I Admire Allan.

So there’s this guy that I want to introduce you to; his name is Allan.

He’s the typical blonde hair, blue eyed, piercing yet capturing voice, all-American guy and he’s a member of my church. He’s a funny and an outgoing guy even though he’s very shy but once you get to know him, he’s not quiet. He did his mission in Europe, he knows how to speak German and French and he knows American Sign Language so sometimes you’ll see him translate our sacrament meetings in ASL.

Why am I talking about Allan? Because I recently found out something that makes me admire him even more.

What is that you ask? Well I found out that his mother, father and sister are deaf.

He is the only one that can hear and speak despite the fact that his mother, father and sister are deaf. He doesn’t talk about his family much but ever since I found that out, my admiration for him went to another level.

A lot of people take voices, speaking and talking for granted and there are some that wish some people would “stop talking” but I can’t imagine not being able to hear or speak and communicate with others. What more with having deaf parents? I can’t imagine not hearing my father or mother talk to me and it would pain me even more that my parents can’t hear me.

It’s little things like this that make me feel more grateful for what I have and to spread charity to those around me because there are so many things we overlook and to know someone who has been going through this all his life really touches me. It makes me admire them even more because of their patience, strength and endurance.

Otter + Blue Fox = ________.

"Maybe... You need to revert down to friend status. Like best friend status, you know? So he doesn't have to have the pressure of always having to make you happy. I think that's what he's struggling with as well. He wants to show you his affections but he's unable to because he has so much things to do. But maybe, a best friend status is just what you need. Keep it super close, but still have your own space. you'll still be able to tell each other everything and I reckon in the long term, it may be more beneficial." — Tammy

“He’s just at a confusing point. Maybe you should give it a little bit of time. He’s just fighting you off now but in his heart, he knows you’ll always wait for him. So there’s this kind of comfort for him to just do that to you. You know what I mean? Like, he can just say “I can’t do this” when he REALLY does want to be with you and even by saying that, he knows you’ll never just take it and be like, “Okay, let’s stop then”. You’ll say, “let’s try” I think it’s that comfort he has… I think he’s kind of like me. Like, I only really miss that person when I physically see them. When I don’t, I don’t really miss them too much and even though he misses you, he’s also busy so there’s this comfort there that, ‘Reanne ain’t going anywhere even though I’m ignoring her for now.’“  — Tammy

“Just doesn’t know how to do long distance. It bothers me that you get treated the way you do. If I was him, you would be with me. I’d find a way to get housing for us. I would appreciate how patient and understanding you are… I would be open to you with my doubts and worries.“ — Bubu

I'm Forever Yours, Let Me Help You.

"Just know in my arms, you're embraced by love." ♡

Finally, the boyfriend called me. Final-effing-ly~ It may not be what I wanted but it's something, at least. But I'm going to be strong and patient.