox say that... I was blown away.

And apparently, my cousin told Blue Fox that he should ask me if I liked him so when I was on the phone with him, he asked me, "Do you like me?" and I was laughing nervously, blushing and I didn't know what to say... I would have shouted, "I love you like mad!" but I... Honestly admitted that I liked him. Quite a bit. Actually, a lot. And he told me that he's glad because he feels the same way. One step forward? Success.

If and when I get this job landed and make some serious cash, I'll be moving states. Yes, again. I'll leave Seattle and move into the town that Aaron (and my other friends) are. Yesterday, he was helping me find a place and suggested that I can live with him and his (female) cousin. So, we'll see how it works out. I already got my mother's permission... She just said that I need to be financially stable first and I can do and go wherever. So, we'll see! Plus, Blue Fox said that he's willing to wait for me and so am I.

ANYWAYS, as possess as I am, let's talk about you Turtle. This Hottie sounds artistic and I know how much you love them artistic guys! And the things he does and how he has a notebook of drawings and whatnot... Totally you. You're drawings are so good and if he's better? I can't imagine. Forget Panda, bring in this Hottie into the spotlight. It seems like you two have more in common... Performing, drawing-scribbling-doodling, etc etc. YOU TWO NEED TO BE TOGETHER!!! :D

Possessed Together,
Otter

Possessed!!

OHMYGOD, Otter! Have you been racking up your phone credits lately?? XD XD XD I had to stop my head from spinning just reading your updates! Crazzeeeeehhh! Why aren't you guys going on dates yet??

I SWEAR I haven't been myself lately. I'm going against all of my principles when it comes to guys.

A few days ago, I spotted Hottie eating lunch so I gave him his numerology analysis. While he went through it, he gave me his notebook and told him to read it. Their were scribbles and drawings. Was it what I thought it was?
"It's my idea journal." He says. It took all the energy in me to stop myself from grabbing him and kiss the bejeezus out of him!! Because I keep one too!

 So I slowly went through his idea journals, taking in all his ideas, dreams, drawings (His drawings are tons better than mine!), doodles, quotes he likes, movies he's watched, his thoughts about the things happening in his life... I thought I was going to cry because-in a lot of ways- he was a reflection of me. I saw myself in him when I looked through each page.

For me, it's like... GODDAMIT, I'm going to be SO upset if I won't make him mine soon!! He told me about the time he was onstage as one of the extras in the play Titus Andronicus. "So you didn't have a speaking role?" I jested. "But I got to kick someone!" He grinned.  OHMYGAAAAAAHD. The boyish charm!! I read Titus Andronicus and have a general idea of it- basically one of the most violent and gore plays by Shakespeare. He's part of the crew who make all the props, sounds... DOES HE HAVE ANY IDEA HOW SEXY THAT IS???

 I am officially possessed.

Lovestruck,
Awkward Turtle

I'm A Happy Otter.

I think something great is going to happen. I can feel it. Why? Two reasons.

One being, I just got off the phone with the head manager of Nordstrum Rack, one of the places that I've submitted my job applications to. We had a phone interview but that's just one out of two, my second one will be on Monday at 11am. I'm kind of nervous and excited, I don't know what to wear... Lol. Crap! Hmmmmm.

Second, Blue Fox. Last night was pretty intense because we were on the phone for five hours and fifteen minutes; SERIOUSLY. Yes, we beat our own record. We were talking about random things again, things about our lifes, sharing stories that happened in our lives and personal things too. We even talked about past relationships. After the four hour mark, his phone died... He told me that he sprinted upstairs, woke up his brother at 4am just to ask where his charger was. (laughs)

OMG, MARRY ME!

Blue Fox and I are talking about carbonaceous chondrite and pricrite basalt! D:

I THINK I FOUND MY ATHLETIC, HEATHLY, AMAZING AND SCIENCE-Y HUSBAND! OMG! I think I'm going to cry~

Dying on the couch, on the phone with Blue Fox,
Otter

Otter Just... Confessed?

OHMYGOD! Did... Did I... Did I just tell Blue Fox that I missed him?!

