Otter's (trying) New Plan

Oh, Indigo.

Here's the thing I'm trying to do - yeah, trying - I'll try to calm the hell down. Yes, I like him a lot. Yes, I'm smitten. Yes, he's the closest to my type. Yes, I want a relationship (in the future). Yes, I want him all to myself. But I realized that I can't have that now... As much as I want it now, I can't. It just wouldn't work. (sad face) I love everything about him and I know that there's going to be so much that we can do together and so much more. We might get to see each other when we're both in the States; we'll only be separated by one state... I would love to see him if we could see each other. I'm going to be starting a new life, and he's going to continue with his; how will that work out? It might, it might but the chances are slim and I really, really, really want it to work out. So, here's the thing, I'll let it develop. I'll let whatever this is develop. As much as it kills me to wait patiently, I'll do it. Because he's worth it. We'll call, text, Skype, chat, drive up to see each other and send more letters to each other... I'll be more than willing. I love his company, I love when we talk really late at night and everything... Like I said, I'll bottle up whatever just to have his company, just to have him around, protecting me and to have him with me.

Half of me is agreeing that I can do this, patiently. The other half of me is shouting, "I miss you too much! Come back!" ~ Sigh.

Let's see how this goes,
Otter