Life's Changing. HOLY CRAP.

I'm not on this as much as I want to be. I'm sorry.

If some of you haven't noticed, I'm leaving in three weeks and four days (25 days) and when I talk to my friends about it, some of them mention that I don't seem excited to leave like the others and honestly, I'm not. I'm not excited because I left all my excitement back in June - When I was ORIGINALLY suppose to leave - and so right now, I'm left being anxious and nervous.

I'm slightly jealous over some people that I was suppose to leave with have their first duty stations while I'm still here, just barely leaving for BMT... I'm not discouraged at all though, I'm happy for them and I know everyone has different paths in life... I suppose mine was postponed and there is possibly a reason why I'm still here.

Four More Weeks.

Four more weeks until I leave for the United States Air Force BMT (Basic Military Training).

So many emotions are interacting all at once and I don't know how to deal. But I'm sorry that I haven't been posting as much as I want to. I'll try and get it all out there before I leave though.

Just thinking about it makes me nervous and when I'm nervous, I got to go poop... Real bad. Sigh.

But I'll surely miss you, Turtle. I know I'm not leaving YET but I just want to put that out there so you know right now. :)

Soon-to-be-trainee,
Otter

March ARB Air Show Swear-In

I went to a YSA Kickoff Party in Rancho Cucamonga. I went with my friend Glenn and we got to hang out with other church members and meet new people (since there was a blood drive for Red Cross) and we got to eat some fresh burgers and hotdogs (knowing me, I got both) and some delicious watermelon!

Later, around 12:15pm, Glenn and I headed out to go to March ARB for my little swear-in (I've already sworn-in back in February) Our recruiter wanted us to do it at the Air Show to get that experience. So we had to practice marching and getting everything down before we officially do it with the Thunderbird's (amazing pilots in the USAF) and in front of 10,000 people.

It was amazing because I got to hear everyone applaud while we were about to do our thing and while we were standing in front of everyone, doing the Oath of Enlistment, F-15's and other aircraft's were flying above our heads and I just felt goosebumps, my heart was racing, it was my motivation... And I knew this is what I wanted to do.

USAF NEWS!

So today, I went to my USAF appointment and I finally spoke to a recruiter, Ssgt. Ashley Fears, and she looked up my files hoping that my stuff would be easy stuff and luckily for her, it was. It didn't take too long for her to open up my files and see what I have done in the last year... She saw that I have done my physicals (MEPS) and she has seen my ASVAB (aptitude test), I even asked her if I had to do the physicals again because a previous recruiter told me that it was only good for a year, but she said that I wouldn't have to because it's good for two years. THANK GOD. She made a few calls on how to make the process with an applicant coming from Guam and found out that she will have to do a MEPS-to-MEPS pull; meaning that she would need my current Guam recruiter to send over my stuff and once that goes smoothly, Ssgt. Ashley Fears can schedule me to go to LA and do a re-check up on my MEPS at a official MEPS facility. And after that, I can be sworn in and hopefully get a job... Since I'm thinking of going in as 'general open', hopefully I can get a spot and Ssgt. Fears said that when I go enlist as 'open', then I can get a ship-date within a month or so and I can be in basic training before summer.

FREAKING. AWESOME. AND ABOUT. TIME.

So, I'm pretty stoked! I mean, I left the recruiting office in a good mood, I even treated our neighbor German to Subway (with coupons, since we have a bunch at home) and we plan on celebrating with booze at the end of the month because he can't drink just yet. LOL. I don't know why BUT I DON'T CARE. I'M ON MY EFFIN' WAY!

Final-effing-ly,
Otter

Blue Fox is Nervous? Wow.

Blue Fox: Are you nervous coming?
Otter: Very. I'm worried, nervous, scared, excited, happy and a little jittery.
Blue Fox: To be honest, three days ago, when you told me that you were coming... I was scared and nervous because you're coming so quickly but after five minutes, I got over it and I was excited.
Otter: Awwww...
Blue Fox: Half of me is guilty for pushing you to come so early but the other half of me is like "Yessss! She's finally coming~!"

I'll be picked up by him and his roommate. I'm scared, worried, nervous and happy at the same time.

I'm so jittery right now... I feel like I'm going to throw up butterflies.

ASDLKFJSDKLFJLDFLAS,
Otter

A Very Nervous Otter

So this coming Saturday, a good guy friend of mine is coming in from Korea. Hmm, let's call him: Choco

LOL, yes. Choco. It's short for chocolate.

He's coming in on Saturday but him and I aren't meeting then because I'll be meeting up with Turtle! Yes, I didn't forget and I have it marked on my calendar. So, Choco will get a sim card and call me once he gets one and we'll figure out a way to hang out... To be honest, I'm a little nervous because we haven't seen each other in four years! Heck, just when I said that my wee-bit nervousness just turned into really nervous. GAH, what am I going to do? What am I going to wear? (nervous)

Since we haven't seen each other for a long time and he's here for at least a little over two weeks and I'm in town while he is in town too... I might as well make an extra effort to see him or we both make the extra effort to see each other. (laughs)

Ahhhh~ But I'm so nervous! T____T but I'm also happy but more nervous.

I've missed him though. Through these four years, we kind of went through a lot... From friends to more than friends to more-than-friends-who-can't-seem-to-find-the-moment-to-be-together to close friends to we're-still-close-but-we're-busy to I'm-not-sure-what-we-are-now-but-I-still-love-you-and-I-just-wanted-to-call-you-to-tell-you-that.

RAWR!

Nervous Nilly,
Otter