- Texting -
Otter: :(
Blue Fox: ?
Blue Fox: I can't text for another hour.
Otter: It's okay. I know you're busy... I just miss you. :)
Blue Fox: Well that's how it is for me too~
(41 minutes later)
Blue Fox: I couldn't wait an hour. Lol.
Otter: :D

Morning Text Messages.

Blue Fox: (3:57am) Morning!
Otter: (4:22am) Morning!
Blue Fox: Lol? Awake or I wake you?
Otter: I woke up with the thought of you, checked and slowly fell back asleep... Like... Right... Now...
Blue Fox: :)
Otter: :)
(Otter wakes up at 8:32am)
Otter: Okay, I think I'm awake now... Teehee. ^^ Morning!
Blue Fox: :) weeeeeeeeeehoooooooahhhhhhhh. That's what my heart said.
Otter: Hahaha, weeeeeeeehooooooaaahhhhhh back to your heart. Haha! :)
Blue Fox: :)
Otter: :)
Blue Fox: :(
Otter: :( ?
Blue Fox: I miss talking to someone.
Otter: Awww, why?
Blue Fox: I feel good when I talk to him.
Otter: You can call him... :)
(2 minutes later... Blue Fox calls Otter)
Otter: Hi~
Blue Otter: Haha, I lied again. I meant you.
Otter: (giggles)
Blue Fox: (nervously laughing) Anyways, I have to go back to work. I will call you later...
Otter: Mmmkay. I'll see you later~
Blue Fox: Mmmm~ Haha, I'll see you later. Buh-bye~
Otter: (gushing behind the phone again)

Otter is Gushing Too Hard.

Blue Fox: What's your favorite show?
Otter: Guess. Haha, since you already know so much about me. I'm sure you'll get this right.
Blue Fox: But I got your left hand wrong... If only I was holding your hand.
Otter: (gushing on the phone... AGAIN)

(Note: He already knew. He was just hoping that I'd forget that I told him. Lol?)

Otter And Her Random Stomach Aches.

So, I had one of those random stomach aches and I guess it's what I ate that made me feel a little... Air-y. And as lovey-dovey as I am, I told Blue Fox while he was at work that I had a stomach ache. Minutes later, he gets off work and not even a minute later, he calls me while he's in the car with his father and talks to me about how I feel, what I'm feeling and taught me over the phone how to do pressure points on myself if and when I have a stomach ache again... He told me to press on a point on my hand on a spot where it hurts and do that for five seconds, then rotate hands and when I rotate again, I do it counter clockwise. And then he asked me what I ate and I told him in diary mode and he said that it's probably that I ate too little within the day or what I ate wasn't good enough for dinner? Then he told me that he will call me after he arrives home and eats. Thirty minutes later, he calls me again to check up on me. Blue Fox asks, "Are you laying down?" and I told him "no" and he said, "Lay down..." and I did so. Then he gave me a set of instructions like, "Once you lay down on your back, spread out your arms straight, and inhale from your nose and exhale out your mouth. After a few minutes of that, rub your belly up and down."

And then I asked, "(giggles) Are you doing this with me right now?" and he replied, "(laughs) Yes."

Turtle, I think I'm in deeeeeeeeep love trouble. LOL.

Floating Too High,
Otter

Blue Fox and Otter II

(Texting Blue Fox who's coming home at 4am from his friends house on Monday)
Otter: Don't drive home if you're tired, sleepy or anything. I don't want you to get into an accident.
Blue Fox: I don't think I will.
Otter: Well, just in case.
Blue Fox: I feel woosy and I have a headache.
Otter: THE MORE NOT TO DRIVE!
Blue Fox: Oh well, I'm driving now.
Otter: WHAT? AND YOU'RE TEXTING ME?!
(Blue Fox calls; Otter answers)
Otter: And you're now calling me?!
Blue Fox: Mhmm. The red light was taking forever and I wanted to talk to you while I wait but it's green now.
Otter: Sigh, I don't want you to get a ticket.
Blue Fox: A ticket for talking on the phone with you, that's fine. A ticket for running a red light, I might be worried.
Otter: YOU RAN A RED LIGHT?!
Blue Fox: Actually... Two. Anyways... I'm sorry for making you worry, but I lied.
Otter: About?... Feeling woozy and having a headache?
Blue Fox: Mhmm. (giggly-laugh) I'm sorry. I feel fine.
Otter: It's okay. (chuckles) Haha, good.

