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Blue Fox: I just got your message just now.
Me: Oh? Now? What message?
Blue Fox: About what I did.
Me: Oh. Yeah. You didn't tell me what you did. Lol.
Blue Fox: I met up with old friends.
Me: Are they from high school?
Blue Fox: Yup
Me: Are they the ones you played poker with?
Blue Fox: Nope
Me: Still sounds like fun~
Blue Fox: How
Me: Just seeing friends you haven't seen in a long time is fun. Especially when you haven't seen them in years.
Blue Fox: It's only been two months.
Me: Still.

After he stopped talking to me, he called me on his work phone. And it was the phone number that wasn't registered on my phone but had the same area code as Blue Fox. And I called once, but it just rang. But he called me and spoke to me... He said that he has a "proposition" for me. He said that I have to at least check this out. He was like, "Just check it out, I think you'll like it. No. I know you'll love it." and then he told me about how he spoke to a girl who was going to join the Air Force and them ditched that to join this company he's with and went all out with it. And he told me that I need to get a ride and check it out.

What shocked me was when he said this: "I'm coming to Los Angeles in May. So I'll come out to see you."

When he said that, I was so shocked/happy/excited and wasn't sure if I was just dreaming so I made him repeat it like four times! And then he said, "Yeah, I'll come out to see you or you'll have to come out here" and that's because he'll only be there less than a week for some event for his company.

I did ask him if I could do this alongside with the Air Force and he said that I can but he keeps insisting that this is better and that I don't need to do it. And whenever I bring it up, he seems like he doesn't want me to join. That's why he's persistent in me joining this thing he's in. I mean, I'll ask my neighbor if he'd like to tag along and check it out with me and see what this is all about but...

I was excited, nervous and a little confused when he called me but I really wanted to tear when we were talking because I've missed him so much... And my friend/roommate asks me if I would quit/stop the USAF if Blue Fox wanted me to and honestly, I've said it before... If you remember one of my conversation posts with Blue Fox, I told him that I'd quit/leave the air force for him and I remember him saying, "babygirl, that makes me love you even more but I can't stop you from what you want to do in life" or something like that but I remember I was saying that because I wanted us to work out no matter what and for him not to be lonely since he was saying that when I'm gone, he'd be lonely  and wouldn't know what to do or not know if he could wait for me when I wouldn't be lonely when I'm out, waiting doing my thing. I worked so hard for this and I don't want to let it go... And I don't want to let go of something that I've worked so hard for and for someone that I don't even know if I'd end up with in the end but I do want to be with him.

Sigh~,
Otter