"Brother Zoned"

So at church, I'm apart of a trio: Joe, Glenn and I.

We're mostly together most of the time and when we are, it's awesome. We watch movies together, we eat together and we're always together so it's almost like we're inseparable.

But lately, I've been sensing Glenn is thinking different and I should have trusted my gut because just a couple nights ago, when he was dropping me home, he was going to ask me something... I knew in my gut what it was going to be.

Marine + Mormon = Him

So, ever since the Fireside when we conjoined with other YSA's and apparently, there was a YSA that came that's two hours away and I met a lot of new people. Especially one.

29-Palms is a Marine Corps base. Some Marines came to our YSA's and they are not only Marines, but Mormons! Sounds perfect. And I met one. And we kind of clicked but he was super shy...

But we managed to exchange phone numbers. He actually texted me.

Since then, we've been talking non-stop. As much as I like him, I don't think I can do a relationship because I'm stuck with Blue Fox still. I try not to but... Still.

But Karl, the Marine Mormon, is falling head over heels for me. And as much as I like him... I can't lead him on but he's been taking my stuff a little too far and is expecting stuff. He's a great guy but he's expecting it to be romantic and stuff. :( and the fact that I leave for bootcamp in 46 days, it's going to be real hard for me and him and "us", if ever.

This is why I thought about not dating a member of the church. They get waaaaaay too ahead of themselves?

Now, he's kind of "worried".

What to do,
Otter

The Date Aftermath.

So my date with Licorice was pretty good, I actually had a great time.
The end.

Otter Has A Date With...

Just when I wanted to run today, it rains. Then it stops, then I decided to go out and buy pizza, buffalo wings, some alcohol and just chill at home freezing my ass off... And then what happens? It rains again. So, I suck it up like a boss and walk in the rain with no umbrella and no coat. Um, BADASS? Yeah.

I wore my Navy PT uniform. (Thanks, dad) and walked in the rain and it was like, 48°F! Just breathing made fog come out of my mouth. But I sucked it up and did it...

I walked, bought pizza and buffalo wings at Papa Johns, some soda, some liquor and a few sticks of Slim Jims. Mmmm, perfect. And then I walk back home...

And then, I get a text from Licorice - Orange's high school friend - and he textes me about wanting to have dinner with me on Saturday night... Well, more like 4~4:30pm...

I asked what we'd be doing and where we're going so I can dress accordingly but of course, it's a secret because he's planning it. This is one of the reasons why I hate surprises.

I don't know what to wear!

So yes, heartbroken little Otter is going on a date with a nice boy named Licorice. But in my heart, there's nothing more than I want than to go on a date with Blue Fox... Since Blue Fox has never brought a girl out on a date before, I want to be the first. And hello, I'm still-kinda the girlfriend... Sigh.

I know that it's not fair for Licorice but... I love Blue Fox. Always and forever. I'm doing this just as a small dinner date, to get to know him, make a new friend and see what happens but I'm sure that I'll be thinking about Blue Fox the whole night there.

Update! Nevermind, I now know where it is... It's at a casual-elegant restaurant in Long Beach called "Tantalum"... Sounds like tantrum. (HAHA)

((( http://www.tantalumrestaurant.com/ )))

Now... I'm freaking out even more. I NEED TO FIND SOMETHING TO WEAR!

Sigh. What am I going to wear?!?! I haven't been to an casual-elegant restaurant in a long time! Hmmmm...

This is making me feel even more sad... Because there are guys out there who are wanting me, waiting for me, want to bring me on dates, want to be my boyfriend and there are two guys that plan on wanting to make me their wifey... HUGE SIGH. Even though I have all these guys around me, I only look at Blue Fox; I only think of him, see him, love him. Sometimes I wish he knew how lucky he was... I know that he said that he was happy that I was with him and would be by his side and I know deep down he knows how lucky he is but he jokes that I should be the happier one because he's "perfect"... Well, sorry to break it to you Blue Fox but I'm perfect too. I just wish you knew how even more perfect we would be together IF ONLY we got through this rough patch...