You Are My Electron.

(Blue Fox thought I was a right-handed person)
Otter: Nope, I'm left-handed!
Blue Fox: That's so attractive that you are left handed.
Otter: (laughs)
Blue Fox: Disregard my last message.
Otter: (laughs)
Blue Fox: I'm minus, you're positive. Like if I'm a fat kid, you're ice cream.
Otter: We are like electrons and protons in a neutral atom. :)
Blue Fox: I want to be in an unstable atom. So we could create fireworks.
Otter: (LAUGHS)
Blue Fox: I don't know what that meant. Disregard that one because it's deep and makes me sound too sentimental.

Blue Fox and Teal Fox-Otter.

Blue Fox: What's your favorite ice cream?
Otter: Ummm...
Blue Fox: Wait, don't tell me. It's chocolate chip mint, right?
Otter: WHAT?! HOW DID YOU KNOW?!
Blue Fox: (laughs)
(Note: Not even our mutual friends know I like chocolate chip mint!)

Blue Fox: Which side of the bed do you sleep on more?
Otter: Hmmm...
Blue Fox: I think you sleep on the right.
Otter: Whaaaaat! How... How did you know?!
Blue Fox: I just seem to know so much about you but I don't know why. It's weird... I like it. It's okay, I sleep on my right, too.

--------------------------------

Last night, while on the phone with Blue Fox, we were talking about random things as usual and I realized that we have so much in common... It's scary. I've never met someone whom I have so much in common with and still make my heart beat whenever he calls me. Everytime I think of him, I get a text. Everytime I feel like I want to hear his voice, he calls me. Everything I remember in our conversation, he thinks of it too but we both don't say anything about it until someone brings it up. I automatically feel connected with Blue Fox... And it's weird. It really is a weird feeling and... I like it.

See! Now that I'm blogging about him, he just texted me. CRAZY!

It's You, Me and Soonja.

Otter: I have to brush my teeth... (starts brushing teeth)
Blue Fox: You should get everything teal. Teal toothbrush, teal toothpaste, teal clothes...
Otter: Will my teeth turn teal if my toothpaste is teal?
Blue Fox: Yes. It'll effect your smile but you'll still be good. OH, you should get a teal car. A TEAL MONSTER TRUCK... Yeeeeahhh...
Otter: I was thinking of getting a teal electric car.
Blue Fox: A WHAT?!
Otter: ... An electric car.
Blue Fox: You have bad taste in cars.
Otter: I'm not getting it in real life! I'm only getting it because it's teal.
Blue Fox: Why?
Otter: Because it only has three seats.
Blue Fox: So? Who else are you going to be driving around? Besides you and I?
Otter: Soonja. (Blue Fox's female pitbull)
Blue Fox: Aww, but we can stick her in the trunk.
Otter: Noooooo~ You keep her in a cage at night, that's enough for her. She gets the backseat to herself, with a pup-seatbelt.
Blue Fox: They have those?! Hmm. But I want her to stick her head out with her tongue out like "ehhhhh~"
Otter: That's fine...
Blue Fox: So, in your car, it's you, me and Soonja... Nice.

Just... Be mine already.

Otter: Ohmygod, I heard there was a 6.0 earthquake near you! Are you okay? Did you feel anything?
Blue Fox: Not really. I didn't really feel anything but my dad was on the toilet when everything shook. I thought that was funny... I thought I ate something wrong and my phone is working now. Finally... I was trying to text you but couldn't... I would text you in a tornado. :) not so much in a hurricane. My phone's isn't waterproof.

Hot Stud-Muffin? Mmmm, please.

Turtle, we both said our goodbyes but I was shock to see you say goodbye to Panda! WHAAAAT! But tell me more about this... Hottie, you speak of. Mmmm, I want to hear more about this studmuffin baked from the oven of Perfection.

