I. AM. DONE.

I'm tired of taking people's punches, I'm tired of being nice to people and I know I'm as patient as f---.

But this old lady is getting on my last nerve! I'm here to only help her and assist her. Sure, I'm on the computer and I'm in the room but if she needs help, she can call me. It's a small house! But I was told that she was "lonely" at night or alone in the living room so okay, I moved all my stuff outside and now, we're only like 12-feet away from each other. I watch her and since she's still independent, I let her do what she wants but if I know she needs assistance, I'm there to help.

But she keeps complaining that I don't clean the house. I don't sweep the floor, I don't wipe the floor, I don't dust the ceramic pieces, I don't water the yard and front lawn, I don't do this and that... I'm not here to clean the effing house! That's not in the job description and that's not what was agreed on in the beginning.



And earlier, we argued in the kitchen but I was being as calm as I could because she's an elderly and I let her yell at me but I told her in an assertive tone with that's on my mind. She was saying all those things to me and I could have just walked away but I stayed to hear what she said, then I told her, "If you need help, you have to call me. I know you eat at 12, but if you are to eat early, you have to call me so I can help you. I know that you can do things on your own and I am here to only assist extra help. Why is it so hard for you to ask for help from me?" and she kept saying, "You're always in the room, on the computer but you don't help me. I do things on my own... You are very slow, stubborn and you are lazy." and I told her that she needs to call me for help, then she said, "I don't need help. I don't need you to help me. I need you to clean only!" and I said, "That's not in the job description. I am here ONLY to assist you, that's why I am here, working for you. Not to clean the house." and she said, "Fine, don't clean. How many weeks have you been here? And how many times have you cleaned? I don't see you cleaning. Don't clean. Everything here, don't touch. Don't touch it anymore."

I clean ONCE A WEEK. She doesn't see me? TOO BAD. That's your fault. And she said that she doesn't want to ask for help because she doesn't like to talk. THAT, TOO, IS NOT MY FAULT! If she wants to be like that, then fine. I won't help. If she chokes, I'll stop giving her water since she won't drink it. If she drops something on herself, too bad. I'll pretend I didn't see it.

I've gotten enough insults from their side of the family ON MY family but to insult me like you've known me all my life, I won't take it.

The old lady was like, "You're joining the Air Force but you can't do anything right, you don't do anything, you can't clean but you're joining. Why? You can't do anything right."

Then her daughter told me, "What are you doing with your life? You don't go to school, you don't work, you have no money... What are you doing?"

WTF. Okay, it's not like I don't want to go to school, it's not like I don't want to work... I've been looking for a job since July! NOTHING. And I expected it because I know the economy is going bad. I get it. But to basically say that I'm not doing anything with my life, YOU DON'T KNOW ME.

And what pissed me off is when she said, "You have to keep my mother happy, I know she's hard to please but you have to try to keep her happy because if she's not, then as your employer, I won't pay you. But you have to try really hard, but if you want her to really like you, you have to massage her legs and just do what she tells you to do." - Um... No. I already feel uncomfortable seeing her in the shower, what more with touching her leg? I don't even want to touch her shoulder! WHAT MORE WITH HER LEGS?!

Goddddd. NOW you want to change the original agreement? Screw that! Give me my $600 and I'm out. To be honest, people doing this job earn $2000 a month and I'm only getting $600. I'm underpaid but I see it as a job and I need money so I didn't mind but they are asking more than what was originally planned and I'm not having it.

I'm in talks with my mother about a Plan B. I might live with my best friend, Emily, I don't know. We'll see.

I've been crying for the last three days with all these insults and I'm getting by with a strong heart but not having my somewhat-boyfriend-Blue Fox-jerk-love, it just makes it harder because he usually tells me to stay positive and he would tell me something funny.

I've been quiet about this and not having Blue Fox is just making it harder...

But today, this old lady just made me explode and I keep crying.

I'm done here. I'm going to get out of here... This is stupid!

Fired up,
Otter

PS: Before coming into the house, the neighbors four month old puppy ran out of the house and came to me. Licked me and started playing with me. I spoke to the neighbor for a little bit and the puppy did his afternoon business. It cheered me up~ Sigh, I miss my babies... :(