OTTER IS BACK! HELLO!

I am back, lovers! To be honest, I didn't like that I was gone for so long and there were so many things I wanted to blog about but I didn't have a laptop! So I had to write down the titles for what I wanted to right about... But a lot has happened and I will slowly fill you guys in. But for now, here's a gist of it and I will add in more~ Oh how I missed you guys! Especially you, Turtle! :D

December 15th: It has only been a week and a day since my best friend left for Hawaii and I'm stuck in the house with her boyfriend and we occasionally have our neighbor come over and have a few drinks with us. But this night was a little different... As a best friend, if my best friend were to ask me what her boyfriend is doing, I will tell her how I see it and what's going on... I'm not going to lie about it so I suppose with all the things that I've been telling her, she would text her boyfriend saying some stuff that eventually tumbled into a "get out of my fucking apartment!" conversation. Sadly, as that happened, we had our neighbor over and we were all drinking (I had two weak beers) and her boyfriend storms into the bathroom for almost hour, crying. Meh, I'll leave it be. When he was finished throwing tantrums in the bathroom, punching the door and walls and saying stupid shit like "I want to kill myself, what is the quickest way to die?". After that scene, he comes out and starts chugging a beer as if he's some big shot and starts going off on me. "I don't know why Emily is getting all of these assumptions... And I guess it's from you. And I don't like that you guys are talking behind me back.", he hollered. And I guess we're going to go at it. I let him speak all that he wanted and I told him that we (my best friend and I) just wanted him to get off his ass, go find a job and do something with his life because he is 24-years-old now. He hasn't worked in four years, isn't in school, isn't looking or has the desire to have a job and he's basically doing nothing. He's so poor that he has to rely on food stamps provided by the government and that cannot support my best friend and their two dogs yet he thinks it's all good. Yeah fucking right. Then he said, "I don't want a job. I don't want to get a job. It'll be a waste of my time~ Why would I want to go and apply for jobs when I know they're not going to hire me?" and with that, I told him that he needed to do whatever he can to make money because for one, my best friend isn't going to be here in California for long if she has no where else to go after he GI Bill runs out and two, growing your own mj-plants ain't going to help you bring in money. "Do I look stupid? Seriously, you can say otherwise, it won't hurt me, but do you think I look stupid? Do you think I'd grow and risk going to jail if I didn't think it'll bring good money?! My harvest will finish by February, and then I can expand and grow more and make more. With that, I can make $3000 ever two weeks! That's better than working a stupid minimum wage job!" Wow. Apparently, he thinks minimum wage jobs are for high schoolers and beaners. I told him that finishing school, getting a degree and having any minimum wage job is better than sitting at home, literally watching plants grow, play video games all night, sleep all day and wake up at 4pm, and not care about the dogs and just basically vegetate on the damn couch and all he did was call me 'childish' and that I don't know too much about weed because I don't read about it nor smoke it to understand and that comment right there pretty much sums up who's the childish one in the apartment. Then he blames me for him not finishing up his resume because I was on the laptop, using Facebook all day and I told him, "Why couldn't you just ask me if what you have to do is more important?" and he said, "I don't like asking people, I'd rather wait until you got off." BUT, that didn't seem to stop him from asking me to use the computer to check something or update his music on the iPod Touch... So, I took that as bullshit too and me being on Facebook all day? That's such bull! I'm on the computer because I'm online applying for jobs, looking for jobs, looking for cars for Emily and I and contacting my recruiter so I can get this Air Force thing started but of course he wouldn't know jack shit because all he knows and searches online is about weed, searches for items for his weed and wants to expand and he talks to random people on his weed forums... Then our neighbor goes and says that my best friend is just going through some stuff and that it'll all blow over and he suggested that he should just submit to her because she's a female. And you know what her boyfriend said? "No, I don't have to submit. I want the girl to submit to me... Like her mom! Her mom's Japanese and submits to her American dad! That's why I like Japanese people! And that's why I like Emily! But no... She's different. She's just a bitch." - Red flag. That. That blew me off. So I went ahead and yelled at him, told him that he shouldn't be saying shit about her and her family like that because he knows nothing about her parents and they hate him. And he thinks he's cool with her dad? I don't think so. Just because they went out for a drink doesn't mean they're "cool". My best friend's dad told him off when they hung out so obviously that already shows he doesn't like you. Then he goes off and starts disrespecting me... And to be honest, that's fine. He can say whatever he wants to me because he obviously got it all wrong but I blew up when he started to disrespect my best friend and her family; which is my family too so... I don't take that shit lightly. And we were fighting each other that we were basically yelling and in each other's faces. What I also didn't like is that since he lived a ghetto life, he says that my best friend and I have "perfect lives" because we were raised in the military and have everything handed to us but our lives aren't perfect, and I can tell you mine was far from and for him to say that basically shows that he knows nothing about her and I. "Before you tell Emily anything, you have to be careful how you say it because she'll take it the wrong way and act like a fucking Korean." - Fuck. You. I'll show you how a fucking Korean acts in this situation, asshole. "Ohmygoddd, you and Emily are childish~ You both are the same! You both are like fucking Koreans."