Even though you feel that this is not you, it's normal. You have hormones, you're stress from school and yes, you and I are hitting our quarter-midlife crisis... And then, BAM. A hottie shows up in front of you with such qualities that make you doubt the world who created such... Beauty. Am I right? Hahahaha.

That's like Blue Fox... Kinda. Even though we both have the almost same taste in everything and we have so many things in common... I can't help but keep floating towards him. He may not be the most handsome guy in the world but he is kinda cute.

Good-Bye Panda... Hellooo Hottie

 Okay, I have no friggin' idea what's happening to me lately. Maybe because of the loooong weekend or the fact that finals are approaching or maybe I'm in the middle of a midquarter-life crisis. But OMG, there's this GUY.

Yes, a guy. And it's not Panda.

 I only knew him as by name because he used to date on of my friends. This term, I actually got to see this guy and I was like, wow. I got to talk to him and he seems to be a gem of a person. Good-looking, funny, ARTISTIC (*hyperventilates*), and an incredibly cute smile. The weird thing is, I am quite open about my crushness on him. I told my friends that I think he's cute. And when I asked for his number, I was like, "if it doesn't work out with your crush, I'm just here Hottie!"  I call him Hottie, he calls me Hotness.

See what I mean?? I am NOT MYSELF!

 Then yesterday, I was feeling pretty irritated and lethargic because of the things I NEED to do that just seemed pointless, when Spam texted me out of the blue to go to the karaoke place because Hottie was there. I was like, oookaaaaaaay. I might as well drop by.

 When I got there, Spam and my other friend both gave me The Look and then pointed at Hottie. I didn't know if I was going to laugh or if I wanted to murder them. XD

The next thing I knew, I was singing and rocking it out with my friends at the karaoke. I sang a lot of songs WITH Hottie (my friends kept screaming and gushing everytime we do so), and can I just say that he's got an incredible voice!! He's good-looking, funny, artistic, and he's not afraid to work the mic! PLUS, he's a DISNEY kid.

HNNNNNGGGNH.

Floating over rainbows,
Awkward Turtle

August 20, 2011 at 9:37PM

Blue Fox: Lol. Otter... Where have you been all my life?

Barfing Out Hearts and Butterlies,
Otter

Otter Is Floating Too High.

Otter: What are you doing? Still at work?
Blue Fox: Yes. But after, I'll be doing something.
Otter: Oh, what?
Blue Fox: Guess. It has boats and spades.
Otter: Um. Poker? On a boat?
Blue Fox: Close! At a friends house. But yes, poker.
Otter: Ooh, sounds fun. You're going after work?
Blue Fox: Well I'm going to go home and EAT, lol. Then go.
Otter: Yay~ Yeah, you have to eat... If you don't, you'll get cranky.
Blue Fox: Actually after I eat, I'm going to call somone special and then go.
Otter: (gushing like a insane person behind the phone)

OMG, WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE SO... UHGNNGGG~

Butterfly-Stuffed,
Otter

I Think I Ate Too Many Butterflies.

Blue Fox: I like the rain but I love snow more.
Otter: ME TOO!
Blue Fox: I love running in the snow. Barefoot!
Otter: ... Um. As much as I love the snow, I'm not quite sure about being barefoot.
Blue Fox: That's why I'm training. And... My body tempreture is hot.
Otter: Oooh, tsssssssss~ Haha.
Blue Fox: (literally laughs out loud)

- Us texting -
Blue Fox: Hi
Otter: Long time, no see~
Blue Fox: I smile everytime you text back. I don't know why.
Otter: LOL. Same.
Blue Fox: Disregard those last two messages. They were not from me but from my heart so it is irrelevant and makes me look weak.
Otter: ( gushing like an insane person behind the phone )

Blue Fox: No one, not even WillyWonka, will ever deny how awesome you are.
Otter: Well, you're awesome too. And my words is all that counts.
Blue Fox: I've heard perfect and stud just yesterday.
Otter: Darn. (sad face)
Blue Fox: Haha, but their words don't compare to you. They are a mile behind.
Otter: ONLY a mile?
Blue Fox: Lol, yeah. My church is my family, remember?
Otter: Yeah, I knoooow...
Blue Fox: But no one has gone past my family ever! You are the first.

