Blue Fox and His "Nine Others".

Last night, I spoke with Blue Fox. Actually, I shouldn't be starting my blogs like this because my days and nights start and end with Blue Fox. Lol.

So last night, we spoke.

Yesterday, I wasn't feeling too good and I absolutely felt zero motivation today... Zero motivation for anything. So I wanted to talk to Blue Fox but apparently, it didn't end up being the happy conversation I was hoping for.

Blue Fox: Did you buy the ticket yet? Did you speak with your mom yet?
Otter: No...
Blue Fox: And why not?
Otter: People are calling her and she keeps telling me that she'll call me back, but when she does, something comes up. It's just a bunch of bad timing.
Blue Fox: Well. I want you here within two weeks... After two weeks, I'm going to go crazy.
Otter: Didn't you say that you'd wait for me?
Blue Fox: Yes. I did. But there's one of you and seven of me. (T/N: Seven sides of Blue Fox) and all seven of me want you... So waiting for you is times seven for me. And it hurts. It's painful that you're not here with me yet...
Otter: (Huge sigh) ...
Blue Fox: I don't understand why you're sighing... Talk to me. You know what? I'm going to worry you even more...
Otter: What?! What for? Don't you think yesterday was enough already?
Blue Fox: No. I feel that wasn't enough because you're still there. Do you need motivation?
Otter: I have zero motivation today.
Blue Fox: (sigh) Okay. Remember how I told you that there are other girls in line? Wanting me? And there's a lot of other girls that like me? Well, if you don't come... I'll have to go to them. Do you want that? I'll just wink at them or snap my fingers and they come running. They're waiting for me and they are always around. I see them everyday and I have classes with them everyday... How does that make you feel?
Otter: (no response)
Blue Fox: ... Would you want that?
Otter: (quiet) No...
Blue Fox: Alright then. I don't understand why it takes you so long to reply. How do you feel?
Otter: Half of me is upset, the other half of me is saying to stay longer to see what happens.
Blue Fox: No! (sigh) Don't do that.
Otter: I'm just saying how I feel.
Blue Fox: They're nice girls, but they're not funny...
Otter: ... Then go and date them. If they're nice girls, date them. Since they want you, date them. Go.
Blue Fox: I don't understand why you'd want me to date them. I don't want to but I am single.
Otter: Then go. We're not together yet so go. They're nice and they want you and they are there why not give it a try.
Blue Fox: But I don't want to. I don't want them. I just want one. That's why you need to come here. I'm trying to get you here~

I'm pretty much aware that Blue Fox is the "perfect guy" for girls. That's why there's a lot of girls who like him and are trying to get with him. There are at least nine girls at school... AT THE LEAST. And then I can imagine how many girls like him at his church. There are a lot of guys dying to be with me but... I don't boast about it as much as Blue Fox. And I'll be honest... It did hurt my feelings that he said all that. Saying that he'll go to them if I don't come. It's like, "Ffffffff all you girls! STAY AWAY FROM MY..." I can't say 'boyfriend' because he isn't my boyfriend officially. Sigh.

He asked me to talk to him about how it makes me feel and I just felt really upset that he says things like that which make me think that sometimes, he wants to flirt with girls but half of me is thinking that he's just motivating me. I also hate it when he says shit like, "If I knew that this (what we have) wasn't going to be anything, I would have deleted your contact number a long time ago. But if you're not willing to want to be with me as much as I want to be with you, then you should just stop talking to me." Was that suppose to be motivation?

I even told him that I'll try and get there quick because I'm afraid that I'd lose him. And he said, "You're not going lose me, you hear me? I just want you here with me. You are not going to lose me..."

Blue Fox: Are you motivated now?
Otter: (quiet) Yes...
Blue Fox: What? What was that? I can't hear you...
Otter: (quiet and sighing) Uhg. Yessss~ I'm motivated.
Blue Fox: (laughs) That was a little better. Anyways, I have a PT test in five hours. I have to go~
Otter: Okay. Goodnight~
Blue Fox: Wait, hold on.
Otter: Mmm?
Blue Fox: ... I love you. Goodnight.
(Blue Fox hangs up)

I hate it when you do that but it's nice to see you open up more and hear you say you love me more often.

Motivated? Yeah, motivated to kill these girls.

Sigh,
Otter