Licorice is bringing me to a nice casual-elegant restaurant. See what kind of competition that Blue Fox has? But yet, somehow he wins me over with Asian mandarin salads for lunch and makes me some weird sausage-egg-jelly/jam sandwich with soggy-ish bread.

I just wish he knew...

STILL WONDERING WHAT TO WEAR,
Otter

A Date with Choco and Otter.

I just had my date with Choco today and I had a great time! :)

We met around 12:45PM almost 1PM and I was going to meet up with him in front of Pizza Hut, just the walk alone to meet up with him got me so nervous... I was extremely jittery, nervous, excited, anxious and it was just so much of all those emotions, I felt like I might throw up butterflies.

With all the cars parked by Pizza Hut, I almost missed him but we met up and I was so happy, I wanted to hug him but Choco is just too shy to do that... Instead, he gave me a hand-shake. (LOL) And the first thing we both said to each other was, "Oh~ We both gained weight." (laughs)

Since we both didn't eat lunch, I asked him what he wanted and he said, "Anything. (pause) Wait. Anything EXCEPT Korean food. Please (in begging form)" and in my mind I was thinking, "Mmm, rebellious~" so I took him to Italiannis and it was on me. Dessert at Red Mango and other activities were on him~ He told me that when I go to Korea, he'll treat me to kimbap (Korean sushi rolls) and ramyun (instant noodles of Korean brands) LOL. Mmm, yes. I traveled thousands of miles to be in a country where I can eat what I can make at home.

So, we both went to Italiannis, ordered and talked for a few good hours then we went to Red Mango to eat dessert and talked about what he needed for his business and then after, we went to Timezone, played some games. He schooled me at basketball by 20 points BUT it wasn't a fair start! My Timezone card delayed! Sigh. And some shooting games and whatnot. (giggles) And then we went to Fully Booked and exchanged some money then it was off to The Coffee Bean to chill and we talked for another few more hours.

We talked about things such as our plans for the future, economics, cultures, country relations, vacations, dislikes, how the American money is being managed by the Jews, China, China taking over the world, Korean movies and dramas that we watched, interesting things on the news, North Korea and other things.

Oh! And he showed me all the cakes, mousses, macaroons, chocolates and other desserts that he's been making in Korea! Ohmygod, I was about to swallow his cellphone with all the yummy goodness on his phone!

Choco even brought up that we were talking a lot. (laughs) From 12:45PM ~ 9PM, we were talking. Not really eating but talking and I didn't even realize that we were hanging out with each other for eight hours! But I did bring up the fact that we just talked more today than we have ever did in our four years COMBINED. Because in the beginning, he wasn't very good in English so he couldn't converse too much with me and he was always so shy and I was shy and my Korean wasn't very good at the time so I relied on constant cute Konglish. But now, he's more confident but still lost some vocabulary due to being in Korea for a long time. It was nice to help him with his pronunciation, grammar and word-assurance in English and it was nice that he could speak in Korean when he couldn't express something and I could understand, help and he can help me with my wording as well. It was nice.

It was nice mainly because I forgot how nice and comfortable it was to be with Choco and it wasn't until a couple hours before we were to part ways for the night that I realized how much I missed him throughout the whole four years we haven't seen each other. I know we email, text and call from time to time and if we're lucky enough, we could chat on MSN but actually being with him made me realize so many other things. It was great and I had a really good day today.

WHen he had to catch a cab to see his roommate/friend - because his friend was waiting for him for dinner - he called me two minutes after getting into the cab to tell me how happy he was to see me, how glad he was to be able to hang out with me and how he missed being around me. Also, promised to see me as soon as possible. Alright, I'll be waiting.

Too bad we're both too shy to take pictures together. :(

Happy hearted,
Otter