Replacing my eyes with hearts,
Otter

OMG, WHY AM I GIGGLY?!

Blue Fox always textes me in the mornings so before I wake up, I have a text from him saying, "Morning" and attached to it is a smiley. He even said in the first phone call, "Are you sleepy? (no) Good, because I wasn't going to let you go yet." and "I don't want to go to sleep because I'm afraid of having a nightmare." and I said, "I promise you won't get one, sleep. You have work tomorrow." and he said, "Fine. But if I get a nightmare, it's all your fault." and I said, "I promise."

The next morning, he said, "You promised me that I wouldn't have a nightmare." and I replied, "Ohmygod, did you get one?!" and he told me, "No. I didn't. (laughs)" and I said, "Oh good! My powers worked!" and he replied (and I'm thinking of it as a joke), "Your powers work on me like stardust that fills the sky... Stratch that, that didn't make sense. Wait, no. It did. But it's too long. Nevermind."

Blue Fox: I'm still at church. We are about to go to eat with some homies and gangsters and mobsters.
Otter: What about the hustlers and the swindlers? You know they're good company, those hustler and swindler fellows. Invite them too!
Blue Fox: (literally laughs out loud)

Goodbye, Indigo. Hello, Blue Fox.

Even though I've ended things with Indigo, we still speak to each other. Mostly about how we are and how job hunting for the both of us are. Other than that, nada. And... I'm perfectly fine with that.

But I found a guy. Kinda. I've never found a guy who has most things in common with me and when we joke around, we both laugh and get it even if some people don't. For some reason, I like that. Haha. Here are some things that we both have in common:

We both love rugby.
We both love outdoors-y things like camping.
We both love all animals.
We both have dogs.
We both do and love volunteering.
We both feed the homeless at our churches.
We both love being healthy.
We both love watching dramas.
We both like to read.
We both are nerds.
We both have the same style of humor.
We both are entering the miltiary.
We both feel that the military is our life.

As of now, that's all I got. He's really active in his church, he's smart and funny... GAH! So lovely~ He's Korean, waaaaaaah~ Hahahaha.

Last night, he called me. HE. CALLED. ME. I didn't even think he'd call me ever. And then Blue Fox told me when we ended our 2 hour and 41 minute coversation... He texted me saying, "I miss your voice already". (Aug. 21, 2011; 1:13am)

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!!!!

Gushy and jittery,
Otter

Rugby Lovers.

Blue Fox: Do you play any sports?
Otter: Yes. Mainly lacrosse and rugby. I'll play any sports but it's those two, basically.
Blue Fox: (surprised face) You shouldn't have said rugby...
Otter: (pause) ... Why?
Blue Fox: I love rugby.
Otter: Ohmygod! For a second there, I was thinking you were going to say you hated it.
Blue Fox: Haha, Otter. Stay in Seattle.
Otter: Aw, why?
Blue Fox: Haha, I might fall in love if you came here.

LOLOL, OMG. I NEVER FELT SO FLATTERED. LOL.

Flattered,
Otter

LOL Turtle.

"I said hi and he asked me how I am. OHMYGAHD WHY IS HE SO TALL??"

LMFAO!

Make a move. Hold his hand. Stick your hands in his back pants pocket. Tap his butt while he walks away. DO SOMETHING! This man needs to be yours! Before I get back, you guys should be married already. Or at least engaged.

Thanks Turtle!

Love,
Otter

Sometimes, I Envy... Men.

You might be wondering, "Envy MEN? WHYYYYYYY?!?!?!" hooooold up! I don't envy most of the things that men have or do but there is one thing that I do envy in men and that's their eyelashes.

Now, why eyelashes? Because most of the guys that I've been seeing lately (seeing, in this context means spying) have really long, thick and nice lashes. Now, as a female, I want eyelashes too. Mine are short and they aren't really thick and since I don't have a crease on my eyes, the more you won't really notice them.