"If he ever hits you, let me know so I can come over there and kick his ass." - Licorice

"Reanne, listen to me. If he ever lays a hand on you, you need to fucking tell me because I will go over there and beat him. He better not even touch you! He better... Ugh... I swear... Reanne, you are mine and if he even dares, he's done!" - Ryan 

After we both cooled off and whatnot, he came to apologize... However, I didn't accept it because that kind of shit doesn't fly with me and it's that kind of act and those kind of words that are unforgivable to me.

December 30: Jell-O has been in Temecula since the 15th and I understood that he might not have so much time for me because he has to spend time with his family, extended family and some friends so I knew that he couldn't just come out to see me. However, he would always tell me that he wants to come see me, would try to borrow his brother's car (because he got his car into an accident) and would come out to see me even if my best friend's boyfriend was in the house. So, of course, I'd be somewhat excited to see him so we could finally hang out. "I wanna see you, babe" "Baby, I can't wait to see you." "I'm going to try and come up and see you today" and on the 27th, I was job hunting and we were suppose to hang out then but something came up and plans got canceled. Meh, okay. I'll let it slide but it wasn't until the 30th, sometime in the afternoon, he asked if I was busy...

J: Come over, baby. Let's watch a movie together.

Me: Sure, but you'd have to come and pick me up.

J: But the drive...

Me: You're only 20~30 minutes away and you have a car.

J: My phone says you're 45 minutes away.

Me: Doubt it. Temecula to Riverside, you can get here no longer than 30 minutes.

J: Let me check Mapquest. What's your address?

Me: ...

J: Mapquest says you're 52 minutes away.

Me: Don't trust Mapquest, babe! Trust meeee~ You will get here in 20~30 minutes.

J: But I'd have to go all the way there, bring you here, then drive you back and then come back home. That's four times the drive.

Me: And it will take only 20 minutes each...

J: (silence)

Me: Fine. If it's such a hassle for you, don't come.

J: Babe, don't make me feel bad.

Me: I'm not. You're just not ready to come see me so forget it.

J: But I do want to see you.

Me: Then get in your brother's car, drive over here and pick me up.

J: (silence)

Me: Okay. Don't come anymore.

J: It's just the drive but I do want to see you.

Me: Apparently not.

J: Maybe I can just come over...

Me: And I have Emily's boyfriend here? Would you be okay with that?

J: Gaaaaay

Me: You're still not coming?

J: (silence)

Apparently, I'm not worth the effort and the 20-minute drive. That really pissed me off and I was really irritated... If Licorice can drive 40 minutes to come see me, go back home, hang with friends, then drive to see me again and go back home for two days straight, I don't see why he couldn't drive fucking 20 minutes. So. Deuces.

Sadly, this was the day I started to think that Licorice was ignoring me. Why? I have no idea. Am I curious? Yes. Would I even ask? Probably not. I mean, I don't have feelings for him enough to freak out about it but I am curious... Seeing that I didn't even do anything wrong and I know I should care but he deleted me off of Facebook too. Hmm.

Also, this is the day where my best friend asks about my "plan b" about living situations since her boyfriend moved in sooner than expected, it's three people in a studio apartment. So, I will take the hint and now I have to find a place to go... Again. I'd want to go to San Diego only because then I wouldn't have to move so far and I can still see a recruiter here and still try and find a job but my mother wants me to go back to Canada because all my family members are there but I didn't want to go back to Canada because of the reason why I left in the first place. BUT, if I can get on DEP before February, then I'll go to Canada while I wait for a job to open up.

December 31: This was a better day because I was able to see my friend Angel whom I haven't seen since the 7th grade. He came out to see me and we drove all the way to San Diego. We stopped by La Jolla Beach, watched sea lions and touched sea creatures living in between the rocks and we went to PB (Pacific Beach) and then he dropped me all the way home. It was a good day~ And then when I came home, I realized that I'll be celebrating New Years with people I don't even want to spend it with. While my best friend's boyfriend and our neighbor go to the liquor store to get drinks, I was on the bed and I fell asleep and they didn't even wake me up... And honestly, I'm glad they didn't because I didn't feel like drinking.

January 1~5: I did nothing much during this time except talk to a Riverside USAF recruiter to finish off this process so I can enter already. There was a ton of exchanging calls with my recruiter in Guam but now that I found a solution and made an appointment to see a recruiter to help me out on Monday at 2:30pm. So hopefully, this process can be over with, I can be sworn in and on DEP and then... Go from there. Let's hope that this works out this time... If it doesn't work out, I'm entering the army.

January 6th: My best friend finally came back from Hawaii! Her boyfriend and our neighbor went to go pick her up~ I'm glad that she's back, I've missed her. Now, we can go to the gym and eat Korean and Indian food! Yay! :)

Finally, I've summed up the last month and now that it's 2012, I'm trying to make it happen this year but my best friend's boyfriend keeps talking about how the world is going to end anyways. (Stfu).