When I was driving down back to Seattle from Marysville, I was on a freeway passing by Lynwood... And there I saw, a cute guy driving a navy blue Suzuki X-Trail and as his car was right next to mine... I couldn't help but notice how long his lashes are for a male. I guess he noticed that I was staring at him so hard that he looked to his left and into my car. I was so shocked and forgot that I was looking at him for a long time... I turned my head away as quick as I could.

I didn't get to see his face.

But his eyelashes... I will never forget.

Jealous,
Otter

Pandaaaaa

  Yesterday, I saw Panda by accident. I was looking for my friends outside the campus. They said they were at a little carinderia near in the area somewhere at our favorite karaoke place. So I stood by the karaoke place, looking for a place that serves chicken guts and barbecue when I saw Panda walking toward my direction!

 My friends weren't kidding when they said he's gone from hot to HOTTER. Like, GOD, please tell me he likes weird girls who wear black rain boots with pink heart prints on them. I said hi and he asked me how I am. OHMYGAHD WHY IS HE SO TALL??

 I told my brother about him and he was like,
B: How tall is he?
Me: Taller than our brother (who's a 6 flat)
B: That's a shitload of tall.

Anyway, Panda asked me where I'm going. I told him that I was looking for my friends who say that they were around the vicinity. He had a friend with him who was pretty cute but my eyes were just for PANDAAAA. Panda was on his way to the nearby bar and asked if I wanna look for my friends there. I was thrilled all the way to my toes!

 So we walked for a few minutes when my friend texted where exactly they are. So Panda kissed me on the cheek again. (*_*) I just wanted to grab the guy and take him home!! I love the feeling that he has to bend down to make beso and I gotta tiptoe to meet him halfway. HNNNNNGGH.

So when we went our seperate ways, I was like:

And my friends saw the whole thing. :D


Wants to take Panda home,
Awkward Turtle

True Story

 My sister told me of her friend's story when she and her little brother tagged along for Communion during mass.

Priest: Body of Christ...

Li'l Boy: Macho!!



ROFL-ing,
Awkward Turtle

Otter Says It's A Go.

Turtle! That's an amazing opportunity! I say you should take it and hope that you get accepted... Even if you miss two terms of school, that's alright because you can always go back to school but this is an opportunity that will fulfill your life and even stretch your resume, too! It sounds like a lot of fun and something that I think a lot of people should be apart of and it'll be better if you do.

Send in that application! :)

Fridgety,
Otter

Global Xchange

 To answer your question Otter, GLobal Xchange is program between UK and the Philippines that promotes global activism and citizenship and yadayadayada...

Basically, they'll pick 10 Filipino volunteers and 10 British volunteers to go to disadvantaged areas in Bohol and then Bradford UK. In each place, we'll stay for 3 months and do volunteer work together. It's a bit tricky coz if I do get accepted, that means I have to go on leave of absence for 2 terms just so I'll be able to undergo training and then the program proper.

I'm nervous. But I really want to be part of it.

So yeah, it's one of the things I'm working on right now coz deadline of application forms will be on the 28th.

Busy bee,
Awkward Turtle

Job Hunting Continues...

Just when I apply for something that I'd like to be apart of... I didn't get the position.

Who rejected me? Target.

TARGET REJECTED ME.

I'm sorry, Target but you are letting go a good employee that you'd be grateful to have.

Sincerely,
Otter

PS: Turtle~ What's Global Xchange Program?

Finals Finals Finals

 We'll be having our final examinations by late August, so we're all rushing our projects, papers, activities, and on top of that I have a recording session with a family friend who owns a recording studio, plus I have to pass the application form for the Global Xchange program!!

I never thought the month of August could be so ghastly.

Will update more soon. Promise.

Busy busy busy,
Awkward Turtle

Otter Updates. Kinda.

Woot! Sorry I haven't been on here for a while... My cousin has been taking over the computer. So, I'm stuck on the couch, looking at the ceiling. Since I am cable-less at the moment, there's not much to do but eat and I'm not going to start boredom eating again.

But since I've been on the computer, I'm going to catch up on stuff. Dramas, shows and news. So far, I've watched the first episode of the Jersey Shore (yes, I love that show because the drama is not happening to me) and I'm going to finish my Korean drama "49 Days" which I never thought I'd like but I do.

So far, Nordstrum hasn't called me so I'm applying at Target, but when I am... It says that the server is temporarily unavailable after step three of applying online. Sigh. If not, I'll apply at Old Navy. Haha. I'm trying to find other places that I can get that's near or a place where I can easily car pool in the mornings.

Let's hope something happens soon!

Really lonely,
Otter

Who's Good-looking?

When women ask, "am I fat?", guys ask, "am I good-looking?"

This is some sort of psychological warfare between genders.

Like my ex, who asked if I thought he was handsome. Handsome? No. But did it matter? Of course not. My bestfriend relayed to me that her boyfriend asked if she thought he was good-looking. My best friend ended up howling in laughter, which pretty much answers the question itself. (Well, he's not ugly.)

Looks may get the initial attraction, but the reason why the girl stays is because of what's beyond your looks.

Planning to get a haircut,
Awkward Turtle

WHO RUN THE WORLD? (goosebumps!!)

Thank God, Sgt. Hernandez!

Okay, so I just got off the phone with Sgt. Hernandez! FINALLY, RIGHT?! I called the office and he wasn't there yet and another recruiter anwered and said that he'll be in by 1PM but I decided to call his cellphone again and I thought he wouldn't answer and I'd just be putting in another voice mail BUT LUCKILY, he answered. I was surprised! So I told him my problem, saying that the education evaluation was constantly sent back to me saying that it was not deliverable and stuff... And the applicaton and the address on a separate sheet of paper was given to me FROM Sgt. Hernandez. So, I followed instructions and when I told him that I tried sending it once I got to Seattle, it did the same thing. So I called the company (Foundation of International Service), they told me they switched locatons and gave me their new one. So, I sent my application there. Once they got it, they sent me an email saying that they can't do anything about it because the application is for another company. So I got irritated and I emailed them back saying to send it back to me and I'll fill out their application (but that's just a little lie because I needed to ask Sgt. Hernandez)

So when I told Sgt. Hernandez, he said that the application has the address on top. AND THAT'S WHAT I WAS WONDERING BUT HE GAVE ME A SHEET OF PAPER, HIGHLIGHTED 'FOUNDATION OF INTERNATIONAL SERVICES, INC.''S ADDRESS AND TOLD ME TO SEND IT THERE!!! D:<

OHMYGOD, I ALMOST SQUEEZED MY PHONE BROKEN! UHG, so much wasted time!!! SO, once I get my application sent back to me for the third time... I will send it to the one on top and get this freaking ball rolling~!

OH, and he said that he has recieved my emails but "had no time to reply to any of them" and he just got off the phone with Julia a minute before I called. LAME. A recruiter should keep in touch with me you know? BAH. Whatever, at least I got this done! :)

Pucca Strikes Again

I think it's Pucca's life path to totally piss me off. Last Sunday, my groupmates and I all agreed to meet up in the resto across our school. On my way there that day, Pucca texted me that he'll be waiting at Mall of Asia.

WTF DUDE.

I said meet at Point A, then he decides to go at Point D?? I swear my blood pressure shot up and I had to hold myself back from thrashing the nearest passerby. WHY does he have to complicate things?? WHY?

It was a good thing Teddy was there to soothe my nerves when we drove to MOA to find him. On top of that, we couldn't contact Pucca because his phone was dead, though he did mention he'll be waiting at TBoy.

He waited for a couple of hours for us, because I had to wait for Teddy. And MOA is HUGE. It only added to my fury because I hate going to big-ass malls.

So when we finally met up with him, he was pissed. I was pissed. So Teddy was sort of a mediator. Pucca had no right to be pissed!




Anyway, in recent news, I went to school even though it was raining like murder. Only to be informed minutes later after I arrived in school that classes have been suspended.

Walking in rain boots,
Awkward Turtle